I'm crud I know!! I honestly have been doing some mega nasty shifts so it leaves me very little time and i have a puppy now so she takes up plenty of my time I'm afraid!! I have written a couple of chapters ones that i hope you will all love and PLEASE review - it's shameful to beg after not updating in a while but it makes me all squishy inside lol!!

Here we go hope you all like it!!

The Tree assassination and CD player:

Bella POV

The other day with Edward and meeting his family was well the best day of my life – so far. I say so far because well who knew what would happen next. We had spent the last week together whenever we could; we talked about a manner of things and each time he left me at my door step it felt like my soul was being ripped away. It physically hurt to be away from him, which is scientifically impossible but then again vampires aren't supposed to be real. Nope this was definitely not a normal situation not by a long shot.

Each parting I willed my self not to try and kiss him again, I didn't want to push him in a direction he wasn't ready for. I knew the time was fast approaching when we would need to speak about what was actually going on, but for now I was blissfully happy with my current situation.

Right now we were now sitting in a beautiful small meadow, which was full of flourishing flowers and a large tree. I was now sat under said large tree watching Edward wearily; he seemed so odd today, unresponsive and distant.

"I can't do this" he paced in front of me, finally speaking.

"Do what?" It had been going so well, our walk; we had laughed and talked making our way to this little opening and then he started acting like this.

"This!"

"You've lost me completely now" he hadn't but I hoped that I was over thinking things and that he would take his words back, but from the look on his face I knew it was just wish full thinking.

"I mean us"

"I wasn't aware there was an "us" besides the fact that your ghost ex is haunting us in order to help us save each other. This is purely business my friend" yes I know, it really wasn't just business but the innate need to protect my self was too strong.

"It clearly is not "

"And why do you say that huh? What exactly makes you think that I want to be even remotely involved with you in that way huh, not like you've been charming? Ok well maybe the first two conversation we had you were all Mr Mystero and with your stupid ass smile and the hair playing – maybe you were charming – maybe but you sure as hell blew that out of the water with your need to be an uptight pain in the ass."

It felt good to rant; he had been fine when we had been spending time together. This attitude of his was driving me mad and truth be told I was a little scared of what was going to happen. Sure I was lying when I said I wouldn't be interested in anything romantic but if he wanted to play this game then I wasn't ready to show my hand any more than I already had… just yet.

"Bella, would you please calm down this isn't helping the situation"

"No you know what Edward" I spat his name "I'm not playing this game any more I am going home now" I sneered the last word I had to leave, tears threatening to spill and reveal them selves.

"Wait" his voice so soft, mournful even

I spun round "For what? I have spent my entire life waiting but I cannot bear to wait for you - it would kill me" with the truth now painfully out in the openI went to walk away, but I felt the air being disturbed behind me, my arm was then being tugged suddenly with such force it left me little choice but to turn with it. I expected anger; pure volatile anger what I wasn't expecting was this...

His eyes burnt into mine, his arms holding me in place, his eyes closing ever so slowly as he uttered the most precious words to my ears "You don't have to wait for me I'm here" and with that he pulled me into his body and kissed me with such passion that it almost hurt. My heart sped up as my mind finally caught up with what my body was doing, my hands now snaked around his neck pulling him down into a deeper kiss. Savouring every moment, I was home, I finally found a place I felt wanted and happy in. Well at least I thought it was…..

"No!" he snarled and ripped him self away from me, leaving me alone and confused in a spot that once occupied us both.

"No? What do you mean, I don't understand you just said..." my voice trailed off as I took in his murderous face. He didn't look human any more but every bit a vampire of legends.

"You!" he paced, glaring at me from time to time "Trying to make me forget her, HA as if you could, you pale in comparison to her, your just a little girl hating what life has dealt her. Passing your misery onto others, infecting them"

I stood gaping at him, feeling beyond confused and betrayed. What had just happened, what had I done to make him hate me so much? As if he could read my mind he continued on his one man hate campaign.

"Your presence is like a personal hell do you know that, it's constantly burning me from the inside out, your very existence burns me. Why are you here to torment me, you will not make me forget her. I love her not you, I will never love you"

My heart ripped out; thrown to the ground and stomped on by the man I thought I was falling in love with. We had spent days together, getting closer to each other; learning things about ourselves as well as our counterpart. All of it undone in those sentences, my life ended with those immortal words uttered by the mythical creature stood across from me. What can you do when you're faced with such venom, such seething hatred? I do what I always do – I turned and left, leaving broken tree limbs and branches in my wake. Hurt, angry and the loneliest I have ever felt in my entire existence; the trees had it coming I decided I could not dwell upon my mindless destruction.

I finally reached my home, still not calm and dreading facing my family not wanting them to suffer the wrath that should be directed at another. I threw open the door with such force it bounced back at me, this time I took a solid hold upon the door and entered my home, my safe haven. And without so much as a look back into the forest where I could feel his steely gaze on by back I slammed the door behind me, with the parting words "I'm done, save your self vampire. You can go straight to hell for all I care".

I had shut the door on the only purest happiness I had ever known; the emptiness in my heart grew ten fold. I clutched my chest as I rushed my way to my room, locking my door and diving for the stereo desperately searching for the music to sooth the storm that was brewing beneath my surface, I could feel it in my skin, the agony and bitterness threatening to consume.

I smiled a black smile as I found my intended target, thinking how apt if Edward was listening now he would know for certain how I felt, as I lowered the disc into the player and pressed play, skipping to the song I needed the most - Down with the Sickness by Disturbed. I cranked the volume loud enough to make the windows shake in their panes, taking silent pleasure in knowing that he would definitely hear me.

As the music played, I began to calm down, a numbing feeling taking the place of the anger; it was then that I cried. I cried all night and all day for almost a week. I couldn't explain it to anyone, Alice had text saying she would be over as soon as she knew I was OK – not quite knowing what it meant but with this family I rarely knew what they were saying.

I took solace in the fact that even if Edward had rejected me fully that his family still loved me and wanted me around. Only question was could my fragile human heart take being near him and not ache to have him for my self.

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Sooooooooooooo not a good date for them too hun? It will sort it self out Edward is just being well Edwardish haha read and review people please x