NESSIES POINT OF VIEW
OH NO!
It was lunch. I went to into the cafeteria to go sit with my family and to wait for Jacob where was he?. I was still a bit angry about what Anna said she had no right to ask me about those things it non of her business. Anna's twin sister Sarah was just as rude as her, and she was coming this way.
"Hey Ness you like my top" she asked i really wanted to ignore her.
"um.. yeah its great" i said i did not sound convincing.
"well if you have breast like mine why not flaunt them right? Maybe you should try." she said why looking at up and down at me.
HOW DERE SHE......
" I never try" i said to her right in her supposedly to her perfect face. And walked off to where Jacob was calling me to the exit.
It was so good to see him where had he been?. I walked straight up to him and hugged him i really didn't want to let go i was having a bad day he always seems too straighten it out. Jacob suddenly unwound my hands from his neck and put them to my sides. What?.....What was this? He has never done that before what have i done? What's going on?.
" Are you ok?" i asked
"Look Ness i need to talk to you" he said quietly.
Oh no...........................
Jacob took my hand and we walked to the garden where people can eat there lunch outside. Why was he doing this?.
"Jake what's wrong?" i asked in a innocent tone.
He took me to sit on the bench he just closed his eyes.
I lifted my hand to out to touch his face and he grabbed it and kept it there until he let it go.
"Nessie i need to talk to you about us." he said in almost a whisper.
"ok" i said. What was there to talk about.
"look um just going to come with this". He said
"Jake your scaring me what going on?" i said. I felt like bad news was coming something i didn't want to hear.
"For the past year and a half i have been having these feelings for you that i have never had before". He said
"what sort of feelings?". I asked in a little voice.
He opened his eyes and looked straight into mine. He took my hand.
"Ness i am......" he hesitated.
"What Jake....... tell me" i said
"I am falling in love with you Nessie" he said and stared at are hangs together.
What? He's in love with me? My best friend Jacob Black. I don't..... i don't feel that way i want him in my life just as my friend, my best friend. But i don't want to hurt him. I could feel the tears collecting at the corner of my eyes.
"Jake" i tried to say without crying.
"i know, i know" he said. He knew. He knew i wasn't in love with him.
A tier fan down my cheek and he wiped it away with his soft warm hand
"i am so sorry" it all came out a wrong i couldn't talk all the tears where pouring out. I knew there was something wrong with him for the past couple of months. But this was unbelievable.
He saw me crying and pulled me into his chest. I wanted to give him what he wanted but i wasn't there where he was. I don't think i ever will.
"Its ok Nessie shhhh its ok" he said while stroking my hair. I was ruining his shirt with my tears. And i also felt his tear drop on my cheek. What have i done?
I looked up at him to see if he was really crying. And he was.
"Jacob i am so sorry." i mumbled
"look i need to go ok?" he said letting go off me. Was this for good? I quickly grabbed his hand
"NO Jake please. Please don't go. Please don't leave me like this. I need you " i begged him with the tears flowing out everywhere.
His face turned to horror he came back and hugged me to his chest.
"Ness i will never leave you ok shhhhh i am always going to be here what ever you do" he said stroking my hair....
And we just stayed like that for the whole lunch break in each others arms. What am i going to do?