Chapter 19

Elsa sat with Anna in her room. "Last time I saw you Elsa, you were dying..." she breathed softly. "I'm so relieved to see you're still alive. That the Captain got that crystal to you in time..."

Elsa lowered her head. "I locked him away, after he came back without you." The Queen paused for a long time and then sighed deeply raising her head slightly to meet her sisters gaze.

"Anna I did many terrible things while you were gone, and while I wish I could fix them all. I cannot, I hurt a lot of people."

Anna smiled weakly. "Elsa, Arendelle will forgive you."

The Queen looked away from her sister. "No, I made them watch me while I ended lives, I made an example of those who I believed to defy me in front of the entire Kingdom."

The Princess took her sisters hand and squeezed it tightly. "Elsa I forgive you, for what you've done... I know why you did it... Just let them know, everything will be alright."

Faking a smile Elsa drew in a deep breath closing her eyes in deep thought. "I don't forgive myself, How can I expect them to forgive me." She dropped her sisters hand and stood up turning away. Starting to leave the room she stopped at the sound of Anna's voice.

"Elsa, please don't leave, don't feel like you have to hide there is no need to be ashamed of yourself."

"Anna leave me alone." The Queen replied in a hushed tone. "I don't want to talk to you right now."

"Elsa I just got back and I'm concerned for you..."

Elsa didn't bother to look back. "You need to rest anyways, you're very weak I'll join you for lunch in a few hours."

The Queen silently left the room after that and began walking out into the hallway. The curtains were all closed and the windows shut. Slowly arriving at her room Elsa pushed open the large white doors and sat in the corner staring out into the Kingdom below.

She could hear nothing, there was no joy in the village. No music or dancing, once again Elsa felt that the kingdom of Arendelle feared and hated her.

The sky outside was dreary as always. She felt sick to her stomach, even though she'd managed to locate Anna and bring her home, Elsa felt empty and cold. A soft flurry of snow began to fall from the sky, at a slow pace. The Queen watched as it started to gather on the ground picking up quicker and quicker... at first she thought it could be because of her, then Elsa realized it was just a natural snowstorm.

Elsa sadly walked to the door after a long time of sitting in solitude, she strode gloomily to the dinning hall and sat across from her sister. Not making eye contact.

"Elsa, you don't have to be ashamed of yourself." Anna told her once again. "You wanted to fix things, this is your chance."

The Queen didn't speak, she had nothing to say to her sister, she didn't want to say anything so Elsa sat in silence and let Anna do the talking.

"Elsa I love you, and I'm worried for you... I'm still pretty weak and you don't seem to be doing very well."

"I'm fine Anna." Elsa mumbled under her breath in a stern tone.

Anna's heart sunk, she felt as though nothing could be done to help Elsa. No matter what the Queen couldn't be persuaded into doing anything. Getting up Anna looked as if she were about to cry the Princess walked over to her sister.

"Please, Elsa... I'm so worried about you. You won't talk to me, you're concerned about not being forgiven and people hating you. You're shutting me out again. Please you just came back into my life and I don't want to lose you again."

A shocked look appeared on the Queens face for a moment. "I'm sorry Anna, I just don't think you're ever going to get the sister you want."

Turning away so she didn't have to face her sister. Elsa almost let a few tears fall herself before noticing Anna had left back to her room, she left soon afterwards, neither girl touching their food.

"Edith?" Anna questioned, back in her bed all cozy under the blankets. "I'm worried about my sister..."

The woman smiled. "I know, I'll check on her but right now I need to worry about you... How are you feeling, you'll be weak for a while... I don't suggest getting up more than once a day for a few hours I would've rather not had you leave to see your sister at lunch today." Edith warned.

"I need to go see Elsa, she doesn't think that anyone will forgive her, she made some bad choices and now she hates herself for it... I want to show her that people won't hate her... She's the Queen, Arendelle used to love her."

"Anna." Edith put a hand on her shoulder in a comforting manner. "Queen Elsa, did many horrible things, she hurt a lot of people and I've heard many are horrified at her behavior they seem to be ready to act against Elsa, they don't know you are here yet, but I think they'd expect you to do something about it."

Anna looked at her scared, teary eyed and frightful. She snuffled softly and her breathing hitched for a moment. "I love my sister I would never hurt her, not for anything. I gave up everything and risked my life to save her... I need her Edith. I can't let them do anything to her. Elsa deserves to be Queen." Anna paused. "She's a wonderful Queen."

"My dear Princess, the people of Arendelle fear Elsa, they do not know of the circumstances. They do not know you're alive... most thought you were dead."

Anna looked away, crying tears running down her face. "But Elsa is not Evil, she wouldn't hurt anyone."

Edith sighed. "Princess Anna." the doctor paused. "Elsa has been very cruel while you were gone. I've told you this twice now. She killed people, hurt them, made an example of them, all in attempt to make Arendelle fear and obey her... She executed those speaking of committing treason." Edith spoke over Anna's soft crying.

"But she regrets it, my sister is so sad all the time. She never wanted Arendelle to fear or hate her."

Edith checked over a few more things then gave Anna a couple of medications and a cup of hot tea with some herbs in it. "I'll get somebody to bring you some food, you must start eating properly again."

Edith left and walked to Elsas room not even bothering to knock she opened the two large doors. "Elsa?" she questioned softly spotting the Queen her head resting on one hand, looking out the window at the miserable weather outside.

"Your majesty, Princess Anna is very concerned about you... She's in tears over you actually." Edith walked closer speaking in a comforting tone.

"Go away." Elsa murmured.

"My Queen, I must let you know how important you are to Princess Anna, if it weren't for you she never would've been found..."

Elsa turned her head around quickly. "No, She would have been safe, if I just died from the attack like I was supposed to. If Anna didn't save me she would be alright."

Elsa cried softly after she turned away and hid her face. She was so afraid of what people would think. The Queen wished to avoid them entirely.

"look everything's going to be alright, you're sister is beginning to do better, I'm sure she'd love to see you."

"I said go away, I have no intention to see Princess Anna or talk to any of you. I just want to be alone and think about what I've done."

Forcing Edith to leave Elsa returns to staring out the window. Her heart felt very heavy, as she remembered all the lives she took, all the happiness she tore away from the kingdom of Arendelle. All of whom had no idea were completely oblivious as to why.

Elsa had been heartbroken after she learnt her sister disappeared and was most likely captured after trying to save her life. The kingdom of Arendelle had not known Elsa had gotten so sick, they didn't know Anna let to find a way to save her.

She stared out until her sister came bursting through the door. "Elsa, please don't shut me out again... I need you."