Author's note: I don't own Twilight the only things I own are Hudson High and it's students. I wrote this chapter with the help of my awesome beta!
I was still looking at the gorgeous boy when that nasty tramp of a girl shrieked, "You're breaking up with me?" The boy's face turned apologetic.
"I'm really sorry I'm just not ready for a committed relationship right now." he said in a whispered tone so the other students couldn't hear their private conversation. Little did they know, no matter what tone of voice they use I could still hear them. "I think we should try to be friends Tiff 'cause I really like hanging out with you." he said in a calming voice.
"oh so in other words friends with benefits." she yelled and slapped him across the face. The boy looked dumbfounded as she speed walked away from him with a huff. He looked down and whispered to himself,
"I didn't say that but whatever makes you feel better." then he looked up right into my eyes. I quickly looked away because staring at someone you don't know is just creepy. When I looked in his direction he was smiling at me. Oh my god! The rest of the day went by in a blur and soon I was in the comfort of aunt Alice's Porsche.
"so how was your first day of school?" She asked like she obviously wanted all of the details. I sighed and put my hand on her arm. I showed her images from my day and stopped on the one of the boy smiling at me. "who's that?" she asked.
"I honestly don't know." I said with a laugh.
"he's so cute!" she yelled.
"please don't tell my parents." I begged.
"I won't don't worry." she reassured me. I was really worried because her and my mom are really close and with aunt Alice things tend to slip out.
"Alice could you please drive at the legal speed limit? I need to talk to you." I asked. She looked over at me and smiled then slowed to below the human pace.
"what's on your mind Ness?" she asked completely unaware of what she did to me. It had been weeks since we had buried him but being called the nickname he gave me really struck a nerve and I couldn't help it when my eyes started watering up. Alice was waiting for my response. When she didn't get one she saw the tears sliding down my face and realized what she'd done. She reached over to me,
"oh Renesmee I'm so sorry I wasn't even thinking when I said that." she apologized sounding worried about how much she'd upset me. I wiped my eyes and we sat in silence until I calmed down. She was waiting for me to break the silence until I finally did,
"I'm sorry I just can't hear the name. having pictures of him around the house is enough but I can't handle hearing you guys call me what he did for all of those years." I explained in a weak voice. Alice reached over and touched my arm.
"you don't need to be sorry I was the one that was careless and spoke without thinking for the second time today." she said trying to calm me down.
"second time?" I asked slightly confused.
"I accidentally brought him up this morning when I was talking with your mother and it sent her in a downward spiral." she explained. I found it slightly odd that at times my mom was more upset about him then I was. Alice looked over to me and saw the judgmental look in my eyes.
"she's taking this a lot harder then you are Renesmee. Your mom and him were really close and without him neither of you would be alive." she said. I had always wondered about my mother and his relationship. Nobody's ever gone into great detail about it because they didn't want to upset me. Too late.
"Alice he imprinted on me I highly doubt anyone is going though what I am." I answered her.
"You need to know that the world doesn't revolve around you Renesmee!" she shot back at me. This is really different Alice is never like this.
"Alice what's wrong?" I asked calmly trying not to provoke her. She hesitated for a moment but replied,
"It's just that Jacob was your true love and you seem to be moving on too fast." I flinched when she said his name but that didn't stop her. "And I know you're just holding in all of your feelings. You're having just as bad of time dealing with this as your mom but she makes it clear how she feels. You need to let out your feelings." she finished. By now I was sobbing.
"I…just can't." I answered before breaking down. For the second time since he died I was carried to my room and set on my bed like a child. As soon as I knew they wouldn't be coming into my room I went over to one of my unpacked boxes. I searched through it until I found the two things I needed. A picture frame and my personal favorite candid photo from my fifth/thirteenth birthday. It had me in Jacob's arms while he was kissing my cheek.
No matter what he will always be with me and no blue-eyed boy could ever change that. I put the picture into the frame and held it against my chest on my bed until I fell asleep.
Author's note: Review and make my day. Also I've decided this will be a series of three stories so the name of this will be changing.