The Portuguese TV listings and decisions

Bella POV

I awoke feeling completely rested, only to have a momentary panic attack when I saw Edward was no longer at my side. Not wanting to alarm anyone with my erratic heartbeat I forced myself to take deep breathes as I strained my ears to pick up any sign of my personal god, a small smile finally made its way onto my face when I heard Esme shout at him to come back and finish making the breakfast and not to disturb me until I was ready.

I padded across the now plush bedroom floor feeling like I was walking on cotton wool into the equally as large bathroom. I found on the chair resting by the sink some clothes with a note attached.

Wear these or else!

Alice

p.s. when you wash your hair leave it down it will look amazing!

Sometimes it still freaked me out that she knew what I was going to do before I did, shrugging I walked to the shower and switched it on. Looking around for the essentials took about 20 seconds at most as I found them inside the shower with another note from Alice

What would you actually do without me?

"How about walk around and actually look for stuff?" I said out loud, which was met with a lot of a laughter and one huff of annoyance, grinning I undressed and slid into the shower letting the steam and peach smelling shampoo wash away the stress from yesterday. Yea only to make room for today's stress I thought dryly to myself.

As I washed and scrubbed my thoughts wondered to the future, not just the impending one either – although that was highly featured in my thought process. I thought of how the family had welcomed me and how they kept referring to me as Edwards mate, I didn't mind but the word that comes to mind when a person says mate is permanent. How could I be his mate if my life was not permanent? Did it seem fair to mate with an immortal being only to be taken away from them in what probably seemed like an instant to them? I thought of the lions in the zoo, the ones who had given up fighting, even living but just merely existed all because they had lost a mate. I'm sure the fact that they were in a zoo probably didn't help but my brain kept bringing up the sad images of lonely lions sat staring with dead eyes just waiting until there number was up. I couldn't let that happen to Edward, but I couldn't just leave him we were mated now even I had watched enough animal planet to know when some species mate it's for life, and from watching the other couples I was more than certain vampires were one of them.

The showers hot water had finally stopped being comforting and I switched it off and proceeded to get out and dry myself. These morose thoughts haunted me as I dressed. Finally whilst I was stood at the sink towel drying my hair as I absently looked into the mirror did I realise that I had unconsciously made my decision. If vampires mated for life it only made sense for me to become one, as I for one was certain that I simply didn't have enough time in this feeble human body to love Edward as completely as I was capable of doing.

A gasp from downstairs followed by Edwards shouting at Alice asking why she was translating the TV listings into Portuguese brought me back to reality. Shaking my head wondering what was going on I now walked towards my new family, a part of me was yelling asking what about the family I already had? Was I not happy with them? Was I that horrible a person that I would just abandon them when they had helped me when I really needed it? A pain shot threw my breaking heart as Jasper's moan reverberated throughout the household. Inwardly cringing I tried to rein it back in mentally apologising to him not that it would help.

As I reached the living room everyone but Edward and his parents were lounging in front of the TV. Alice turned to face me an evil smile plastered to her devious looking face.

"What are you planning and how do I get out of doing it?" I asked my hands held up as I slowly backed away from her. Emmett and Rosalie laughed as Alice just shook her head at me before retorting back,

"I haven't planned anything and I definitely haven't decided anything within the last 10 minutes have you?" The sweetly sick smirk replaced the evil smile as realisation hit me – she had seen my decision to become one of them that was what the Portuguese was about. I pointed to the kitchen with a raised eyebrow hoping to convey the question "does he know?" to which she replied -

"No but I was thinking we should go out later and spend some quality sister time together what do you think?" I knew immediately she wanted to be able to talk to me freely about my choice my only hope was that she wouldn't try to talk me out of it

"Sure that sounds...fun...I guess?" uncertainty hung thick in my voice

Jasper turned around now to face me a questioning look on his face "I think I will tag along as well get to know my little sister better" I groaned as I knew he would grill me for answers about my feelings earlier, plans of evading his questions were cut short when I felt a cold pair of hands slide around my waist and numerous butterfly kisses were planted along my neck and shoulder.

"Breakfast is served" his voice was raspy and sounded strained; I spun around worried and was met by a pair of jet black eyes.

"Edward your eyes!" I exclaimed "you need to go hunting. Soon" I added he chuckled as he leant towards my ear as he breathed his response.

"It's not that type of hunger my love" I blushed as I caught onto his meaning, I now gazed into his lust filled eyes as I embarrassingly admitted I knew how he felt. The kiss happened out of nowhere with a searing passion behind it, Edward seemed to lose all knowledge that his siblings were in the same room as he backed me against a wall and swept his fingertips gently down my arms onto my legs before roughly grabbing my legs to pick me up.

"Erm gross much?" came the voice of Rosalie, I giggled knowing that she was only half joking, Edward's body stiffened in response and moved gracefully away but not before uttering the words "to be continued very soon" effectively turning my legs to mush.

It felt good that he had accepted our relationship and not try to push it back. I wasn't a 100% sure on what this Jonathan had said or what had been going through Edwards mind but the barriers were now gone and if nothing else good were to come out of this tragic turn of events it would ok to know that we realised our love for one another and that there was no more hiding from it.