A/N: Thanks for all the reviews. Again. =] it makes me happy! And now, here's a side of Bella that I … like quite frankly. Oh, yeah-I don't own Twilight.. sadly.
Twelve
BPOV-
I was terrified. Sitting in the stupid hospital, in a stupid gown while Carlisle was examining me. I did not want to lose this baby. I could not lose this baby. She was the only person in the world who would love me, and always want me. Maybe it was selfish, but I didn't care.
"Okay, Bella. The baby seems to be fine. You're very lucky. A fall like should have been fatal in this early of a pregnancy. We do have a problem though." Carlisle stated, not meeting my eyes. My heart started to pound. He was going to tell me not to keep the baby. I knew it. I knew he would do this.
"With the baby being a werewolf's baby, there is a chance that it could kill you when it's born. It's not common for a human woman to have a werewolf's baby after the werewolf has shifted, and live to tell about it." He explained quietly. Oh. So, basically, I was going to die. Yippee ki yay. "I'm not getting rid of this baby." I stated firmly, crossing my arms. Within seconds, Edward and Alice were at my bedside. Nosey vampires.
"Bella, you have to get rid of this baby. Now, before it grows any more!" Edward exclaimed. He looked... really worried. Strange considering he hates me. "You don't care Edward, remember?" I snapped. He sighed, and sat next to me. He looked at Carlisle, and Alice. "Can you please give us a little time to ourselves?" He asked. Carlisle left immediately, but Alice stuck around.
"I just want to say this, to you both. I love you Edward, you're my brother. And Bella, I love you also. But, you guys are driving me crazy! I have never had a problem knowing whether or not something was going to happen until recently, and it's driving me insane! So, would you two just stop being so damned selfish and stubborn, and confess your undying love for each other all over again, and just BE TOGETHER!" She exclaimed before stomping out of the room. I couldn't help but chuckle at her. Poor little pixie, I'm sure between the two of us she's had a long ride.
"Bella…" Edward began, not meeting my eyes. Great, here comes the part where he says goodbye all over again, and tells me how I'll be better off without him. I didn't think my heart could stand to be broken all over again, so I decided to save him the trouble. "I get it Edward, alright? Please spare yourself the heartache of telling me you don't want me." I stated sarcastically. I couldn't help it. I was tired of him giving me excuses about how he wasn't good enough for me. Stupid vampire.
"I love you, okay? I've loved you for so long, I can't even remember when it started! I don't care if you think you aren't good for me! Actually, I don't care what you think about anything right now! You're so freaking selfish! How dare you confess your love for me, and then not two seconds later tell me you don't want me! You have no idea what that did to me! Now, you wanted me to have sex with a human, well, he wasn't exactly human but he was as close as I'm ever going to get! And no, it wasn't… consensual, but it was still sex! And you wanted me to have children; well I'm having a fucking child!
"So, before you open up that stupid, beautiful mouth of yours, you better have a damn good reason for not loving me! And don't you dare say it's because you aren't good for me! I will decide what is or is not good for me!" I yelled, crossing my arms for affect. That was not how I pictured begging Edward Cullen to want me, but it would just have to do. Damn hormones! We sat in silence for a few minutes before I finally got the courage to meet his eyes. Was he… he was! The jerk had the audacity to smile at me? Now? I could kill him! I opened my mouth to tell him to get out, but he kissed me before I had the chance.
"You are so beautiful when you're angry." He whispered, pulling away. I'm sure my face was ten different shades of red, but I couldn't stop the smile from spreading across my face. "I love you, and I'm sorry I hurt you before. I know that doesn't make it okay, but I am. I don't deserve you, and I thought if I just…left that you would forget me. Alice told me you wouldn't, but I just…I couldn't believe her. I had to know for sure before I even contemplated a relationship with you. But, Bella, you can't keep this baby." He finished quietly.
"Then change me!" I yelled, a little too loudly. He looked up at me with a startled expression. "What?" He asked in disbelief. "If you're so damn worried about losing me than change me after the baby is born! I told you, you wanted me to have a baby, I'm having a baby! If I'm going to die, then change me! You'd have no reason not to! You aren't taking anything from me if I'm dying, Edward." I exclaimed. I was really starting to get agitated. I got out of bed, and put my sweatpants back on. Turning away from him, I threw the hospital gown off and quickly slipped my sweatshirt on. Enough of this crap. I turned around, and got right in his face.
"Edward Cullen, I love you. I want to be with you. And if you want to be with me, then you are seriously going to have to deal with this dilemma because I. Am. Having. This. Baby." I declared, and walked out. I walked straight past the Cullen's, and continued to the doors. "Bella! You can't just leave! Carlisle might not want you to go home!" Alice chimed, running up to me.
"He can kiss my ass. I'm pregnant, I'm hungry, and I'm sick of your brother and his stupid conscious. I'm going home, Alice." I stated, continuing to Edward's Volvo. I saw her smile, and slide into the backseat with me. "They're coming don't worry." She stated when I gave her a questioning look. I didn't really like this hormonal stuff, but at least this way, no one wanted to argue with me.