-Author's Notes-

'Ello! Chapter seven, yep, a quick update and it's now the longest chapter!~ This is a very interesting chapter, so read onward, my friends!

Warning: Rating may change due to progress of this story but this chapter is currently rated T. Warnings will be placed at the start of each chapter, this chapter implies slash but nothing explicit.

Pairing - David x Shockwave

Disclaimer: This story is fan made. I do not own 'Transformers' or any of its characters. Transformers belong to Hasbro. (I could say that David is my OC vehicon, but the vehicons belong to Hasbro so I find it best not to.)

-The time of this story is set in the middle of Transformers Prime: Beast Hunters, season three of Transformers Prime.-

Please do read, enjoy and leave a review!~

I remained completely still as I stared at Commander Shockwave with wide optics, my derma agape and my frame stiff. What he has just said to me, I was close to asking him to repeat it, but Primus damn it I wasn't stupid! Well, I could be, but this; I very well knew what he said. He found out. He knows. He knows. How... How did he?..

The cortical psychic patch! I'm such a fool! Why did I allow him into my mind?! He... He must have saw everything. My opinions about him, my feelings for him, what I thought of him, my dreams about him.

Oh Primus, I feel as though I'm going to purge my tanks. My spark has practically stopped beating and my processor has gone completely blank. The embarrassment, the uncertainty, the overwhelming choices of what I should do now was taking over my mind and body entirely. I am not prepared to deal with this, not in the slightest.

He still had his helm turned to the side slightly, but he wasn't looking at me. I wasn't sure if he actually wanted a reply to what he had said to me, was it even a question? It didn't really matter whether it was or not, I had to say something! But what? He then slowly brought his helm to face the computers again, and I began to tremble immensely, still unsure of what was happening right now. I was praying to Primus that this wasn't happening.

I watched him, desperately trying to figure out what he was doing, what he was thinking. Oddly enough, I could just about tell that he was very unsure of what to think or do as well now, a very rare occurrence for a logical mech such as Commander Shockwave, the most logical of them all. His antennae were drooped low, as were his fins on his back. I really hope that I didn't make him uncomfortable as I was now, he really didn't deserve that.

He really doesn't understand emotions very well, I could have truly messed up his processor by simply allowing him to know of my massive attraction towards him. I could never live with myself if I lived knowing that I scarred him mentally or something, but in the end I am really uncertain of what he was thinking right now, I just hope that he's okay, then I couldn't care what happens to me.

I then bring my thoughts to matters that require urgent dealing with. Yeah, like; What should I do?! Should I leave? Hide myself within the massive groups of vehicons and never allow him to find me again? That would work actually, I highly doubt he would go looking for me, especially now when he knew all of this.

I was no longer a worthy assistant. To be honest, I never was. This is Commander Shockwave I'm speaking of, no one, especially me; is worthy of his presence. So I think leaving right now would be the most efficient course of action.

But, I didn't want to leave. I wanted to stay, I wanted to stay so badly, whatever consequences there are for having feelings for an officer, I would now gladly face them if it meant remaining with him. As I believe; he is truly worth it.

He is worth absolutely everything I could give and more. I need to stop running, I need to face this, no matter how petrified I am. If I die, then so be it, I'd rather be dead than not be with Commander Shockwave.

I allowed a long and fairly loud heave escape my vocalizer as I clenched both of my servos tightly, my thin red visor brightening as I steadily brought my terrified gaze to look at the metal floor of the lab. "S-Sir, I... Uhm." My voice was shaky and nervous, I was still trying to figure out what I should to say to him, but there was nothing. There was nothing in my processor that I could say. Nothing, except for;

'I love you.'

But, I couldn't say that, obviously. If I said that, well, goodbye life as I know it. I truly was wishing my life away by saying that, as much as I wanted to say it. I then noticed that he had turned around, and my face plates began to warm up dramatically and my spark sounded like it was banging off of its chamber, as though it was trying to desperately escape. I could tell he was staring at me now but I kept my gaze fixed on the floor, I simply could not bring myself to look at him when he was looking at me in return.

"Would you mind repeating that?.." He asked me, causing me to swiftly drift my gaze back over to him. My optics were trembling as were my lip plates. Would I mind repeating what? I began to think for a moment by what he meant, and once I realized what he meant I nearly fell off of the berth.

'I love you'...

I said it out loud! Frag! I gritted my denta together and began slowly moving backwards on the berth, pulling out the cortical psychic patch's wire from my helm, not caring for the consequences of that as I eventually climbed off of the berth. I stumbled backwards a little, still continuing to back away as though Commander Shockwave would shoot me within the klik.

"I-I... Believe I uhm, sir I think my shift is over." His optic dimmed as I said this, his antennae raising upward as he took a firm step forward, causing me to feel greatly intimidated. "You will remain here until I dismiss you."

I began to tremble even further, stopping in my tracks as I stared at him. I'm dead. That's it, his knowledge of this was enough for him to no longer tolerate me, I had pulled the last wire. I cannot believe I said that out loud! I nearly refuse to. I knew this happiness wouldn't last, I knew it would be torn away from me and I would suffer in the end. I just knew it.

I refrained from moving, my frame still trembling as he watched me, I could tell he was really confused. Maybe angry?.. Irritated perhaps? I wasn't certain, my mind was too focused on making me fall to my knees onto the cold floor and grasping my helm with both of my servos. I ignored the pain of the scrapes that were inflicted on my helm due to my sharp digits. Once I did that, I did the only thing that a mech such as I could, and would, do.

I began to cry.

"Oh sir! I cannot begin to emphasize my apology!" Coolant began to seep from my optics at a rapid pace, my optics dimmed as did my visor, my frame gone completely limp as I buried myself in my shame. "I do not deserve to be in your presence, I never deserved to work alongside a mech as amazing as you! I'm such a fool, I've done nothing but hinder you from your work! I'm not certain what you saw in my mind when you were using the cortical psychic patch, but I am sorry for it nonetheless, you can kill me now, I deserve to die!.." I trailed off, my voice hitching as tried to continue to speak. "...I-I'm worthless..."

I soon found that I couldn't speak any longer for my crying had overridden every single one of my thought processes, I simply left my mask on, ignoring the fact that my visor had gone offline due to my tears seeping into its workings. I was very well prepared for Commander Shockwave to kill me now, I could nearly hear the sound of his cannon charging up. I kept my gaze locked on the lab's floor, I could care less what happens now, no matter what he decides to do; I would always love him.

I flinched as I was suddenly dragged up off of the floor by a firm servo pulling me up by my shoulder, it was firm alright, but gentle as well. I looked up, my spark fluttering when I saw Commander Shockwave standing right in front of me, slowly letting go of my shoulder as his antennae twitched slightly. I didn't even hear him approach me, I was too busy bathing in my self-loathing.

"Please stop the nonsense, I am not going to kill you." He said with an unreadable tone, and I simply blinked multiple times, trying to comprehend what he has just told me. "...R-Really Commander Shockwave?.." I stupidly questioned, receiving a nod in return from him.

"Indeed, I do not understand why you would think that. I was simply surprised by the fact that...You would be attracted to me." He said slowly, turning around again and making his way over to the computers he had been working on beforehand.

I was still staring at him with shaking optics, completely dumbfounded. I shook my helm and continued to blink as I looked downward. Not only was I not going to die, but he seemed to be taking this very well. "Do excuse me for confusing you." He started yet again, causing me to look back up at him quickly. "I am not used to holding such knowledge, generally; most fear me."

My spark sank in saddened awe, he was just surprised?.. That was it? He was so used to such fearful and somewhat hateful behaviour towards himself that he never expected anyone to even love him? Like him? It broke my spark.

I knew he probably didn't care, but I damn well did. I didn't want him to think that way, why, I wanted to be the one that could love him day in and day out. To show him that someone did care, that someone loved him beyond compare, and that this love would never go away. My love would be his forever, and all I wanted was to have his love in return.

I began to gently rub at my neck cables, I needed to stop being such a fool and speak. I needed to say what was needed to be said. I hated living in silence, I was nervous but now, now it was my time to show Commander Shockwave how I truly felt.

"Well, y-you should be used to it sir. I still don't understand why people would dislike you, but I'm beginning to think that you're simply fooling yourself." His antennae perked up in surprise and he turned around to look at me. I stared at him right in his optic, slowly removing my mask because my visor had caused my sight to go blurry due to my tears. I unlatched my mask with one servo held as I dropped my arm to my side again, my face plate stained with coolant as I vented shakily.

"Why, I had gave off the impression that I feared you, w-when really, it was total opposite. I know what you're capable of sir, but I still don't fear you. I-I would do anything for you Commander Shockwave, my loyalty isn't with the Decepticons. I'm not a Decepticon. But by Primus I..." I heaved a little as I closed my optics for a moment. My spark was pounding hard behind my chest plating as I brought myself to trying to speak again, opening my now dimmed optics.

"I press on because of you, the moment I saw you I wanted you...I wanted you t-to be mine. I know that will never happen sir, but I'm telling you this because I want you to know of my loyalty." I quickly walked over to him, kneeling before him, still trembling. I was shocked by what I was saying and doing, but if he accepted my loyalty, then I would remain happy. My courage had just shot through the roof, he knew everything now so I might as well say everything on my processor. There was no point in holding back now.

"I want to remain with you, for as long as you wish. To serve you in any way I can, be it in this laboratory or on the battlefield. I will never betray you sir, I live for you." My face plates were practically roasting as I clasped my optics shut, awaiting his reply.

He had remained quiet the whole time, and his silence continued so I brought myself to bring my gaze up to him, a pleading expression on my face plates. I wasn't sure how he would react to this, but if I could take it this one step further with him, then I would be beyond joyous.

His red optic was locked on my own two optics, he was standing completely still. I soon learned that he remained still when he was thinking, contemplating in this case. I had to try hold back the stupid smile I tended to make when he suddenly nodded, causing me to virtually scream with joy. I stood up and vented as I stared at him, waiting for him to speak.

"So be it, you may remain with me, whether I need you as an assistant or not. I'm not sure why, but your words are quite baffling..." He looked to the side, his helm moving downward to lock his optic with the floor. I clearly shocked him by all of this, I must have confused him by my overwhelming feelings for him. Feelings that he could never habour. But I will always continue to dream that he someday will, and that he and I will be able to express them to each other.

I smiled softly and clasped my servos behind my back with my mask still in one of them, this was all working out a lot better than I thought it would. My weak expression was hiding what I was truly feeling inside, I was actually bursting with excitement and delight, I was very close to hugging him. I was actually able to remain as his assistant, and not just in the lab but with everything he does. And I wasn't sure why, but I was so relieved that he knew how I felt about him.

Being rejected by Commander Shockwave was something that no one should be insulted by, he lacked emotions so it was the expected outcome. It still pained me that I couldn't have him for myself, but he was willing to keep me around as his assistant, and if I spent my life asking for more than that then it might as well be ripped away from me. I would continue to dream of Commander Shockwave and I being together, for that was expected, but I would gladly continue with our current professional relationship with a smile on my face.

Heh, wait until Knockout hears about this...

He turned to look at me again and tilted his helm to side slightly. "Judging by the results of the cortical psychic patch, your developed attraction has lasted a very long time." He said curiously, it would seem that he was treating this like some sort of experiment. I actually think he wants to understand why I love him so much, more so because I'm a defected vehicon that he created, he wants to see how this all happened. As do I, but it doesn't matter in the end, I just loved him and that was it. I didn't want that to change.

"I cannot comprehend emotions, nor detect them. But this peculiar occurrence has me very curious..." He turned around and looked a the computer, placing a sharp digit under his optic in thought. "I want to know, I want to understand." Him saying this immediately made my optics widen, I stared at him from behind and approached him further, standing beside him and leaning forward onto the computer's desk to look at him. "...Sir?.." I questioned, unsure of what he meant by what he has just said.

He simply turned his helm to the side to look at me, his optic blazing a bright red. "I want to know why you are like this. I wish to dwell on the matter and find the logic behind your illogical reasoning and programming. But strangely I... I am beyond baffled by these emotions you hold. To the point that I wish to understand these emotions you feel, to understand them as well. And possibly..." He trailed off slightly, I leaned forward even further, my spark ringing loudly as my optics widened even further.

"...Share them with you too."

My spark practically shot into my throat and I began suddenly falling sideways in the opposite direction of him, my servo sliding off of the computer's desk, causing me to hit the floor hard. I'm hallucinating. He did not just say that to me. I vented and scrambled to my pedes, staring at Commander Shockwave in complete shock. "Sir... What... W-What are you suggesting?" I quickly asked unconsciously, my mind growing dizzy; causing me to see bright white stars in my already blurred vision.

He had been watching me in complete confusion and uncertainty as I had fallen about the place like a fool, but I didn't care about that now. Commander Shockwave just told me that he wanted to share emotions with me, synchronized emotions.

His antennae flicked subtly as he looked away for a moment, causing me to tilt my helm to the side as I stared at him. I loved him and respected him so much but by Primus I needed an answer to this now , I couldn't wait. "Sir..?"

My voice caused him to turn and stare at me again, I don't know how I knew, but he seemed nervous. "As you know, I do not function on emotions. I've never understood them, but I'm not what people think I am, per say." He began with a thoughtful tone, and my curiosity simply built up further.

"Yes, I will forever hold an interest in science but I have always been extremely curious about emotions. I've wanted to understand what their purpose was, because they always seemed illogical to me. I always considered them a weakness, but when I met you, your emotions dictated to be the total opposite. They were your strength, and now I understand why you were so dedicated to my scientific endeavors. Not for science, but for your attraction towards me."

My face plate suddenly formed a shy expression as they heated up more, he merely watched me further, everything I did was simply making him more curious. "I am tired of this consistent questioning, the only way I can learn about emotions and their strengths is if I understand them, if I comprehend them. I need you to assist me, you are the perfect teacher for this." He finally concluded, and I didn't show much of a surprised expression, I could already tell where his explanation was leading to. But that didn't prevent that goofy grin from appearing on my face plate, my optics brightened and I chuckled softly.

"O-Of course...Sir, I will gladly teach you about emotions." I felt a wave of happiness wash over me, determination filled my mind as I began contemplating of where I was going to start with this, what and how I was going to teach him, so I started off immediately with basic rules. I wasn't going to waste anytime.

"If you must know sir, it would be best if you didn't treat this as a science experiment, but more so a basic experiment. Emotions aren't based completely off of knowledge and information, but understanding and the ability to express them. You clearly have the knowledgeable part ticked off of the list, but understanding them is going to be much harder and it will take time. You are willing to try?" I asked, hoping that by all means he would be willing to try his best with learning with complete patience, cause if he did; then he was as good as mine.

He seemed somewhat surprised by the fact that I had already began with explaining what to do when trying to understand emotions, but he simply nodded in understanding, causing me to lower my shoulders in relief. "I understand, I will need to at least attempt that then, if I am to learn and understand emotions, then it is only logical." He turned off his computers and I felt a terrible urge reach out to me to add another little thing to our basic rules, it was killing me slowly, as though something was forcing me to say it. Ugh... I just had to say it.

"Another thing sir, uhm, as you know; in scientific terms, the best way to prove a theory as true is to show evidence and proof for it." I started with an awkward voice, my mentioning of science caught his attention, so I knew that trying to relate everything to science was a good way of starting off with teaching him about emotions. A good start indeed, I just hope we'll be able to walk off of the trail of science soon and maybe he'll learn on his own.

"And well, the best way to get this evidence and proof is to do experiments, to demonstrate with a-actions." I was really nervous about trying to reach the point of what I was trying to tell him, I don't know whether he'll allow me to do what I want to. "Well, emotions are the same, a way of proving that you have them is e-expressing them through... Actions."

I stopped at that, hoping he understood what I meant. My helm was sunk low into my shoulders as I looked at him shyly, if he was willing to allow me to express my emotions to him through actions, it would help any emotions that come to him to become more coherent. Pfft, it wasn't as if I was taking advantage of his desire to learn or anything.

Sweet Primus I was totally taking advantage of his desire to learn.

He looked at me in thought, venting quietly as he tried to think. He raised a pointed index digit in the air as he was about to speak, but then he huffed and slowly allowed it to drop. "...I am somewhat following what you are saying, but not entirely." He said quietly, he actually seemed a bit irked by the fact that he wasn't understanding everything I told him, he really did have a lot to learn. I simply smiled nervously, he was so cute.

"It's fine Commander Shockwave, you're very intelligent, you'll understand soon." I gazed at him with loving optics, he wasn't ashamed to admit when he didn't understand something. People consider him to be someone that always thinks their right, when he clearly wasn't like that.

"Eh...What I mean by expressing emotions through actions is, well, as you know; if someone hates another person, it's most likely that the person harbouring that hate will direct hateful behaviour towards the person they hate. Hate is a strong word I believe but it's a good example. Commander Starscream, as I am certain you know, is not fond of Lord Megatron. He has attempted to kill him many times, he hates him because he is the leader of the Decepticons; a role that Commander Starscream wants."

Commander Shockwave nodded quickly once I said this, he seemed to be grasping the idea of it more. I smiled more and continued my explanation. "Well, when you love someone, it's the very same idea. Except you direct loving behaviour towards the person you love, not hateful." I bit my lip plates a little, his antennae twitched as he looked downward a little.

"I see, but I have never seen an example of any loving behaviour before. How could you possibly demonstrate it?" Oh frag, he was really leading me to measures that I really wanted to do, but it may just mess all of this up. I didn't want to throw away this golden opportunity, but it was so risky. Oh, what to do?

"Uhm... I-I..." I stuttered bashfully, looking up at him as he averted his gaze back to me once again. "I could...Show you an... ex-example, perhaps?.." My spark was already a ball of bouncing fury, ignoring it was beyond being an easy task. He didn't seem in any way turned off by the idea of it, hence the reason he nodded without hesitation. I waited a moment, looking at his helm in thought.

"C-Could you bend down a little?.. I'm a bit small compared to uhm..." I trailed off, he continued to stare at me before he bent down to my height, he truly was more than willing to try learn what I meant by physical affection. I really couldn't believe that I was about to touch him. Actually touch him. And in an affectionate sense too, not just a brush of a shoulder or a bump of an arm. This was physical affection at its best.

"You seem particularly nervous, is there something wrong?"

It was blatantly obvious that my very nervous and awkward demeanor was confusing him, but once he came at my height, my common sense just flew out of my processor. I was right in front of his optic, surely he could now feel the heat radiating off of my face plate? I was certain he could, he simply didn't want to say it. He was acting so straight forward about this, he obviously had no clue of the intensity of emotions, of how overwhelming they were. If he did, then he wouldn't be so quick with wanting to know, but that's right where my advantage lay.

I stared at him as I slowly lifted my servo up to rest on the side of his helm, I shuddered once I did so, my frame beginning to heat up immensely. "No... No, there's nothing wrong. I just never imagined that I would get the chance... To..." I vented heavily, my optics half-closed as I leaned forward. My mind drifted away from all rational thoughts, I was too enveloped in this moment. This remarkable moment that I've dreamed of for so long.

He stared at me with a glowing crimson optic, but he didn't move away from me when I steadily rested my helm against his, even though he jumped a little as his antennae rose high in surprise. He certainly wasn't used to this kind of attention, but nor was I.

But of course, I had a much better understanding of it, along with the large desire I held for him. We were both on completely different levels here, even though we both never experienced physical affection with another. I simply couldn't believe that it was Commander Shockwave I was experiencing my first physical affections with, the mech I wanted to share them with more than anyone was my first, this was simply spark-stopping.

I had already dropped my mask onto the floor, not caring for it as I began to nuzzle Commander Shockwave lovingly. He remained still the entire time, not returning any gestures as he watched me, observing, analysing. I could tell that he was focusing on this moment, but I wasn't sure if he was feeling anything, let alone feeling anything compared to what I was feeling.

This. This felt so real. It was so much more subtle and smaller compared to my dreams, where we would be interacting physically in a much more intensifying way. But this moment was a thousand times more amazing. And by Primus, my dreams were amazing, so that was saying a lot. I lightly brushed the sides of his helm with my servos, purring in content as I cherished this moment. It was by far the most astonishing moment of my life.

I then steadily pulled away, watching him as I moved my servos up to his antennae. He shifted slightly the moment I began to stroke one of them with the tips of my digits."Ah- W-Wait..." He spoke suddenly and moved away as his antennae dropped low, causing me to stand back quickly. "Oh s-sir did I hurt you?! I'm really sorry I didn't me-"

"It's quite alright." He swiftly interrupted me as he lightly touched his antennae, he looked as though he was perplexed by their reaction to my touch. "They're very sensitive, I am not used to others touching me...Like that." He spoke with a soft tone, the way he said that and how low his antennae were made him look like a lost sparkling.

I felt an arousing sensation run through my abdomen, I wasn't certain why, but his innocence only turned me on more. But I knew involving myself with anything sexual with Commander Shockwave was out of the question at the moment, I would have to wait a good while and see if he was willing. The idea of interacting with him in such away got me so excited, it was definitely worth the wait.

I then realized how far I was taking this, to the point that I was actually considering interfacing with him. Sparkbonding with him. Never in my life would I have ever planned on that, I only would dream about it. But actually planning for it? By the Allspark, there's a possibility that this could happen!

A small smile plastered my face plates as I began to approach him again. His antennae shot upward as he watched me, he then randomly stood up, causing me to gaze at him in confusion, my derma parting slightly. He stood back a little as his optic darkened. "I believe that is enough for today... My processor is having a fairly hard time comprehending all of this, and I need to get back to work." He said whilst he began to rub his helm gently.

I was disappointed that I wasn't able to interact with him further, really disappointed. But considering he said that it was enough for today, gave me hope, making me believe that he wanted to experience things further, just not now.

I also knew that we needed to take this really slow, I couldn't override his processor and give him a helm ache after each session we shared of teaching, he would prefer to not participate in this experiment any longer then. Being the fool I am, I already felt as though we were in some form of a relationship, but I knew he just wanted learn of emotions for now. I simply cannot lie to myself, I would break my spark if I got my hopes up.

Oh, who am I kidding? My spark is already a broken and battered piece of scrap, I don't understand what difference this would make. Well, considering the difference that could be made if I am to be successful, then yes, the difference is massive.

The scary part was that all of my teachings may fail, so I had to do my absolute best, for my love may be in a peril. If I succeed in teaching him of emotions, then this could make my life a dream come true, but if otherwise, and he finds it too difficult, then things are going to be very awkward for us both. Heh, as though it already wasn't. He's already becoming awkward. Yeah, Commander Shockwave. Awkward.

Commander Shockwave looked to his computers, thinking for a moment before looking back to me. "You are dismissed, there isn't much work that needed to be done today, hence the reason I wished to study this during your shift. Well, I did not plan on studying this, but it lead up to it nonetheless." He walked backwards slightly before turning around fully and approaching his computers, beginning whatever work it was he had been doing.

I nodded before he walked away, saluting him in respect. "Yes, of course Commander Shockwave. You will require me for tomorrow, yes?.." I asked, feeling unsure. After today, well, nothing was going to be the same between him and I, I just hope that it's for the better rather than the worse. "Yes, I will need you." He answered, causing me to smile as I bent down and picked up my mask.

"And perhaps, we can undergo another teaching session." My spark skipped a beat at what he said, causing me to slowly stand up properly and gaze at him. After a moment I grinned sheepishly, my optics glowing bright. "Yes sir, of course. I would gladly partake in that, if it would please you." It would certainly please me, no doubt.

I stared at my visor, seeing that it needed repairs. I cried a lot so I was used to it, it wouldn't take too long to fix. I then looked to him one more time before making my way to the lab door, but hearing Commander Shockwave's voice caused me to stop, and what he said in particular caused my optics to widen.

"David, is it?.." He questioned, making me turn around in surprise. He called me David. How did he?.. Oh.

"Cortical psychic patch, sir?.." I said with a small smile as I turned to look at him again, receiving a nod from the scientist. "Indeed, I believe you prefer that designation? I do not mind referring to you as that if you find it preferable." He stated, what he just said making me melt into a puddle of love-struck goo, simple things such as this simply made me love the mech more and more. Such extents I didn't even believe were possible.

"Yes, it is preferable sir." I replied with a bigger smile, his optic brightening a little before he looked to his computers yet again. And that was it, I left the lab, the door closing behind me.

I stood there. Frozen. Unable to move, unable to think as I tried to comprehend what had just happened. With a fumbling servo, I pressed a digit against my auido receptor, opening my comlink.

[Knockout, you are not going to believe what just happened.]

Woah, what just happened? I know what: David's dream has come true! Well, more of it, haha. Let's just hope Shockwave takes this well.

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