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Nine

EPOV-

"What the hell was that Jasper?!" I snarled, after Alice had carried Bella up to her room. I was desperately trying to stay calm. I needed to stay calm until I found out who did this to my Bella, and I made sure she was alright. Then, it was all bets off.

"I was trying to get her to tell us what happened. It's called psychology." Jasper replied, a bit sarcastically I might add. "Psychology? You scared the shit out of her Jas!" Emmett bellowed beside me. Well, at least I wasn't the only one pissed off about this incident.

"Who was she with last night?" I asked, fearing the answer. My fears were only confirmed when neither of them would respond.

"Jake." Emmett whispered so low, even I had trouble hearing him. "I'll kill him." I snarled.

"Calm down! We don't know for sure it was him! She had a.." Jasper trailed off. A date. My Bella, had a date last night. My heart would have stopped beating at that moment if I were alive. She was over me. Alice was wrong. She said she'd never get over me, and I just had to test that damn theory! Stupid, idiotic vampire! I caused this. If I had just stayed where I knew I belonged, this would not have happened.

"Edward, this is not your fau-" I raced up the stairs before Jasper could finish that sentence. I did not want to hear him say it wasn't my fault when I knew it was. I stopped just outside Bella's door, waiting to see if she was awake. When I didn't hear anything, I quietly made my way inside, and over to the bed. I waved Alice away, and took her place next to Bella on the bed. I had lost her, but I would never leave her. I had to protect her, and do a much better job of it this time around.

BPOV-

I should have kept my mouth shut. I shouldn't have panicked, I shouldn't have cried. That is not how you pretend nothing happened. Stupid Bella! Damn it! They were not supposed to see my neck! I knew I should have just stayed in bed like I wanted to! Damn Rosalie and her stupid schemes!

"Bella?"

"Hmm?" I mumbled, snuggling against Edward. I don't care if he doesn't want me anymore, I was going to enjoy the time I had with him now. I missed him entirely too much. "What happened to you?" He asked, brushing his hand across my cheek. I didn't flinch! Ha! That was an improvement already. Wait, had I flinched before when I ran into him? I didn't think I had. I could never flinch at his touch, I know he would never hurt me.. that way. He asked me again, and I tensed up. I know he noticed it, but I couldn't seem to help myself. I wasn't ready for this to happen. I wasn't ready for it to be real yet.

"I told you all downstairs." I lied, sitting up, and not looking at him. I knew that he knew I was lying, but if I didn't look at him, it made it easier to pretend he had no clue.

"Okay, we'll play this game of yours. Why did your neck hurt in the first place? What caused such pain that you would have to squeeze hard enough to leave marks on your own neck?" He asked, a smile playing at his features. I narrowed my gaze at him. Stupid cocky vampire. "And why did Alice see you scrubbing yourself raw in the tub after your.. date?" He continued quietly. I flinched at the way he said date. Like he cared what I did. He didn't want me right? Was that supposed to mean no one else did either? I sat there for a while, contemplating on my answers.

I could keep lying to him, and upset him further, or I could just.. tell him the truth, and pray that he didn't find me disgusting. Right. He didn't like me now, why should he after I tell him I was raped? Fortunately for me, Alice came bursting through the door at the exact moment I was going to tell him. Unfortunately for me, I knew that she knew what had happened. Of course she did, she would have seen it the moment I decided to tell Edward. I silently pleaded she wouldn't clue Edward in, I wanted to be the one he heard it from. I just needed to talk to Alice first. She would know how he'd react, and I couldn't tell him until I knew, too.

"Edward. I.. I need to talk to Alice, alone." I stammered, not meeting his eyes. I heard him sigh, and was about to change my mind when he stood up. "Okay, but I will talk to you later." He demanded before walking out. I let out a huge sigh of relief, and motioned Alice to the bed. Here goes nothing I suppose.

"I felt dirty. That's why you saw me scrubbing myself raw. And, as for my neck.. I guess I slept on it wrong or something. I'm not sure, I just know it hurt. Alright?" I lied, yet again. I wasn't quite ready after all. One look from Alice though, and I knew I didn't have a choice. "What did he do to you?" She asked, sitting next to me. I knew I looked panicked, it was how I felt and I've never been very good at hiding my emotions from them. I had to tell her, I wanted to.. needed to. So, I got up, and started pacing around the bed.

"He wanted to go out, but he didn't want to drink. He said if I didn't like being sober we'd go back to his place and drink all night I if I wanted. I only went because I was so mad, and hurt." I began. "Stupid vampire thought I'd just forget about him or something. Thought if he moved away I'd just stop loving him! That's ridiculous! I only ever drank to numb the pain, and I was angry because it wasn't working anymore.

"So, I just figured what the hell? Jake had been nice to me, patient, understanding. I figured I'd be hurting either way so sober seemed like a better idea anyway. We had fun, at first, but I still kept thinking about.. Edward. Anyway, we got back to his house, and watched a couple movies, and he asked if I wanted a drink. I said no, Alice. I was so proud of myself for not drinking, and I knew you would be too!" I was losing my nerve. I couldn't do this. I sat down next to Alice. Shit. I could not say it. I couldn't get it out.

"Bella, what happened." She demanded. I knew I was crying, but it didn't matter anymore. "Don't make me say it, Alice. Please, if I say it.. it'll be real, and I'm just not ready for that yet. I'm not ready for you all to.." I trailed off. I wasn't ready for them to hate me, to cast me out. I jumped up again, getting angry at myself. "If I say it out loud, you'll hate me! You'll ALL hate me, and worst of all, Edward will hate me! He'll be disgusted with me! He would never want me once he knew, Alice, never! And why would he?

"Why would he want a stupid lousy human that's been raped! By a werewolf no less! He'll disown me just like the rest of you would!" I had gone too far. I said too much. I couldn't control it. I jumped at the sound of glass breaking, and watched Alice disappear. They heard me. They all heard me.