Hey everyone! I am so sorry that I hadnt updated recently, it started off with work, then I couldnt find any inspiration to write, then I didnt get many reviews or hits so i thought people didnt really care, but I was watching my favourtie episode of the OC last night and I found a will to write again! I just love Ryan and Marissa :P

I know this is a short chapter, but I thought its better than nothing, having something else up by the end of the week

Enjoy xoxo

"Daddy! Did you paack my slubbers??" Ottilie asked as she looked between Ryan and Marissa. Ryan nodded and she smiled contently as she looked between them.

"Jake you would take Ottilie and her things to her room please, while I just talk to Ryan?" Marissa asked her fiancé, he raised his eyebrows, questioning her, then gave in.

"Be good baby" Ryan kissed Ottilie's cheek and she nodded with a few tears in her eyes.

"No tears, I will be back by Monday," Ottilie nodded and hugged him again, then left grudgingly with Jake to take her things upstairs. Marissa waited before Jake was out of earshot and then turned to Ryan.

"You know her bedtime don't you," Ryan asked her as she nodded

"And you know that when she goes to bed she will tell you that she needs a sample of every book she has before she can make a decision," Marissa nodded before he continued.

"And make sure she has no peanuts, she is allergic"

"Ryan I know, ok you told me all this before, now everything will be fine, I have both of your numbers" Marissa said again looking at the floor.

"You will call though wont you ?" Ryan asked just to clarify

"I said I would didn't I. I can be a mother you know" Ryan decided to hold his tonuge and not make a comeback, in their effort to get along.

"So, are you going to the doctor today then?" Ryan asked her nervously, Marissa had taken 2 pregnancy tests and one came out positive and the other negative. She hadn't exactly told him at first, she just told him that she was going to the doctor.

"There's no need" Marissa said firmly, fiddling with her engagement ring.

"Why?"

"Because I got the thing you get and you know your not pregnant" Marissa said, trying to help him along.

"What? But you took the test and--" he said confused

"Ryan I got my period" She whispered, finally.

"Ohh, ohh right then, well I best be off, plane to catch and all" He said awkwardly,

"Go go, you have fun at the wedding" Marissa said unenthusiastically,

"Yeah, good luck" and with that Marissa shut the door and Ryan walked down the drive, Marissa took a few claming breaths and wiped a tear, before setting up the stairs to find her fiancé and her daughter. When she reached Ottilie's room, which she had promised that she would make more child friendly over the weekend, she found Ottilie sitting on her bed, looking a bit sad.

"Sweetie, where's Jake?" Marissa asked her daughter as she sat down beside her.

"His blueberry ringed so he had to go answer it"

"You mean his blackberry babes" Marissa said, brushing her hair out of her face and smiling at her daughters naiveté

"Yeah that's the one"

"Baby are you alright?" Marissa asked her, fearing that she didn't want to stay with her and she would have the embarrassment of ringing Summer and admitting that she had failed her simple task for the weekend. Ottilie shook her head and fell against Marissa's arms.

"Nate told me he didn't want to be my special friend anymore" Ottilie said sadly, Marissa's face fell for her daughter, it is never nice to feel rejected, she had at Ottilie's age and she still did.

"Oh baby, its ok, your too young for boys anyway." Marissa said trying to comfort her.

"He said it was because I wasn't as pretty as Eloise" Marissa felt her arms tighten around her waist and she lay down on Ottilie's small bed and pulled her daughter on top of her. Like her Mom used to with her, she had lay Ottilie against her heartbeat and she as stroking Ottilie's fanned out hair.

"Don't let anyone tell you you aren't pretty sweetie. You were just on a magazine cover, you're the prettiest girl in the entire world" Marissa felt Ottilie smile, she had taken a lot of pride in the magazine shoot, telling everyone there that she was a natural, and showing everyone the pictures, just being so proud that her and her Mom were on a magazine together. Marissa sort of regretted the magazine cover, it would mean that it could jeopardise her work, it shouldn't, but it might. They both lay in silence for a while, comforted by the others relaxed breath.

"RISSSSSSSSSS?" Marissa hear Jake shout up the stairs, they were both startled by his loud booming voice.

"THE CARS HERE!" Marissa sighed and lifted Ottilie off of her. She no longer seemed upset, which made Marissa feel a lot happier,

"Come on Otty, lets go downstairs and watch some TV, Mommy has to pop out real quick, but I will be back in an hour." Marissa said

"Am I coming with you?" Ottilie asked her, Marissa shook her head and then bent down to kiss her cheek.

"No Sweetie, your going to stay with Jake, I will be back real soon though."

"Would I be allowed to go swimming?" Ottilie asked her as she opened her bag and dug around for her costume.

"Yeah sure," Marissa helped Ottilie into her costume and her floats and walked her downstairs to where Jake was sitting on his laptop in the kitchen.

"Jake babe, would you be able to watch Otty while she goes swimming, Im just popping over to the agency" Marissa watched Ottilie run over to a chair and leave her shoes and sunglasses there and then splash around in the Jacuzzi.

"Marissa Do I--"

"I will be as quick as possible, it shouldn't take to long" She lent over and pecked him on the lips before motioning that he had to go and watch her daughter. She then went outside and cancelled the taxi Jake had bought her and got her keys to her car. When the engine was running she got the adress out of her purse at a traffic light and her blackberry, and dialled the number for her Aunt Joanna, he was more or less her Mom now.

"Hey, Jo, its me"
"Marissa darling, are you there yet?"
"Yeah I'm on my way to the doctors now, they will be able to tell me my options"
"Well its either your career or another kid"
"I just want to know if I deffinilty am, then me and Jake can cross that bridge when we come to it"
"And if it isn't Jakes, because you know as well as I do that -"
"If Its not Jakes, I will cross that bridge when I come to it, look I have to go, I will talk to you later"

When she hung up and got out of the car, that feeling of de ja vu overcome her, it was weird to be thinking that she was pregnant again, but here she was nearly 6 years later, and no less alone. She took a deep breath and put on her 'normal' disguise and quickly got out of the car.

Stupid Pill for not working, Stupid Ryan and or Stupid Jake, Stupid hormones.

Let me know what you think

xoxo