-Author's Notes-

Hello my friends! Another chapter!~ I really can't stop writing, but I have exams soon so my writing may decrease, unfortunately. But dare not think that I am not continuing this, I will continue and finish this fanfic, do not fret!~

Warning: Rating may change due to progress of this story but this chapter is currently rated T. Warnings will be placed at the start of each chapter, this chapter implies slash but nothing explicit.

Pairing - David x Shockwave

Disclaimer: This story is fan made. I do not own 'Transformers' or any of its characters. Transformers belong to Hasbro. (I could say that David is my OC vehicon, but the vehicons belong to Hasbro so I find it best not to.)

-The time of this story is set in the middle of Transformers Prime: Beast Hunters, season three of Transformers Prime.-

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Have you ever wanted someone so much that it hurts?

It was a tight grasp, two completely different shapes of warm metal wrapped around each other, expressing a remarkable sensation that only the two owners of said metal could see. Could feel.

His servo was being held in mine, our arms brushed occasionally as did our chest plates. I simply chuckled, I was standing on the tips of my pedes due to my smaller height. In respect for this he slowly bent down, giving me the opportunity to press my helm gently against his own. I hummed in joy, he tightened the grip of our servos and I merely squeezed back affectionately. These subtle movements were nothing but emphases of pure love.

The large mask that covered my entire face along with the red visor had been removed, allowing me to press my lip plates to the side of his purple-plated helm. His silver and thin antennae drooped low at this, a slight nudge of his helm causing it to move further into my loving touch. I smiled and slowly kissed from the side of his helm to his glowing optic.

I was so happy.

His optic blazed brighter at the touch of my lip plates before I slowly pulled away, staring directly at him. He wrapped his arm with his single servo around me, causing me to shudder at his touch, a touch of which I desired so badly. I then returned the gesture with both of my own arms, wrapping them tightly around him. I then pressed our helms together once again.

"I'll never let you go."

I whispered with a small smile as I looked at him. He remained quiet, pulling me closer to him as his armour began to gradually lose its brilliant colour, fading away. My spark began to race as I gazed at him in confusion, my optics growing wide. "Shockwave?.."

I began to shake and grip him tighter, it was then I realised that my servos were passing through him, as though he wasn't even there. He was now transparent and it was becoming worse.

"Shockwave!"

I cried and tried to hug him again, falling to my knees as I passed through him. He wasn't answering me. I lifted my servos from the ground and lifted my body up from where I had fallen but remained on my knees, desperately looking around.

He was gone.

Coolant began to drip from my optics as I continued to search around for him, standing up on my pedes once again as the area surrounding me began growing darker and darker. I was alone.

"...I'll never let you go..." I wheezed out as I clasped my optics shut, gritting my denta as I looked down.

He was never mine to begin with.

My vision was fuzzy as I steadily opened my optics, a white light shining brightly in my sight as I tried to sit upwards. I was lying down on an askew surface, presumably a berth.

A flash of red began to appear in my blurry vision as my sight began to improve. Where was I? How did I get here? I felt a wave of confusion wash over me. What had happened?

I suddenly felt that I was trembling hysterically, my spark beating fast as I began to grow more aware of my surroundings, I could feel the streaks of coolant that seeped from my optics run down my face plate, but I was wearing my mask with my visor so it could not be seen by anyone.

Another dream. That's all it was. I have experienced that one many times before. I would be holding him and loving him, my Commander Shockwave, and he would happily return the affectionate gestures. He would return the love. It was always so amazing.

But then; he disappears, and I would be left alone without him. Without anyone. Completely alone. I would always wake up with tears of coolant in my optics, my spark completely broken. It always felt so real. This pain. This sparkbreak, it was consistent, I always relived it and it just wouldn't stop.

I closed my optics and covered my face plate with my servos, my visor dimming as I sadly shook my helm. "Why?.. Why must I endure this?.." I spoke aloud, speaking to no one as I began to sigh. I then removed my servos from my face plate and looked around the area I was in, only to realise that I was in the medical bay, Knockout staring at me from the side of the berth of where he stood, his optics wide and his derma parted slightly.

My face plate suddenly dropped and heated up in embarrassment as I gazed at him. Oh frag...

He immediately noticed that I had realized he was looking at me, a small and devious smile plastering his face plate as he shook his helm. It was easy to hide my emotional anxiety from Commander Shockwave due to his incapability to understand emotions or detect them, but I have absolutely no hope with a flirtatious mech like Knockout.

"Well, well, well. I've never had a vehicon patient like you before. That must have been some intense dream you had." He chuckled darkly and placed one of his servos on his hip plating, that sarcastic smile only becoming larger. I simply remained still, not uttering a word as I continued to watch him in complete terror.

" 'Shockwave, Shockwave, Shockwave', that's all you kept on saying. I'm curious; what was your dream about?" He smirked and rested his servo on the berth, leaning forward as he stared at me intently. I simply felt my lip plates shake and my spark thump within its chamber. He knew of my functionality with emotions, he knew my secret. I'm dead; I'm a dead mech!

This was what I always tried to avoid! I always tried to avoid battle or always be extremely careful so that I would never end up in the medical bay, the chances of my secret being found out were so much higher then. But this was it, I screwed up too much this time.

I heaved heavily and quickly jumped off of the berth, ignoring his question completely and kneeling both of my knees onto the cold floor as I gripped his leg plates in some form of a hug, causing him gasp. "Please, please, please do not tell anyone about this sir! I beg of you, I will do anything you want! I-I'll help you buff yourself! I'll give you my daily ration of energon! I-I'll clean the medical bay! Oh, sir, please I am so sorry. No one must know!"

I embraced his legs tighter before he growled and pushed me away, immediately wiping his legs in a frisky manner as I fell to the floor at his pedes. He really never put anything before his finish.

"Firstly; Do not touch me like that. This paint job is very expensive and it is buffed absolutely everyday, I do not want some lower ranked soldier that has been doing Primus knows what with his servos to touch me like that, I already have an idea of what you've been doing with yours after your little 'performance' while you were recharging. Ewwugh!" He said as he cringed and shook his helm vigorously.

He then stood back a little and looked to me again. "Secondly; don't tell anyone about what? That you just had a sexual dream about your beloved Commander Shockwave?" He smirked again and began to laugh, causing me to lower my head bashfully before shaking it. As I thought, I really couldn't hide my emotions from this mech.

"S-Sir, you misunderstand, I didn't have a dream such as that about Commander Shockwave, I-It was about, uhm..." I slowly trailed off and looked away, practically ready to jump off of this warship. What was I going to do? Not only did Knockout know of my emotional state, but he saw me experience one of my dreams about Commander Shockwave! Along with getting the completely wrong idea of what it was about. How humiliating...

I really couldn't just say: 'Oh, I just had a dream about Commander Shockwave disappearing right in front of me after we shared loving gestures and affectionate actions, my spark's just broken into tiny little pieces, that's all.'

Really. He'd consider me less sad if I was lusting after Commander Shockwave rather than loving him, he considers me a Primus damned Decepticon! Decepticons don't love. The last thing I need is for him to insult me even further.

I then shook those thoughts away and bit my lip plates as Knockout stared at me, waiting patiently as he then crossed his arms.

"It was about?.." He continued to smile, his smartaft nature always annoyed me, but it had never been directed at me before, so I was much more afraid of it this time. I could not annoy him because he was an officer, one wrong move and I'll be finished. That is, if I already wasn't.

I simply frowned and sighed. "Sir, please; may you forget about what has just happened? I kindly request you do not inform anyone of my emotional state. Please..." I begged him, looking to the ground as his smile was slowly wiped away. I then brought myself to looking back up at him, noticing that his facial expression was very serious and thoughtful. Strange, he almost looked considerate in an oddly compassionate way, certainly not the Knockout I've come to know.

He simply sighed and nodded. "You're no fun; but I will not tell anyone of this. I won't gain anything from it anyway..." He said with a bored tone before I swiftly stood up and clasped my servos together in a praying manner. "Thank you so much sir! You have no idea of how happy you have just made me!" I smiled behind my mask and sighed in relief, looking at the red medic as he simply flaunted his servo. "Yeah, yeah whatever. Though I am pretty curious... How did you gain your emotions? Are you the only vehicon like this?" He asked me with a curious sparkle in his optics. I simply shrugged and rubbed my helm, even I didn't know the answer to that.

"I've always been like this, and as far as I know; there are no other vehicon troops like me." I concluded with an unsure tone, watching the flashy sports car as he nodded in understanding. "I see. So you're the only one?" I began to think for a moment before nodding, he grinned wildly at this.

"Heh, finally, someone I can talk to properly and boss around." He chuckled cheekily as my shoulders dropped low. That didn't sound very pleasant, I really didn't want Knockout calling me here just so he could nag at me and then tell me to scrub the floor. That would be that little quantity of freedom I had just gone! I'd be better off being offline...

Knockout continued to laugh and shook his helm. "I'm just kidding, though I might ask for your presence here every once in awhile. Without Breakdown, I really don't have someone to talk to. Except maybe Starscream, but he's very... Ehh." He looked away with uncertainty, but I simply stepped forward and laughed a little, nodding my helm. "I know exactly what you mean." He averted his stare back to me and smiled a little.

"So, would you be willing to join me every now and then? I wouldn't mind the company, and the assistance of course." He asked as I titled my helm to the side. He was being serious about this? He truly must have been lonely behind that narcissistic personality of his. I began to ponder for a moment. Since Knockout and I started talking moments ago, I strangely felt a sense of ease. He's still that cocky and boastful mech, but he's not as bad as I thought he was.

If I went to help him every now and then, or even see him just to talk, my life would be much less lonely as well and much more interesting. I could be excused from my duties to help an officer, it would be much better than guard duty!

I decided to stop debating with myself and nodded vigorously. "Yes, yes of course! I would like that very much." I smiled more behind my mask and he nodded. "Alright, I was examining you awhile ago. 214, is it? You'll need to-" "David." I suddenly interrupted him and he stopped.

"David? What's 'David'?" He asked in complete confusion, raising an optic ridge. "David's my name. Well, to myself that is. You have no idea how horrible it is to be considered a number all of the time..." I said sadly as he tilted his helm to the side.

"What kind of a name is 'David'? I've never heard of it on Cybertron." He stated, he still looked very confused. I simply shook my helm before speaking again. "That's because it's not Cybertronian. It's a name humans use. Once I decided I wanted a proper name for myself, I couldn't think of any Cybertronian name that suited me. At all. When I hacked into this 'World Wide Web' database these humans have, I found an endless list of human names, and I found this one and that was it; I named myself David." I finished proudly, receiving a chuckle from the red mech.

"It sounds really strange, 'Day-vid', 'Dave-id'. Humans, sheesh, their names are really peculiar." He shook his helm as I chuckled a little, still feeling weird of talking to an officer like this, but he was clearly used to talking to vehicons, whether they were listening or not. It was also clear that he had wanted someone to listen to him all along, rather than them not. I suppose I really didn't mind that, so long as he wasn't boasting about himself all of the time.

"Now David," He started, bringing me back into the world of reality. "Commander Shockwave brought you here, he said if you were in-" "What?!" I clamored in complete shock, causing the medic to sink his helm into his neck a little. I stood back and grabbed the side of my helm with both of my servos, becoming frantic by what Knockout had just told me.

"Okay... You really need to stop interrupting me." He said blankly as he looked somewhat irritated. I ignored him and began walking in circles like a lost drone. "W-What do you mean 'Commander Shockwave brought me here'?!" I cried again, causing Knockout to sigh and place a sharp digit on the middle of his forehelm.

"I mean; He carried you here because you randomly passed out while he was talking to you." He closed his optics in annoyance as I stopped dead in my tracks. "...Co-Commander Shockwave... Carried me?.."

Knockout tilted his helm slightly, clearly perplexed by my reaction to all of this. How could I not react to this?! Commander Shockwave carried me! He carried me! "I think I'm going to purge my tanks..." I dimmed my visor and planted myself onto the floor, trembling immensely as I stared at the medical bay's floor.

Knockout was still quite baffled by all of this, he closed his optics and waved his servos in front of himself. "Wait, wait, wait... Do you hate Commander Shockwave or something? Did he do something to you?" He asked, causing me shoot my gaze at him rapidly. "What?! Me?! Hate Commander Shockwave?! Never!" I practically exploded, standing up quickly as I began glaring at Knockout, causing him to stand back slightly.

I suddenly realized what I did and began shaking again. "Ooh sir, I am so sorry. I really didn't mean to shout at you like that." I covered my face with my servos and shook my helm. I just had an emotional outburst at an officer. I'm nothing but an emotionless wreck, this is the first time I've ever talked to someone while freely expressing how I felt. I never knew I was this bad.

Knockout simply raised an optic ridge, still trying to figure out what was going on. "So you do like him?" He questioned again, causing me to nod slowly. "Oh, I don't just like him sir. It's so much stronger than that..."

I admitted shyly, causing him to blink multiple times. "Wow... I meet a vehicon soldier who harbours emotions and is in love with Commander Shockwave. I really wasn't expecting that to happen today." He grinned sheepishly and I frowned in embarrassment behind my mask, rubbed the side of my arm gently.

"I-I just can't help it... What did he say to you when he brought me here?.." I felt my spark flutter at the though of him carrying me , I was in his arms. He certainly must have had a good reason for it.

"Well," Knockout started, tapping his digit on his chin as he looked to the side. "He said he wanted you to return to him once you awoke, he wants you to assist him with his work. He wanted me to examine you first though, he was too busy to do it himself and he was pretty confused by why you suddenly went unconscious." The red medic began to chuckle and rested both of his servos on his hips. "Now I know why."

I ignored his smart remark and began pressing my digits together. "He-He still wants me to help h-him?" My optics began to shake a little as I brought my gaze to the floor. Knockout simply nodded and crossed his servos. "Mmmhm. He does, so you better go back when you can. Will you try and get a schedule off of him for when you're working, so you can come tell me and I'll try figure out when you can come and assist me?"

I looked to him and snorted. "Yeah, 'assist' you." I know Knockout's an officer, but the more I talked to him the more I felt inclined to be myself. He chuckled at what I said and this only made me feel more comfortable, I was actually approaching the point of calling him a friend, but it was much too soon and Knockout was very unpredictable, and a Decepticon. I couldn't do something stupid and become attached, I had to be careful. I'll simply consider him an acquaintance for now.

"Oh, it won't be that bad." He laughed, walking over to the medical table as he picked up a datapad. "Look, you just go back to your true love and do whatever it is you need to do, I don't want to get into trouble for keeping you here." He said as he flicked through the contents of the datapad with his index digit. I nodded at him and smiled a little. "Thank you sir, I will come back when I can." I stated before I made my way to medical bay's door.

"Knockout." He called to me, causing me to look over my shoulder. "Huh?" I stared at him as he looked up from the datapad and back to me.

"Call me Knockout, not 'sir'. Peh, that title doesn't even suit me anyway." He grinned, averting his gaze to the datapad once more before I smiled wider and nodded. "Of course, Knockout." I finished before approaching the door, it opened as I neared it.

"Oh, and Knockout, you don't need to pretend that you're reading that." I snickered and left as he shot his helm upward. "What?! Pretending to read it?!" He was about to continue with his furious outburst but he could hear that I had ran off down the hall, still snickering a little.

I turned a corner and began to laugh once I was certain I was alone. I felt so glad right now, I've never shared a proper conversation with someone before. And for it to be Knockout, of all bots! And not only that, but Commander Shockwave wants me to return to him! He truly wanted me to be his assistant, and I was more than happy to!

I squealed in excitement and began to make my way to the laboratory once again. I was rushing but slowly becoming more nervous, remembering I had passed out randomly in front of Commander Shockwave. Stupid, stupid, stupid!

I shook my helm at the thought, I was surprised he still wanted me as an assistant, but very very happy nonetheless. I was simply so honoured by it, it simply made me more determined to impress him even further.

I now held no regrets for leaning on that lab door now; when I was trying to listen to what he had been doing. Even if I fell onto Commander Shockwave like a complete idiot. If I had not have done that at that exact time, none of this would have ever happened. My life was finally growing more interesting, I was finally able to be around the one I loved more than anyone and anything.

If I also had not have passed out, I wouldn't have became something close to a friend with Knockout. And he seems very happy with continuing our little meetings together to simply talk. We were both very lonely and we both needed someone to talk to, even though Commander Shockwave was absolutely perfect enough for me to use as someone to talk to.

The idea of just sitting there and listening to him murmur equations made my spark go for a spin! He's so intelligent and tall and masculine and gorgeousand logical... Every time he says that word, my head virtually spins around twice and blows up!

I suddenly giggled like a femme as I arrived at the sector where the laboratory was located. I was still trying to think of what I was going to say to Commander Shockwave, he might want to know why I had went unconscious.

I could just say it was a little malfunctioning glitch or something in my processor? He seems to never dwell on matters too often, so long as he understands the logic behind it, then that's it. He leaves it be. Which I am strangely thankful for, he didn't seem to really care when I fell right into his interface panel and grabbed his aft.

I suddenly felt my face plates heat up at that thought, the fact I actually had the opportunity to touch him was amazing enough, let alone touch that part of his body. I remember how well my warms swerved around his perfectly shaped hips, my servos gripped his aft in such a harmonized manner. That bulge in hist crotch was right in front of me.

I immediately smacked my self, shaking my helm vigorously. The last thing I need to do is get aroused whilst going back to the one I dream of! How stupid can I actually be? I'll dwell on those thoughts later...

I saw the lab door at the end of the hall and stopped, my spark pounding loudly. I waited a short moment before walking again, eventually arriving in front of the door. I stared at it in awe, once again; nothing could be heard. I really need to try and not get so worked up when being around Commander Shockwave, but he's too remarkable to not have a nervous breakdown in front of. He should be used to it!

I bit my lip plates before lifting my servo and knocking three times, placing and clasping my servos behind my back and waiting patiently for Commander Shockwave to answer. I knew I was never going to get used to doing this, but that's what made it all the more amazing.

You called Knockout a 'prissy femme' David? You're worse! 'Giggling like a femme' and 'squealing'. The frag is wrong with you?

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