Thanks for the reviews, they were greatly appreciated and it was exciting everytime I got a new one. I hope you enjoy this, Chapter 1 was Tommy's P.O.V. so here's Jude's.

DISCLAIMER: Of course I don't own anything related to Instant Star including the characters. If I had it would have ended very differently. (And I only wish I owned Tommy Q!)

FLY AWAY

We both know we have no clear answer
to where my dreams may lead
He's watched me as I crawled and stumbled
As a child, he was my world
And now to let me go, I know he bleeds
and yet he says to me

You can fly so high
Keep your gaze upon the sky
I'll be praying every step along the way
Even though it breaks my heart to know we'll be so far apart
I love you too much to make you stay
Baby fly away

**********Fly Away by Corrinne May

"Keep walking Jude, one foot in front of the other, don't stop, don't think…just keep walking," Over and over she repeated the mantra in her head as she walked through the terminal at Toronto Pearson International Airport. She knew, as soon as she stopped, the doubt would set in, and the fear and the overwhelming sadness. So, she just kept walking.

She had almost changed her mind when her eyes had caught Tommy's across the crowded front yard. She hadn't expected him to be there, and it had startled her. For the briefest moment happiness had started to swell up inside her chest and the thought of running to him and throwing her arms around his neck had flashed across her mind. But she knew, as surely as she knew her name was Jude Harrison, that if she ran to him and embraced him, she would never be able to leave him behind. And that was the only other thing she knew for sure. That she had to do this without Tommy, without her crutch, even if it ripped her heart out.

She stopped to glance at the airport monitors, scanning for her flight and gate number. There it was, Air Transat international flight 1245 non-stop Toronto to London, Gate 36C. She stared at the screen, the realization hitting her that this was real, that she was really doing this. This was the plane that was going to take her away from everyone and everything she knew and loved. The plane that was taking her away from Tommy.

Once she arrived at her terminal, she settled into a black leather chair in the first class lounge and glanced at the boarding pass in her left hand, then at her watch. Twenty minutes until boarding. Twenty minutes to doubt and second guess, and to panic.

"Breathe, just breathe. In through your nose, out through your mouth," she thought to herself. It was the Lamaze breathing her mother had taught her when she was a little girl, to calm and upset stomach or ragged nerves. She had often used it backstage, just before a performance, when doubt and fear threatened to overwhelm her. She smiled to herself, remembering using that same phrase in the bathroom stall during the Instant Star Finale.

That night had changed her life forever, and she would always be grateful. Instant Star and G-Major had given her her life, her career, her financial independence and the love of her life. They had given her Tommy.

She had been shocked when Georgia had told her that her new producer was Lil Tommy Q. The boy-bander heartthrob was the singer of the kind of sell-out musical fluff she and Jamie had always made fun of. But her first impression had been wrong, Tommy had talent and substance and was an amazing writer and producer. But more than all of that, he was an amazing person and the best friend she ever had. Not to discount Jaime, who was a good friend to her and certainly her oldest friend. Or Speiderman, would always back her up and call her on her crap. When it came right down to it, nobody had her back like Tom Quincy.

He had proven it to her a million times over the last couple of years, so much so that she now took it for granted. Even when they were apart, he still always made sure she was OK. After the whole Hunter disaster, when she had chosen to be with Jamie, Tommy still sold his soul to Darius to get her catalog back, even knowing that he and Jude might never be together again. And after the mess they both made of things in New Brunswick and the pain they had inflicted on each other when Tommy came back to Toronto, whenever Jude needed him, whether it was for a crazy Japanese shampoo commercial or going to some New Age spa to talk Darius into remixing her album, Tommy stepped up.

Hell, she knew that was why he had showed up at her house this morning. Even after she had ripped his heart out in front of thousands of people, he wanted to let her know that it was ok, that he was ok. But it wasn't and he wasn't and Jude knew it. She closed her eyes to hold back the tears threatening to destroy her fragile composure, angry at her self for not being brave enough to discuss her decision with Tommy the right way, the way he deserved to hear it, privately and truthfully and with a damn explanation. Oh God, she was such a coward.

The explanation was the problem. How does she tell the person she loves more than anything, that she needs to do this with out him? How does she tell the person that made her the artist she is, that she needs to go make music without him? How could she possibly begin to make Tommy understand that, in order to believe that she could stand by his side forever, she has to know that she could stand on her own first?

She needed him, but what scared her, was that she needed him too much. When they had broken things off in New Brunswick it had destroyed her, and her music. She could barely function without him and that scared the hell out of her. She had all but destroyed her music career in the wake of his leaving and had barely had a personal life. She had been consumed with memories of him and thoughts of where he was and how he was doing. And when he had returned to G-major, she hadn't faired much better. Even after they had stopped hurting each other, the fragile friendship they had formed had been a farce. All her old feelings had been right there, just below the surface, guiding her every move. When he had finally come to her in the rehearsal space, after Megan's arrest, she couldn't pretend any longer. Tommy was her rock, her one safe place in a storm. And, as always, when she really needed him, he was there.

Tears finally escaped and left trails as they rolled, one after the other, unchecked down her cheeks. Her thoughts turned to Tommy's unexpected proposal in the restaurant, just days before. She had never seen a more beautiful look on his face as she had when he said those two simple words," Marry me!" And she had known in that moment that marrying him was absolutely right. That he was the one and only love of her life and the only way she could ever be truly happy. She had fallen in love with him at sixteen, and that had never changed. But their relationship had been messy, and unstable, and full of highs and lows and that scared her. She wanted a future with Tommy more than she wanted anything, even more than she wanted to make music. Somehow he had become her life and her dream.

But if she couldn't prove to her self now, that she could survive without him, she would live the rest of her life in fear of losing him. And that kind of fear ruined people and relationships. Her biggest fear was ending up like her mom, so completely unable to stand on her own two feet, that she just latched on to the very next thing that came along and gave herself up completely to make it work. Jude hated the thought of becoming one of those clinging, insecure girls who were constantly afraid of being left behind. If she felt like she couldn't live without Tommy, she would eventually drive him away with her jealousy and insecurity. She wasn't sure how she knew that, but she did.

So, now she was here, alone in the airport, leaving behind the single best thing that had ever happened to her. And praying to God that she was doing the right thing. She had thought about asking Tommy to wait for her, but that would have defeated the purpose of leaving him behind in the first place. She had to do this without a net, anything less wouldn't be fair to her or Tommy. She need to make it completely on her own, so that when the time was right, and if she and Tommy got another chance, she would be complete and whole, and really able to give herself to him without holding anything back.

She had to believe that Tommy really loved her and that he would choose not to move on because he couldn't imagine being with anyone else, not because she asked him to or because he had promised to wait. She clung to the belief that she and Tommy would be together again some day and that what they had would last a lifetime, because right now, thinking anything else would be unbearable.

As she heard the announcement to begin boarding her flight to London, she wiped away the last of her tears and said a silent prayer that she wasn't about to make the biggest mistake of her life. Then she got on the plane and left everything she knew behind.

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