A/N: SEE, I SAID I'D UPDATE TODAY. CAN'T LEAVE YOU GUYS HANGIN FOR TOO LONG :P SO THANKS TO: berrycharismatic I hate cliffhangers too but I gotta put one in every now and then. JNH'sGirl52886 we shall see soon. NOW ON WITH THE CHAPTER THAT WAS GONNA BE 3 SEPARATE ONES BUT I THOUGHT I'D TRY TO MAKE UP FOR THE CLIFFHANGER, SO LET ME KNOW IF IT DID :D
"Katy, there you are. John's been wondering where you've been, come on" Mike said as he walked up to us.
"We'll talk later" Matt said and walked away
"Whatever. I don't have time for this shit anyways" I said to myself and followed Mike back to the locker room.
"What took you so long?" Johnny asked as I walked in
"I just wanted some time alone. Is that ok?" I cocked off
"What the hell did I do?" Johnny yelled back
"Sorry, I'm just not in a great mood today"
"You were earlier. What happened Girly?" Mike asked as he sat down next to me and put his arm around me.
I took his arm off my shoulders and got up to get into my bag "I don't wanna talk about it" I got my laptop out that Jeff bought for me, he said it was an early birthday present. "I'm goin back down to catering" I said and left. I just wanted to get my mind off Jeff for a while so I checked my mail and surfed the net. Then I decided to check myspace since I hadn't for a while. I noticed that Itchweed had posted a new blog and that doesn't happen very often so I checked it anyways. It said:
Ok guys, I've got a bit of a problem. I want your advice. So please leave comments on this blog… So, there's this girl I met about a month or so ago and I really like her. But I haven't had the guts to tell her. She only sees me as her best friend and I respect that, so I thought I'd let things progress by themselves. But here's the problem; she now has a boyfriend that she really likes, she told me that today. The thing is, she's told me about her past (which hasn't been all that great anyways) and I know she's never had this feeling about anybody before and nobody's felt the same towards her. But I feel that way about her. But I don't know how to tell her cause there's an age difference. I'm not gonna say if she's older or younger or by how much cause then there would be biased opinions. So, regardless of age, what would you guys do?
Oh my god, is this about me? As soon as I went to push 'comment' Matt walked into catering. "Matt, come here" I waved him over
"Ya?" he asked as he sat next to me
"Is this about me?" I pointed to the screen
He read it over then looked right at me "Ya, it is"
"Dude, he's 16 years older than me. How can these thoughts even cross his mind? I mean I could kind of understand if I was at least 18 but I'm not I'm only 14, well almost 15 but still"
"Katy, all I can say is; you fall in love with who your heart tells you to. And obviously Jeff's heart chose you"
"Ok" I understand that but I still gotta think about this "I gotta analyze this shit. Whatever you do, please don't tell Johnny, Mike, Melina, Beth, Nattie or Lisa please"
"Girl, don't worry, that would be stupid of me. I would like to see my brother live. Just give him some time ok"
"Alright, thanks Matt"
"No problem" he gave me a hug and left me to my thoughts. Before I posted a comment to the blog I decided to make a new account and be secretive about it. He was still on so I got added almost right away. I went back to the blog and said:
My personal advice would be… I know the age difference isn't supposed to change our minds but maybe that's why she didn't think about you like that. Cause you're an amazing guy, anybody would be lucky to have a friend like you. So, maybe you should just cherish the friendship you guys have and hope she comes around. Oh and you should probably apologize to her for being so pissy about it.
Sorry, I had to put something in there about the attitude he gave me. But hopefully it helps him out at least a little bit.
I still wanted to be left alone, so I found something to do. I searched YouTube for Jeff videos. I can't get him off my mind today so what's the point of even trying. A lot of them were fan tributes, I haven't seen all the stuff from the attitude era yet so as I sat there watching all the stuff that Jeff has done, it just amazes me. But a bunch made me laugh too; there was some of The Hardy Show, one where a drunken Jeff is singing 'Lean On Me' at a bar, or that one of him jumping into that fire pit. As the fire pit video was ending someone sat next to me.
"Hey Katy, what's up?"
I recognize that voice anywhere, without looking away from the screen I answer "oh hey Nattie. Nothin much"
"Bull, you're sad or something. You sounded ecstatic on the phone yesterday so I know the date went well"
"It did, I'm his girlfriend now" at least that brought a smile to my face
"Awesome. Wait, where's Jeff? You guys are usually attached at the hip?"
I took a deep breath "Nattie, can I tell you something?" I asked as I looked around to make sure there was nobody within earshot.
"Ya, of course you can"
"Ok, but you can't say ANYTHING to ANYBODY. This is strictly between me and you" I made it clear. I had to tell someone cause I need to talk about it to someone besides Matt.
"I promise" she crossed her heart
"Awesome" I got back to the blog "Read this"
"Itchweed… That's Jeff, right?"
"Yep" I answered as she read it
"You don't think…"
I cut her off "Matt already confirmed, it's about me"
"Well what did Matt say about it?"
"Basically that you fall in love with who your heart tells you to, no matter the circumstances"
"I'd have to agree with that"
"So do I but it's just… I don't know" I can tell Nattie don't know what to say either; I know she's never been in a situation like this. So she was looking at the comments seeing if there were any good ones.
"Oooh, look at this comment" she pointed to mine
"Ya, I made a new account that's me"
"Look, he replied to it"
I looked and he did. It said:
Thanks for your advice. I'll take it into consideration. Oh and by the way, I wouldn't have been so pissy if she wasn't rubbing it in my face.
I shouldn't have added that last part to my comment "Ummm, you think he caught on that it was me?" I asked
"I think so. What are you gonna say?"
"This" I said and typed:
Maybe she wasn't rubbing it in your face. Maybe she was just excited to tell you something that she thought you'd be happy for her about.
"You're bad" Nattie smirked
"Hey, he started it"
She threw her hands up defensively "Ok but whatever happens, I hope you know what you're doing. Either way, let me know what he said"
"Will do" I said and she left to meet up with Lisa like they usually do at this time. About 5 minute later my phone rang, it was Jeff.
"What the fuck?!" he yelled
"What?" I asked like I didn't do anything
"You know what the fuck I'm talking about. You're being a bitch"
"I wouldn't be being a bitch if you weren't being an asshole. Look, are you in your locker room?"
"Ya. Why?"
"I'll be right there" I said and hung up. As soon as I got in there I started drilling him.
"Listen asshole, if you felt that deeply for me then why didn't you say anything? Instead, you decide to put it in a goddamn blog where literally hundreds of girls that don't even fucking know me can bash me just because you're Jeff-freakin-Hardy. How is that even fair?"
"You wanna talk about fair? How the hell is it fair that I have feelings like that for a 14 year old? I didn't plan this shit, I actually tried to forget about it but that obviously didn't happen. I mean seriously, what 31 year old looks to teenagers for a relationship? I'll tell you who, fucking child molesters, that's who"
Wow, I thought I was confused about this whole thing, Jeff's got it just as bad "But you're not" now I gotta try to make him feel better
"I know that, you know that, my friends and family know that but the rest of the world doesn't"
"Jeff, you need to stop feeling like this"
"But I love you Kitty" and there it was, ok obviously from all that's been said, I figured he did but now he actually said it. I didn't know what to say. So I just sat on the couch to think for a few minutes. I gotta be honest with myself… Of course I have a little crush on Jeff, but what girl that watches wrestling doesn't? Jeff's fuckin hot; he's outgoing, funny and just amazing to be around. But like I said, that's why I didn't do anything about it or pursue my little crush, he's 16 years older than me. But there have been people that have more of an age difference. Actually, isn't Flair's wife like 20 years younger? But it's not a big deal cause they're both over 18. This really confuses me cause I really like Cameron too. Jeff sat down next to me.
"I'm sorry, I shouldn't have said that" Jeff interrupted my thoughts "I can't imagine how you feel. You must feel so uncomfortable around me now. Nothing will ever be the same between us again. That was so stupid of me, I shouldn't have even said ANYTHING in the first place, I should have just said that I'm happy for you" he just kept rambling.
"Jeff" he ignored me and kept going
"I can understand if you never want to even see me again"
"Jeff"
"I mean that'll suck big time but I can underst…" I kissed him; he wouldn't shut up so I did the first thing that came to mind. I couldn't help myself. It wasn't just a kiss; I kissed him like Cameron kissed me. But of course Jeff has more experience so, wow. I had him pinned on the couch and we ended up making out for a few minutes until I actually realized, this can't happen. So I pulled away and sat back down.
Jeff kinda smirked "So what's this mean?" he asked
"I don't know. I really don't. I'll tell ya what though, if this escalades, nobody can know. I mean, I'll allow you to tell Matt and I'd have to tell Nattie cause I told her about the blog and everything but that's it, just us 4"
"Ya know, you said 'if' but you're talking like something is gonna come of it" he smirked
"God damnit Jeff" I laughed and shoved him over in the couch
"Well" he sighed "What about Cameron?"
"I really really like him Jeff" I started pacing back and forth in front of the couch.
"But do you love him?"
"I don't know. I mean after our date it was like love at first site. I'm not trying to make you jealous or anything, I'm just telling you how it is. And the only one that knows this is Shawn but the other night Cameron and I were sitting on the stairs at the hotel and I fell asleep in his arms. I loved that feeling, that's why I didn't wake him and I didn't tell Melina cause she was already pissed that I wasn't in the room when she woke up so I lied and said I was down at breakfast. The only reason Shawn knows is cause he was right behind us when I asked Cameron what he was gonna tell his dad"
"I know you're not trying to, so I'll wave it off. But I do have to admit, that is a cute picture" he smiled
"Thanks. But what are we gonna do about this?" I motioned between us as I continued pacing.
"I don't know yet. But you…" he pulled me into his lap "…need to take a breather and cool it, ok" he smiled that reassuring smile that said that everything is gonna be ok.
A/N: SO TELL ME, I CAN TAKE IT, WHAT DID YOU GUYS THINK? OH AND BY THE WAY, WHOEVER READS 'ALTERNATIVE SCHOOL' HEADS UP, THERE'S FINALLY GONNA BE AN UPDATE TONIGHT :D