Hey everyone!

Sorry about the long update, I really hate Septembers, getting back into the swing of things!

here it is:

Ryan sat in his office, monitoring the time. It had been an hour and a half since he dropped Marissa off at her shoot.

Unwillingly, he had go out at the shop, and bought her a pregnancy test. Something he didn't think he would be doing that day. When he got back, he gave it to her and she put it straight in her bag, without a word. He had tried to talk to her, but she kept gazing out of the window, until a tiny 'thanks' when they had reached their destination she had hopped out and given him a time to pick her up so they could go and collect Ottilie. Where he would then drive back reluctantly and hand over his daughter to a magazine photographer with Marissa. He sighed thinking that he should really get some work done.

There was a picture on his desk, one of Ottilie laughing uncontrollably at the camera. As much as he loved his daughter, he personally didn't think he was ready for another. Especially with everything that was going on between, he couldn't handle another custody battle another 5 years down the line. That's if this 'baby' is even his. All he could think about was the look on Marissa's face, when they had first diagnosed her with post natal depression. She looked broken, and lost, like the smallest move would push her over the edge. Even if Marissa was pregnant on the off chance, and even if, on the off chance it was his, he was too tell him he wanted to even be involved this time.

With all of these deep thoughts swirling around his brain, he could hardly comprehend drawings of a new mansion. There was a knock on his door that startled him, and he looked up from his desk, covered with papers tiredly.

"Hey baby" Sarah said sweetly as she walked around his desk and came to sit on his lap. He smiled at her and she kissed his lips.

"Good Surprise?" She asked him happily as she went about moving papers into piles and settling herself on his desktop. Ryan nodded and relaxed in his chair.

"Are you busy?" She asked him, leaning forward and placing her hands on his shoulders as he shook his head in response.

"Good, How was Ottilie when you dropped her off?" Sarah asked, now both of them looking at the picture of Ottilie on his desk and smiling.

"She was quite bad actually, she didn't want to go in at all. To make it worse, the paparazzi were there trying to take pictures of Marissa, so that really upset them both,"

"I don't want to talk about her" Sarah said quickly and firmly.

"Ok then, what do you want to talk about?"

"Us" She said smiling, Ryan sighed, really not needing to discuss his current relationships at the minute.

"What about us?" Ryan said obliviously.

"Well, sweetie, what are you doing next weekend?" She asked him as she adjusted his tie.

"I don't know S, what are we doing next weekend" It was true, Ryan rarely got to make plans anymore, Sarah's was very forceful in that way.

"Well, you are going to wait for me at the end of the aisle." Ryan's eyes doubled in size and she laughed at him .

"Not in that way, unless you know, you want too. But my sister is getting married back home in one of those 1 week wedding things, and I want you to be my date! Also, because her fiancé is in the army, and some of his friends cant be there, they needed an extra groomsman, and my Mom asked if you would do it?" Ryan looked at how excited she was, and she had met his family, many times so it was only fair. Although he couldn't exactly leave Marissa at the minute, if she was, with child.

"That sounds great, but what about Ottilie, are you sure its ok to take us with you?" Ryan asked her, her face flattered a bit and she looked towards the ground.

"There's one more catch. Because its so rushed, and there doing this super romantic. It kind of means there's no kids, and I did ask my Mom, if we could bring her, but some of my family aren't even bringing their children, so she said it was unfair, I am so sorry, I did try"

"Its alright, I'm sure she can handle one weekend without me, Its not like she hasn't before." Ryan said faltering to Sarah, if he stayed, it would look like something was wrong, and If he stayed and possibly scenarios, it would create the wrong kind of waves for the moment.

"Thank you so much baby, I cant tell you how much it means to me" Sarah leaned in and kissed him again, until they broke apart at the buzzing of Ryan's blackberry, Sarah sighed and picked up the phone, and saw Marissa's name flashing on the screen, she raised her eyebrows and pressed busy,

"It was her, you can phone her back later"

"That's excellent Marissa, Give us more" the photographer yelled at her as she switched positions. This was the last thing she felt like doing today, she was practically naked in a lingerie set, her hair was teased into bouncy curls and she felt like she had so much make up on it was eating her face. The lights in the studio were dimmed, so she was grateful for that, as she felt extremely fat today. She took some deep breaths, ignoring everything, she was too scared today, too scared to take the test, too scared to talk to Ryan about it, and even more frightened to talk to Jake about it, God knows what Jake would do.

"Ok, HAIR AND MAKE UP, SHE NEEDS A TOUCH UP" The camera assistant shouted as the photographer changed the film. A countless number of women rushed towards Marissa full steam, and as soon as they reached her, they immediately started pulling at her, and trying to make room. All in aid for one good picture, she told herself.

Ryan looked around the studio, after waiting in the car, coming a bit early, he decided that he would just go and wait for Marissa inside. He managed to sneak his way past the receptionist from the morning and into the room with loud music inside of it. He opened the heavy door and was blinded by a prominent flash

That's excellent Marissa, Give us more"

He watched as Marissa, leaned forward more and gave a seductive look to the awaiting team, in nothing but a barely there piece of lingerie and some heels.

Youve seen her in less Atwood

He told himself, which was true, but she had never looked quite as glamorous as she ever had done before, she had never shone, and he had never seen her in so much make up, telling her she was already stunningly beautiful without it, in which she was smirk and look the floor in embarrassment. As the crew took a break, she glanced around the studio whilst what seemed like a million people fussed over her, and when their eye lines met, her beautiful blues widened, at the thought of him seeing her in her state of undress, and Ryan, well he was in shock that he had gotten caught. As she batted the people away with her hand she quickly pulled up her dressing gown and walked over to Ryan, with a scowl on her beautiful face.

"What do you think your doing here Ryan??" She asked him, trying to wrap her belt around her as many times as possible.

"We, we, erm, we have to go, and erm"

"Ottilie, right" Marissa said nodding before turning around walking towards the crowd of awaiting photographers, she addressed the photographer and he nodded his head, immediately telling everyone else, that their ad campaign shoot for the day was now finished and that Marissa Cooper enjoyed working with everyone. Ryan watched her grab her clothes and walk behind a curtain and her fast moving shadow made it obvious what she was doing.

A few minutes later, Marissa had taken off her make up, and reapplied a more natural look, she walked towards Ryan in a fast pace and stopped beside him.

"Ready?" She asked impatiently, as he snapped out of his gaze and nodded, she carried onto walk in front of him but stopped tentatively when they were near the door.

"No paparazzi" He said confirming her suspicions,

"Actually, I was going to ask, if you could stop staring, would be great thanks" She replied bitchily and stepped out with her big glasses covering her eyes and waited at Ryan's car, happy there was not a paparazzo in sight. Once they both got in the car, and had put up with the most awkward silence in the history of the world, Ryan spoke up.

"Do you think--"

"Nope" Marissa asked quickly

"You don't even know what I'm going to say" Ryan questioned her, looking over at her too see her taken a sudden interest in her cuticles.

"So, my answer is no, I'm not even thinking about the thing, I think your going to say, so no" She answered stubbornly.

"Fine by me, and you sound like Seth" The ends of Marisa lips tugged upwards slightly, but she willed herself to not let Ryan see.

"Do you think Ottilie had a nice day?" Marissa asked lightly.

"I hope so, she was so excited about it this morning, and thanks you know, and to Jake, for keeping it clean this morning," Ryan said sincerely

"It really shouldn't be like this should it?" Marissa said wistfully

"What do you mean?"

"We shouldn't have to apologise for not causing arguments, we shouldn't have to be fighting over Ottilie, you shouldn't hate my fiancé and I shouldn't hate your girlfriend, I should be friends with Summer, I should be there for her when she's pregnant, I should be a regular Mom, I should be able to talk to everyone that used to be important in my life, like Kirsten and my sister, and I shouldn't be sitting here 5 years later, and still wondering if you and me are going to have a baby. I'm so sorry Ryan" She said as she wiped her tears. Ryan was stuck for words, it was the first time since they had reunited that she had apologised.

"Marissa, something's are in the past, its best that we leave them there" She nodded and dried her face,

"Would it be ok if I had Ottilie this Saturday night?, I've been invited to a premiere in Disney Land for Enchanted 2 and I thought she might like to go, and I am totally ok with her coming, because the crowd is controlled and monitored, and Jake would be there, and it would have been after the magazine comes out, so she wont be startled by questions" Marissa said, trying ot think of some other reasons,

"Well If you promise she wont get scared," Ryan said putting up that wall again,

"You can have her all weekend if you like?" Ryan offered, he noticed that Marissa's face lit up,

"You think I'm ready? I would love too!!" She said excitedly, both of them still ignoring the elephant. The rode the rest of the way in silence and got out as they stopped at Ottilie's school, and they both got out, to only a few paparazzi, which was good, as they kept there. They waited for a few minutes until they both saw Ottilie coming out of her class with a smile on her face, running towards the both of them, it was the picture perfect moment.

"Hey baby, did you have a good day" Ryan said bending down to her level, Ottilie nodded and kissed both of her parents on the cheek.

"Wow sweetie, Did you make any friends" Marissa asked her, Ottilie nodded again and pointed to a blonde hair little boy stand slightly behind her, smiling at the both of them, as Ottilie walked away and towards him, Ryan's head shot to face Marissa's and a horrified look was on his face. Marissa just smiled at him and they both looked at their daughter as she moved over to the little boy and clasped his hand.

"Mommy and Daddy, this is Nate, hes my special friend," Ottilie said proudly as she giggled, Ryan however just stood there in shock.

"What do you mean by special friend honey" Marissa asked as her as Nate's parents were staring at her in shock,

"Well like Jake's your special friend, and Sarah is Daddy's, Nate is mine, if everyone else has one, I don't want to be lefted out" Ottilie said trying to be pointed, and grown up

"Well that's enough school for today, Come on Ottilie, we have places to be, it was nice meeting you…Nate, Marissa were leaving" Ryan said as he began to walk off, when he turned around and saw Ottilie hugging Nate and kissing him on the cheek and whispering with Marissa, he started to panic. When they were all in the car again, it was silent for a minute.

"Mommy, don't you just love Nate, I heard one of the older girls at break saying we were cute" Ottilie said proudly,

"Why would they say that sweetie" Marissa asked, acting a lot more happier than Ryan was right now

"Because he kissed me,"

"Oh my god, no, no no, no boys, until your 30, that's final" Ryan said, speaking his mind.

"Ryan, you can't keep her wrapped up forever, I kissed Luke on my first day of school"

"Yeah and look how well that turned out" Ryan said countering her.

"Sweetie, would you like to have Nate over sometime?" Marissa said as Ryan shook his head,

"Ok, but who's house?" Ottilie inquired. Marissa looked at Ryan who was shaking his head

"Well I don't want to see my daughter kissing anyone, even if it is the Great Nate" He said with sarcasm in his voice.

"At my house sweetie, seeing as Daddy is acting rather Neal Roberts right about now" Marissa said as they both continued to hear about Ottilie and Nate's day, Ryan was ready for a lot of things in his life, like tomorrow's work deadline, the upcoming wedding he had to attend, for Marissa to be pregnant again possibly, but most of all he was not ready for his baby girl to grow up, but then again, what father is?

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