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Marissa and Ryan both quietly walked into the apartment. Ryan was carrying Ottilie who had fallen into a deeper sleep as they drove home from the hospital. Marissa smiled at him carrying their daughter, he looked so natural, she wished she could of seen him carrying her around when Ottilie was a baby, or being there when Ottilie said her first word, or to see his face light up when she took her first steps. She wanted to see all of those things that she had missed, between the both of them.

"Mommy" Ottilie whispered quietly, as she tried to open her tired eyes.

"sshhhh baby, go back to sleep," Marissa said to her, as they all moved around the penthouse, with only the moon highlighting its features. Ottilie stretched her arms out to Marissa and Ryan passed her over,

"I don't want to go in my bed nunight" Ottilie said as she yawned. Marissa nodded to Ryan, the doctor had warned them that Ottilie would be very clingy and she would possibly be having some nightmares for a while.

"You can sleep in my bed both of you" Ryan told them, Marissa smiled and walked through to his room whilst Ryan made them coffees, she hadn't actually been in before. Ottilie was in a nightgown that Summer bought her at the hospital shop, so she immediately got under the heavy covers. Marissa however was taken by the photos that adorned the largest wall. There were some from Newport and the majority were of Ottilie as she was growing up, the one with him and the Cohen's on their first Chrismukkah, one of him and Ryan graduating Harbour. There is one of him and Marissa dancing at some event she hadn't even remembered they had attended together, she thought it was odd how he had kept it, and what Sarah must think whenever she sees it, but that didn't matter to her, because in that picture, she hadn't seen them look any more in love.

"Mommy, will you lay with me?" Ottilie asked her tiredly, Marissa nodded and went to lay on the outside of the covers, she stroked Ottilie's fine blonde hair contently watching her daughter. When her hand crept down to her stomach, she finally seemed pleased about being pregnant again, an emotion she hadn't encountered on that pregnancy yet.

"Mommy, how comes you're here with us?" Ottilie asked her as she rolled over to her side to face Marissa.

"Because I wanted to stay with you and your Dad tonight, to make sure your ok, that is alright isn't it?" Marissa asked her as she brushed a hair out of her face.

"I like it that you're here with us," Ottilie told her smiling.

"Otty Atwood, your supposed to be asleep" Ryan told her as he entered the room with the two of them, Marissa suddenly became very nervous. Her she was lying on his bed, and they had to pretend there was nothing between them.

"I'm not tired anymore" Ottilie said smiling slightly. She reached up to Ryan, as he had bought in hot chocolate for both of them, Marissa smiled shyly as he handed her his cup, the same way he always made it to her.

"Can I sit with you two" Ryan asked them, but directed the question at Marissa, not knowing where his relationship stood with her. Ottilie nodded brightly, and Marissa shifted her gaze, she wondered if she ought to go and be somewhere else and leave them alone, because as sad as her situation was she was starting to really enjoy being a family of 3. When Ryan joined them, He pulled his arms around Ottilie as, Marissa moved some hair out of her face. Ottilie faltered her happy smile and let out a yawn.

"Come on baby, you have had a really long day" Marissa told her as she nodded

"I no want to go to sleep, coz then you not be here tomorrow, you will go home and then daddy will be with me and not you, and not all of us" She said sadly, Marissa kissed her forehead, her speech was becoming harder to understand as she spoke.

"I promise I will be here in the morning" Marissa told her as she looked at Ryan, he smiled awkwardly, not knowing how to behave or act around her.

"We both will, now come on get some sleep" Ryan told her as he motioned that he and Marissa should leave her, she kissed Marissa and Ryan goodnight as they left her.

"Night baby, I love you" Marissa told her as she shut the door behind them. When they both stood outside of his bedroom, they stood and looked at each other awkwardly, Marissa thought back to a time when it had ever been like this between them, that much tension and awkwardness, and the first thing she thought of was when she had told him she loved him and he had replied with thank you.

"So" Ryan said breaking the ice and snapping Marissa out of her daydream.

"I should get to bed--"

"Would you mind, you know, if we talked maybe?" Ryan asked her, she nodded and went to sit down on the sofa., he quickly wondered whereabouts he should sit, where would be too close or far away.

"What do you want to talk about?" Marissa said avoiding his gaze, and avoiding the obvious.

"I'm sorry," Ryan told her, She looked confused and he continued.

"I had never actually apologised you know, for today, the way I acted around Sarah, the way I hurt you, it was a lie, as I'm sure you have worked out. And for treating you like I have since you have come back, there are a lot of things between us, I had never apologised for, Marissa, and I'm sorry" Ryan told her sincerely,

"Erm, thanks I guess, but its not all you. Who knows what may of happened if I had never gone to New York,"

"I ask myself the same question" Ryan told her truthfully.

"I regret it you know, I wish I had never left Newport"

"Lets not go back there, we shouldn't-"

"No we should, I mean, you know my reasons, they were awful and shellfish, and hand on my heart was the worst decision I had ever made, but I just couldn't be-" Marissa told him, she had to admit, they had to talk about things whether they liked it or not,

"I remember, when I got to the house that night, and your Mom and Neal told me, I had never been more scared of anything in my life, I hadn't even been that scared when you told me you were pregnant, because then I knew there would be the both of us, but just to see her look up at me, and all I could see was you, I didn't want to let either of you down" Ryan said as he averted her eyes, having not told anyone anything about that night. She leant across and put her hand on his,

"I am so sorry" Marissa took a breath in as she felt their electricity, she had never had that with anyone else in her life. Ryan looked at her, and read her mind, she quickly took her hand away, as if she had just touched fire.

"I didn't mean to, it--"

"Marissa, we both need to stop finding excuses." Ryan told her exasperatedly.

"What do you mean?" She tried to act dumb, but they both knew their feelings were eventually going to come out. Ryan thought about what he wanted to say, and questioned himself on whether it was the right thing to do or not.

"What I mean is," Ryan took a deep breath and carried on, "we both know how much it hurt for you to go away, and we both know what happened again when you came back" Marissa shut her eyes, and tried to steady her breathing, although her heart was beating faster and faster with every second.

"Ryan I-"

"Marissa, this is so hard for me, I have tried so hard to ignore it since you came back, it would only complicate things more and more, and from our past experience, the odds have always been against us" Marissa nodded and tried to speak but Ryan wouldn't let her start, he needed to finish what he was saying. She moved closer to him and was reading his face as they both stopped to look at each other

"What I am saying Marissa I love you, and truth be told, I had never really stopped" Ryan waited for her to say something but she just looked at him in shock, her eyes began to water,

"I…I..-" Marissa was unable to find the words to say back to him, Ryan felt as if someone had pierced through his heart again, Ryan looked at the floor and stood up, Marissa immediately joined him and stepped in front of him.,

"No, I shouldn't of said that I, it was--"

"I love you too" Marissa told him as she blocked his path, they both smiled and Marissa giggled out of happiness, Ryan smiled at her as Marissa nodded, they both lent into a kiss that didn't stop. Marissa hadn't been this happy in a long long time, there was still everything they needed to sort out, but they were everything they needed, and they always had been. When they broke apart, Marissa leant his forehead on his and smiled. Being held by Ryan, and being kissed by Ryan, she had wanted it for such a long time, and now she finally had it, it was to good to be true.

"So what does this mean?" Marissa asked him giddily. Ryan reciprocated her smile.

"Well, we both love you, and I know I never want to make a mistake as bad as what I did last time, but I'm not going to push you, this is your terms and all I want you to know is that now, Im not going anywhere" Marisa's bit her lip in excitement, still getting her head around everything that had just happened.

"What about Sarah?" Marissa asked him slightly doubtfully,

"I don't want to let anyone else come between us again Riss," She smiled happily and drew in his lips, they stood kissing in the lounge for a while longer, reconnecting. Marissa thought about the baby, and decided she would wait a while longer before telling him, telling him in a memorable way, seeing as when she told him about Ottilie, it was more of a heat of the moment thing. She stood in the lounge, and rested her head on his shoulder, she sighed happily and held him close.

"You called me Riss" She said to him, as she sat down on the sofa and he wrapped his arms around her as they sat in silence.

"Old habit I guess" They both smiled, Marissa had forgotten the feeling, the feeling whenever he told her he loved her, and how warm it made her feel, he really did make her whole. How she lived without that feeling was beyond her, but they were here, together, that was all that mattered.

I can only smile at this point, I hope people liked it, I was going to drag them out a little bit longer but I saw some inspiration for this chapter on youtube.

Its called Ryan& Marissa: You're still the one, look for it guys deffinitly, it wouldnt let me put a link.

It actually bought me to tears, god I am sad, any RM fan needs to watch this.

look out for the next chapter xoxo