N: Thank you for all your amazing reviews, to repay you guys, here is the second chapter.
The whole chapter in a flashback from before the … you know… enjoy!
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"Elena, are you listening to me?"
Caroline gently touched my arm to bring me back from my trance.
"Are you ok?" she asked.
"I'm fine Caroline, why wouldn't I be fine, everything is fine."
"Whoa there, a simple 'yes' would've been enough."
I was looking at the blonde girl seated in front of me, but I wasn't seeing her. My mind was somewhere else. Damon's words kept repainting in my mind, 'there's something between us and you know it. You're lying to me, you're lying to Stefan and most of all, you're lying to yourself…' those words were haunting me 24/7.
"Elena, tell me what's wrong! I'm your friend and I hate seeing you like this…I want to do something about it, but I can't if I don't know what's wrong. Whatever it is I can see it consumes you…"
"Caroline…" I started. My plan was to keep denying, but my emotions took over…I couldn't stop the heavy tears purring from my eyes any more. "I can't…I'm a bad person…I'm a horrible, horrible person, Caroline" I said and she bended over, wrapping her arms around me, holding me tight.
"Elena, you are not a bad person, you could never be a bad person, you're the opposite of bad, you're…"
"Stop, please, stop! If I hear another 'how good Elena is' speech, I'll lose it. I'm not that innocent perfect person everyone keeps telling me I am."
"Elena, you are, you…"
"Caroline, I'm not, you don't understand…"
"Then explain it to me, Elena!"
"Ok, just remember, you asked for it" she nodded and got in a more comfortable position.
"Ok, so two days ago, I went over the Boarding House, looking for Stefan, he wasn't there, but I bumped into Damon. Being his old annoying self, he started lecturing me about the fact that I want to protect everyone by giving up on myself. The next thing I know, we were yelling in each other's face. I asked why he cares so much since he claims he doesn't do emotions and all. He got even closer to me, took my face between his hands and staring into my eyes, he told me that he cares about me too much to let me die…he told me I'm the only one that can make him feel human…"
"Elena, that doesn't make you a bad person."
"What about the fact that it took my entire strength, not to wrap my arms around him and kiss him until his heart starts beating again…and I would've done it, if the door wouldn't have opened. If my boyfriend wouldn't have come through that door, I would've kissed his brother. What kind of person does that make me?" I asked.
"Elena…" her voice was soft and full of compassion, "…do you feel something for Damon?" she asked.
"I…I don't really know, I mean, I should hate him for what he did to you, to Bonnie, to Jeremy…and I did, I hated him in those moments, but…"
"Elena, I don't blame you, he's not the same person anymore…"
I didn't even hear what Caroline just said, I just continued.
"I look at him and I see the pain and the lust in his eyes…it's like I can feel it myself and it breaks my heart to see him like that. I want to hold him in my arm and tell him that everything is going to be ok, that I'm not going anywhere and I'll always be there for him…and most of all, I want to make the pain go away."
"That's because you're a good person that cares about the others and suffers when they are hurting."
"Maybe, but that's not all I feel for Damon…I don't know, the feelings are all confusing. I feel like, I want to push him down a cliff then rush at the bottom to catch him" Caroline smiled at my words. "Pretty messed up, huh?" I asked sarcastically.
"Yeah, you should figure it out, what you feel about him."
"How Caroline? I can't get close enough to do that…" I said in a sad voice.
Caroline started playing with her perfectly sculpted nails, looking in void, like she was concentrating on something.
In a minute or two she jumped from the bed "I know" she said and her face illuminated, but the enthusiasm in her voice left with the same velocity as it came.
"But you will never do it…" she said disappointed.
"I won't do what?" I asked.
"Well, letting me compel you into being with Damon…"
"What?" I couldn't help but bust into laugh "you mean. Like. Sleep with him?"
"Yes, so then you'll know how you feel about him. Why are you laughing? I'm serious, think about it, no one will know."
"I'll know, Damon will know…"
"Damon doesn't need to know."
"So, let me get this straight, the guy I'll sleep with won't know I slept with him? What are you going to do, punch him in the head until he gets amnesia?"
"He won't know he slept with you in the first place."
"Ok, know you really made me curious. I want to hear this."
"Well, Katherine keeps taking advantage of the fact that you two look alike, it's time you return the favor."
"You mean pretend I'm Katherine to sleep with Damon?"
"It's only fair; she pretended to be you to sleep with Stefan…"
"She got caught" I said.
"I know, but you won't, because you're smarter and Damon will think he slept with Katherine."
"I don't think Damon wants to sleep with Katherine, he hates her."
"I think he loves you enough to give in, all you have to do is convince him to pretend you're Elena."
"You mean pretend I'm Katherine and as Katherine, pretend I'm…me?"
"Exactly!" Caroline said, happy that I understood her plan.
"Caroline, you know that I do have a heartbeat and I can't make it stop?""
"Of course I know that, but Katherine is very good at faking that too, Damon will think she's just playing her role right" she posed for a second, then she continued "Come on, Elena, it's the perfect plan!"
"Yeah, except when it's not and Damon figures out that it's really me."
"He won't, he doesn't expect to be you…not in a million years, Elena."
"I'm sorry Caroline, I can't...I'm not…"
"I know, it's not you, you're not like that, I know. That's why I'll compel you"
"I don't think so…I don't like having my mind played with"
"Elena, I won't be playing with your mind. The only thing I'll compel you to do is to forget about your damn morals for once and go for it"
"I can't believe I'm really considering this!"
"Just take off your necklace and stop thinking about the consequences!" Caroline demanded and I did as told…
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Now that you know what happen before, the next one it's going to be the after…