-Author's Notes-
Hey guys! Chapter eleven is now here!~ And it is now the longest chapter! This really killed me to right because it is twice as long as a general chapter, but I enjoyed writing it so much nonetheless, so I really hope you all like it!
Also, something I wish to share; one of my most favourite songs ever is 'Comatose' by Skillet. And wow, now that I listen to it all I can ever think of is David and his love for Shockwave. If this fanfic has a theme song, it's that song.
I also called this chapter Comatose cause well, I like it.~ I recommend you listen to the song for two reasons: So you can understand what the flip I'm talking about, and two: it's an amazing song! So yeah, check it out.~ And read on, my brethren!
Warning: Rating may change due to progress of this story but this chapter is currently rated T. Warnings will be placed at the start of each chapter, this chapter implies slash but nothing explicit. Dark themes are also mentioned in this chapter.
Pairing - David x Shockwave
Implied - Soundwave x Shockwave
Disclaimer: This story is fan made. I do not own 'Transformers' or any of its characters. Transformers belong to Hasbro. (I could say that David is my OC vehicon, but the vehicons belong to Hasbro so I find it best not to.)
-The time of this story is set in the middle of Transformers Prime: Beast Hunters, season three of Transformers Prime.-
Please do read, enjoy and leave a review!~
The anger. The fury. The ire. The unmerciful outrage I am feeling right now is just indescribable. Having to simply stand here, watch, and remain silent is simply beyond the limits of my sanity. I'm one hundred percent certain that my mask is on the very verge of melting off of my face plate right now due to my rage.
I'm currently hiding in the dark shadows of the main control room, secretly hiding behind a few large computer consoles that are fairly distanced away from the large platform of the room. I've been here for quite some time; simply standing in quietness with a peeping dimmed visor around the edge of the computer's frame. Watching, observing.
Oh yes, why am I so angry? Well, it isn't exactly a pleasant sight to see that mech you now hate, despise and just downright resent standing directly beside the love of your life. No, it's not pleasant at all.
I'm not a particularly violent mech; truly, I'm very passive if anything. But this. This sight literally 'grabs' that passiveness within me and throws it a million turbo drives away! Passive or not, I become something frightening that you do not want to see when you toy with what I love. In this case; who I love.
The busy vehicons around me honestly don't care about what I'm doing; they have a job, work to do. The last thing that they care about is another vehicon's well-being, their own comes first. Besides, most of them have hardly noticed me.
My optics narrow slightly as I analyse Megatron, he's standing on the platform while speaking to his four officers; Commander Shockwave, Soundwave, Starscream and... Knockout.
A small frown forms on my face as I stare at Knockout, I was still angry at the fact that he wasn't willing to help me resolve my issue with Soundwave but, I still considered him my friend. I was simply so furious that night and so lost in my problems that I had forgotten that. Besides, I highly doubt he still considers me a friend now...
With an even more saddened expression I slowly avert my gaze downward. By Primus, I hope he still considers me a friend. It's just, I need help. And he suggests with easiness that I just, you know, forget about Commander Shockwave? As though he can go from being my everything to that nothing? No, no matter how much I care for Knockout; that will never happen.
I drift my gaze back up to the group of five mechs, now only noticing how uneasy Knockout looked. He had his arms firmly crossed and was shifting occasionally, that careless cocky attitude was now a caring paranoid one. It was in an instant that I realized it was because of Soundwave, after what I had told Knockout, I really wouldn't blame him for acting like that.
Since that horrifying incident with Soundwave, I sadly haven't returned to my duties with Commander Shockwave. It is an unmerciful and death-dealing task, but I have to put forward my sheer willpower and just deal with it. For now.
Commander Shockwave has already tried to comlink me. Twice. I began crying slightly the second time he called me because I blatantly ignored him. As if I did it spitefully, no, not a hope! I did it to keep us both safe, but mainly to keep him safe. I remember how tightly I gripped my helm as he comlinked me, that distressing urge to answer him has already caused a few screws in my helm to become loose. Very loose.
I just could not answer though. It was way out of the question. If Commander Shockwave got an insight on Soundwave's desires, and possible intentions; then the Decepticon high command was going to be one jumbled mess.
I cannot even begin to imagine how torn and angry Megatron would be if his two most favoured soldiers held resentment for each other, and for a reason I know that would bother the warlord even more. Soundwave would simply be enraged by the fact that Commander Shockwave wasn't willing to allow him to frag him.
Commander Shockwave would most likely be repulsed by it and deem it 'illogical', and if Soundwave was persistent then Commander Shocwave will eventually get angry. Commander Shockwave would never ever succumb to Soundwave.
Right?..
My expression suddenly becomes thoughtful as I place a sharp digit on my chin. Now that I think about it; at this moment, Commander Shockwave is most likely unaware of Soundwave's twisted lust for him. If Soundwave's intelligent enough, and we all know the answer to that, then he will approach Commander Shockwave 'innocently' about the matter.
'Hey. You and me; frag every shift? No stress, no emotions, just relief. It's logical.'
A look of horror soon replaces my previous expression as I press my back against the computer from behind, sliding down it slowly and sitting down.
It really and truly is that easy. Once it makes sense to Commander Shockwave, once it is logical or deems beneficial to him; then he will most likely partake in it. No restrictions there.
My servo suddenly covers the area of where my derma would be on my mask, my derma agape and my optics wide. What if Soundwave has already asked Commander Shockwave? No, what if they've been interfacing between shifts and I hardly knew about it this entire time? No, I didn't know about it at all. I never knew or expected it!
Commander Shockwave is probably perfectly happy with relieving his stress with Soundwave, a supposedly respectful mech of the Decepticon ranks and a supposedly good acquaintance of his. He would be completely unaware of Soundwave's obsession, Soundwave would just be taking advantage of that.
What if Soundwave tries take it a step further, maybe? The fact that Soundwave now knows of Commander Shockwave's desire to learn of and understand emotions is a major piece of knowledge I provided him with, he could act on that accordingly.
What if Commander Shockwave is willing? I know he considers emotional traits illogical, well, that is until recently; because now I know he wants to learn of emotions, and Soundwave could act so cute about it. He would have Commander Shockwave wrapped around his digit!
Besides... Soundwave compared to me: I am practically nothing. He's a strong, intelligent and high-ranking Decepticon that is much more worthy of Commander Shockwave's love than I would be. If the choice was given, and Commander Shockwave had to choose between Soundwave and I; well, who would be the most logical choice,and the answer to that is obvious.
I sigh quietly at the thought. Oh, what hope do I have? No matter what I do, I am still caught in a trap of wavering thoughts. If I do something too drastic then Soundwave could kill me, and even if I succeed with escaping that faith then Commander Shockwave will soon find out about Soundwave and his lust; and as expected his innocence would come into play and he would choose the more worthy mate.
"...Share them with you also."
My upset and sparkbroken expression is slowly wiped away as I recall Commander Shockwave's remarkable words. He told me that he had wanted to understand, to learn of emotions. He asked me to teach him; no one else. I was the most logical, the most worthy choice for him.
I have a chance.
He also seemed very desperate to know. Soundwave isn't teaching him any kind of emotion if it's out of sick lust. But the problem is; Commander Shockwave is too fragging oblivious to distinguish whether a hug is a form of love or hatred. He can be told that an energon cube was some form of an emotion and he'd probably still believe it.
A quiet chuckle suddenly escapes my vocalizer at the thought of that; I knew that maybe him being that innocent was a tad bit exaggerated, but it was still an unbearably adorable thought. I can just see him bending down and observing the energon cube, trying to dictate where its emotional traits are.
My face plates suddenly heat up as my mind begins to wander to my most desired thoughts, but I soon shake them away as I return to the matter at hand. I just cannot be distracted, not in the slightest. If I focus my time and energy on this major problem then my most wildest dreams may just become a reality. So the patience is definitely worth it.
I quietly stand up again and look back at the five mechs, noting that none of them had moved from their spots since I turned my gaze away. Megatron was still speaking with his servos clasped behind his back, a proud posture clearly being displayed; only that of an evilly corrupted tyrant.
My gaze is then drawn to Soundwave. He is standing completely still, he looks like a literal statue, but to be honest, statues probably do not compare to how unnaturally still he is. A petrified shiver runs up my frame as I watch him, his arms are hung low at his sides, his screen blank as he is somewhat hunched. He truly has a posture that intimidates me greatly, even if his frame isn't so bulky or big.
I decide that I shouldn't jump to conclusions of what is happening between Soundwave and Commander Shockwave just yet, I need to make multiple theories of which are logical and seem fitting, and act on all of them accordingly. Oh! Commander Shockwave would be so proud of me!
I smile slightly, there is always hope of winning Soundwave to this. The best part is; Soundwave probably would never expect a lowly vehicon soldier to face up to him. We're either too frightened or smart to do so. I'm frightened alright, but my love is much greater. I'm not necessarily smart, but it takes a genius to be stupid.
Soundwave is too careful to make a move on Commander Shockwave so suddenly, Soundwave thinks very like Commander Shockwave in many senses. They both believe that 'knowledge is power', and it certainly is, so Soundwave wouldn't just pounce on Commander Shockwave like a slab of metal, he knows Commander Shockwave is just as shadowy a mech as he is.
Soundwave would have to be absolutely certain that Commander Shockwave is a locked-on target. That his actions will lead to what he wants precisely. Commander Shockwave, though he is somewhat predictable if you were a logically calculative mech; which Soundwave is, just not to the extent of Commander Shockwave, he is still a very powerful Decepticon that you should not mess with.
He has been considered more powerful than Megatron, so Soundwave isn't going to treat Commander Shockwave like a femme across the bar if he was in anyway intelligent. He has to base his conclusions on facts, not assumptions. Kind of like a science project. Except, he has only one chance to do the experiment correctly. If he fails the first time then Commander Shockwave will know of his 'project' and he will not be pleased if his actions are hindering to him.
I close my optics steadily as I gently rub the side of my helm, trying to ease my mind a little. All of these assumptions. They all make so much sense but obviously most of them are wrong, if anything, they're probably all wrong. And there are so many more to make. I could be way off track with my thoughts about what is now happening between Commander Shockwave and Soundwave. How could I possibly know what their intentions are?
What if Soundwave loves Commander Shockwave? What if he simply attacked me just to keep Commander Shockwave from being hurt or taken by someone else? What if I am wrong about Soundwave?
I vigorously shake my helm at the thought. Of course Soundwave doesn't love Commander Shockwave. Firstly, he's a Decepticon. A high-ranking and stoic mech that was one of Megatron's first followers. He is also Megatron's most loyal, he is following Megatron to the end; he believes in everything Megatron is doing. Tyranny, corruption, domination. How could someone loving follow a mech, a belief, like that?
Commander Shockwave is different. He's emotionless; he doesn't understand. If he did, then the difference would soon be exposed. Even as an emotionless mech I can see the compassion and desire for a better age for Cybetron, he doesn't want destruction. He wants what is logical, and unfortunately, if destruction is considered logical, then he shall participate in its transpiration. If only for the benefit of all.
Secondly; Soundwave attacked me. Even though I am desperately in love with Commander Shockwave, I would never bring myself to attacking a person that loved him too. If anything, I would respect them more than anyone else I've come to know. Their optics are open and they realize how amazing he truly is. If that's the case, and Commander Shockwave is happy with mating with that bot, then so be it. Even if my spark is torn out and I die of sparkbreak, I will be happy knowing he is happy.
That's love.
Not forcefully tearing someone away from a person they love just because you want that person. That's being consumed by your own desires to not consider other's, it's twisted and lustful. Careless and selfish.
Not love.
The distinction is easy and obvious, any person with an understanding of love or emotions would know. Soundwave knows, and he clearly chooses against love. I just cannot bear that fact and I hate him for it, particularly because it's being directed towards the mech I love.
I will not allow his corrupted mind dissect into one so innocent, with so much intelligence and desire to learn of something so pure. If Soundwave hacks his way into Commander Shockwave's processor and fills it with folly thoughts, then, that's end. So I must be quick with my plans and prevent that from happening by all means. That is, if it already hasn't.
Convincing Commander Shockwave of what love is after that will only confuse him and he may end up disliking me for trying to prove that what Soundwave had told him was untrue, because once again; Soundwave is a respectful and high-ranking Decepticon that would not dare lie to him and blah, blah, blah.
I soon become dragged out of my deep thoughts at the rummaging of pedes, Megatron had finished speaking with his officers. I watched in grave annoyance as Megatron and Soundwave approached the main navigation panel for the ship, I really couldn't stand looking at Soundwave anymore, it made my tanks churn in sickened disgust of his actions that he had done to me. He may have had an officer's right to do what he did, but he certainly didn't have a moral right to do so.
I shook my helm and looked away from the two mechs to Starscream, smiling slightly due to him having his usual look of irritation on his face plate. He was simply ordering around random vehicons to work faster or be quiet, he wasn't a very pleasant seeker. Knockout was right about what he had told me about him, but oddly, I could tolerate Starscream.
Even if he tried to kill Commander Shockwave?
I suddenly grit my denta together as I recalled that. Yeah, on second thought, no, I do not like Starscream. His lack of fondness for Commander Shockwave is definitely something I give him no credit for. It just pleases me because it's out of jealousy.
He despises Commander Shockwave and what he can do, of which he can't do. A person who hates you is a sign of success, so, I personally do not care of that seeker; so long as he does not attempt to kill or hurt Commander Shockwave ever again.
With a roll of my optics I finally turn my gaze from Starscream to Commander Shockwave, who is already making a steady depart out of the main control room. I frown sadly, I would truly give anything to go with him right now.
To join him happily in his work like I had been a few days ago, I just missed him so much. My spark was beyond aching painfully, crying out for his presence, for him to be beside me, for our armour to brush every so often. He'd hardly notice it happen but I'd be left in a spin. Though I cherished those moments at the time, I now wish I cherished them even more.
My optics dim dejectedly as Commander Shockwave calmly approached the door of the room to leave, but was soon stopped when...
Knockout?!
My optics widen as I watch Knockout grab Commander Shockwave's arm, causing Commander Shockwave to turn around and look at the medic in question. I lean forward, desperately trying to listen to what they're saying but fail miserably. They're much too far away for me to hear them.
Why would Knockout get his attention like that? Commander Shockwave is a superior commanding officer to him! He grabbed his arm as though he was... desperate? Well, he better have a logical reason for doing so or a certain scientist is going to be angry.
I stared at the two mech's in urgency, trying to understand or hear what they were talking about, to at least make out what their conversation is even about! Knockout's expression is full of uncertainty and awkwardness, Commander Shockwave's antennae are raised much higher than usual. Something tells me they're not discussing science...
Knockout suddenly begins walking and directs his servo to the door, clearly indicating that they should both converse somewhere else rather than there. He soon receives a nod from the scientist who then follows him, and then they both leave, the metal door slamming shut behind them.
I have to know what they're doing!
I shift my gaze very quickly to Starscream, he's merely staring at a few monitors, discussing something to some random vehicon. My stare is soon brought to Megatron and Soundwave, they're both facing the opposite direction, both seem to be discussing something in terms of where they were going bring the warship next. A new mine, a pit stop, the fragging clouds! I don't care! None of them can see me so I am out of here!
With swift pedes I abandon the computer I was standing at and dart across the room, rushing to the main control room's door quicker than I could have imagined, and as usual; I ignore the few confused glances I'd receive from the generally not-so-caring vehicons. And as expected, they soon return their attention to their work.
The door opens and closes as I quickly rush out. The moment I exit the room, feeling relieved that no officers noticed me, I slow my movements, looking down the hall to see Commander Shockwave and Knockout discussing something with each other, I could hardly hear their voices. They were walking in the opposite direction of me with ease as they conversed, I simply assume they're going to the lab.
I scurried to the side and sheathed myself to the walls, hiding behind the large metal plating that lined and supported the hallways. I waited for a short moment before Commander Shockwave and Knockout turned the corner, it was then I ran with fast but light pedes to the end of the hall. I could hear their once faint voices become louder and louder.
As I arrived at the corner I brought myself to the backing myself up against walls yet again, the two were not too far way from me but I was still in the other hallway so they could not see me. I vented quietly as I listened to them speak to each other, they had both stopped walking in the hallway they were in to talk.
"Do you know of his location?" I heard Commander Shockwave speak first, my optics began glinting in immense curiosity as I listened further. I watched as Knockout shook his helm and rested both of his servos on his hips. "No, sadly, I don't. Due to the fact that vehicons have only basic energy signatures and not specific ones, I can't tell which one is David."
My optics suddenly widened as my derma dropped low. They were talking about me? I felt my spark begin to race, why was Knockout talking to Commander Shockwave about me? Did he really care that much?..
I frowned sadly, feeling guilty of what I had said to Knockout. I had told him that I would sort out my problem with or without him, that it wouldn't matter either way. That he didn't matter. When he did. I really needed to apologize to him, even if he isn't willing to help me even after he tried to help. I'm just not going to back down from this fight.
"I have been attempting to contact him but he did not respond to my comlinks, I simply assumed he was no longer interested in working with me." I watched in a wretched state as Commander Shockwave's antennae dropped low, the spark-breaking guilt was now beginning to slowly eat me alive.
I felt my frame flinch at is words, causing me to move forward slightly as I stared at Commander Shockwave, but I stopped myself immediately. 'I am interested sir!' Is what I wanted to shout out; I just wanted to run out and hug him and never let go, to tell him how much I loved him and that I would never do that ever again.
He actually seemed upset by all of this, though, maybe that was a ridiculous thought. I just can't help but wish he was and that he cared. But honestly, I truly couldn't tell. I then looked to Knockout as he nodded at the purple mech and crossed his arms. "Yeah, he hasn't been answering my comlinks either. We fought about something recently so..."
Knockout shifted his optics to the floor, his frown becoming larger than before. My shoulders dropped sadly, my optics full of sorrow as I watched him. I could already tell that he had informed Commander Shockwave about our friendship, and that I talked about him all of the time to Knockout. Non-stop. But, why?
Commander Shockwave tilted his helm to the side in question. "Do you have any idea why David is avoiding us?" He asked bluntly, he clearly wanted to know, needing to know the logic behind the situation. Knockout simply looked back up to him before nodding. "I do, and that reason is also why we fought. It's what I want to talk to you about, because I know he won't have the courage to tell you anytime soon. And really... I don't blame him."
Knockout's expression soon became full of disgust as he clasped his optics shut, he was gritting his denta together and uneasiness was enveloping him. It was easy to tell, even Commander Shockwave looked somewhat perplexed by his expression judging his optic's brightness and antennae's level of height.
Commander Shockwave then nodded, starting to walk once again to the lab. "Very well; I am now assuming that the lab would be a much more appropriate place to discuss this matter then?" He spoke as Knockout followed up beside him, nodding solemnly. "Yeah, it's more appropriate and safer. Please, just don't ask questions now Commander Shockwave, I'll tell you everything once we get there. You'll soon understand."
Commander Shockwave nodded immediately in understanding after Knockout spoke his words, this situation reminded me of when I tried to tell Knockout of the situation with Soundwave, though he held no understanding of how serious it was to me then. At least Commander Shockwave took situations much more seriously.
I watched nervously as they both walked down the somewhat dark hallway, I actually thought I would have stopped or tried to stop Knockout from telling Commander Shockwave by now but I soon realized how stupid that would be.
Firstly, Soundwave doesn't even know that Knockout knows about all of this, well, I think he doesn't know. I sure hope he doesn't know! But anyway, if Knockout told Commander Shockwave about this rather than me telling him then my aft could seriously be saved. He is actually helping me.
I knew one thing that could really assist me in this situation is if Commander Shockwave knew, but I would probably be attacked by Soundwave soon after if I told him, but not so much if it was someone else.
It was then I felt my spark flutter in delight. Knockout's helping me. Maybe... Maybe he understands now? Maybe he knows I just can't let Commander Shockwave go. That I need to fight for him. And with his help, I have such a bigger chance of winning. I just needed to say sorry to him once I get the chance. Then everything will slowly go back on track.
Besides, if I stopped Knockout from telling Commander Shockwave now, they will both see me. My whole 'avoiding them' situation would be abolished after that, not to mention Commander Shockwave would like some answers about why he was being left in the dark and about what was going on. So really, this was all just unavoidable now. He was soon going to know everything.
I patiently waited for Commander Shockwave and Knockout to turn the next corridor once again, before I swiftly began dashing down it and stopped at the next cornered wall, waiting once again. I couldn't hear their voices so I assumed they're going to talk once they get into the lab, so I knew that contemplating on how I was going to enter the lab without either of them noticing was a logical course of action right now.
It would also seem that Commander Shockwave has me thinking a lot more logically than I used to... Not that I mind, I love it actually! I look up to him with a lot of admiration so really, it's expected to happen.
After a while of waiting and dashing down hallways, the lab soon came into view. They both approached the door and Commander Shockwave entered the pin code to the large door, the door quickly opening to allow them to enter. I soon felt my adrenaline kick in as I prepared myself for my fastest run yet, the moment they started entering the door I sprinted down the hall, preparing to practically jump into the laboratory.
Once they entered the room fully and I had arrived at a reasonable distance, I literally dropped myself to the ground and slid into the side of the room, immediately crawling behind the smaller tables quietly. I felt my spark beat rapidly and my cooling fans turn on, but they weren't too loud, thank Primus. I vented heavily and smiled behind my mask.
I actually did that! My smile soon turned into a grin, I peeped behind the table to see Knockout and Commander Shockwave walk further into the room. They didn't even notice me! Clearly all of those times of sneaking on patrol or guard duty proved useful, I had learned how to keep my pedes very light and quiet even when running really fast. A mech such as I would just have to know how to do that. I'd probably be a dead mech now if I didn't know.
I began crawling further into the lab, remaining behind the line of small tables and computer consoles along the side of the laboratory. The two mechs soon stopped at Commander Shockwave's main lab table, causing me to stop where I was also. I simply peeked over the table, watching quietly as I waited for them to speak.
Knockout crossed his arms, his face plate showed that of awkwardness, an expected feeling. I was just curious to know how he was going to tell Commander Shockwave about all of this, I certainly would have had no clue of where to start, I just hope his lack of a traumatized processor helps him through it.
Commander Shockwave gazed at him for a moment before speaking. "What seems to be the problem then?" Ah yes, always straight to the point. That's one thing I find unbearably cute about Commander Shockwave, for a reason that is still unbeknownst to me. When in terms of wanting to know something, he never really considers how badly affected he could be once he knows about it. He just needs to know and that's it.
Knockout looked at him before nodding. "Before we get into any 'problems', what are your opinions on Soundwave? If there is anything you know about him that affects your opinions, then I'd like to know. Please... And yes, it is relevant." I could easily hear the anger in Knockout's voice, but it was directed at Soundwave, not Commander Shockwave.
I was still completely unaware of how furious Knockout must be at the slender mech for what he had done to me, I simply didn't expect him to be so mad. Our bond clearly ran deeper than I thought. I gazed at Commander Shockwave's twitching antennae, he was remaining still. In another sense; he was thinking. He really was taking Knockout's words as literate, as he should.
"Soundwave is a respectful Decepticon," Commander Shockwave started, both Knockout and my own face plate's became plastered with irritation. As I thought, Commander Shockwave was oblivious to all of this! But Knockout's expression did not hinder Commander Shockwave from continuing.
"I find him to be a skilled soldier and one that is very important to our cause. I find that without him we would not be as successful with our deeds as we are today. He is a necessity to the Decepticons. Now, tell me of your question's relevance." I practically gagged at Commander Shockwave's words, feeling repulsed that he thought so highly of Soundwave. Yes, he was right about him being a necessity to the Decepticon cause but Soundwave certainly wasn't a respectful Decepticon. Not anymore.
Knockout simply scowled and quickly dropped his arms to his side. "Yeah; the relevance is that your view of him being respectful is a load of scrap." I felt myself sink back at Knockout's words, I knew he wasn't being angry at Commander Shockwave but it baffled me that he would take such a tone with him. Of all mechs.
Commander Shockwave's optic dimmed slightly, like he was narrowing his non-existent optics as his antennae flinched. "Do specify your statement, for the relevance isn't becoming clear to me. You came here to tell me why David has been avoiding us both. So, expand your explanation before my patience grows thin."
I could tell that Commander Shockwave grew annoyed by Knockout's tone rather than his irrelevance, but he would soon understand why. Knockout's expression became somewhat fearful before turning into a solemn but nervous one. He looked away from the purple mech before speaking yet again.
"Soundwave attacked David, he told him to stop visiting you and if he didn't stop then he would lose his helm. He also blackmailed him with fear to not tell you or anyone that he had been attacked. He spent two days with a broken vocalizer because he was too afraid to come to me to get it fixed, Soundwave nearly crushed his throat and vocalizer. He's been living in that fragged up paranoia ever since then, deterred away from you, the one he loves, and from me, his good friend. I'm surprised he hasn't lost his Primus damned processor yet because I have never met someone as sensitive as him."
I felt my optics widen at the power of Knockout's words, they struck my spark like the sharpest of swords. He made my situation seem a lot worse than even I imagined it to be. I could hear the anger and sadness, I now understand why he was so enraged, his perspective of it was much clearer than my own.
And he cared.
I smiled softly, I could feel the coolant form in my optics but I held it together, Knockout had oddly made me very happy. And he was damn right about me being sensitive.
Commander Shockwave had remained silent for quite some time, he was thinking deeply but he seemed to not know how to reply. Generally; someone would be very angry about hearing something like this. But how could an emotion deprived mech such as Commander Shockwave respond to this emotionally? He wasn't even attached to me emotionally, making the situation much harder for him.
"...I do not understand." Commander Shockwave spoke with a quiet voice, Knockout simply watched him, waiting for him to develop on his reply. "Why would Soundwave attack David?" He asked with an unreadable tone, his question causing my abdomen to feel sickly and uneasy. Now he was going to know.
Knockout narrowed his optics slightly, his silence continuing for a moment before finally speaking. "Well, let's just say David isn't the only one who considers you attractive anymore." I vented as I watched Commander Shockwave's antennae perk up slightly. Be more clear Knockout. "What do you mean?" I shook my helm at Commander Shockwave's words, the innocence was just spark-stopping. Now I am certain that Soundwave hasn't approached Commander Shockwave on this matter yet, as I had hoped.
"What I mean is; Soundwave assaulted David because he's trying to keep David away from you. He wants you for himself."
I felt my face plates heat up bashfully, why must Knockout be so blunt?.. Surely he could have stalled the explanation a little bit more. I then virtually smacked myself for thinking that. I had just mentally asked Knockout to be more clear, and well; there you go David!
Commander Shockwave's optic dimmed as his antennae lowered, oh sweet Primus he was beyond confused. Knockout simply stared at him, sighing slightly at his silence. "I know, it's a lot to take in. I'd be pretty flattered and confused too if two mechs were fighting over me. I'm used to femmes." He smirked for a moment before it was wiped away, he knew that now was the wrong time for any humour.
Commander Shockwave simply raised his servo uneasily, he seemed perplexed and... nervous? Afraid perhaps? I wasn't sure, but emotions were a very big obstacle for Commander Shockwave. Dealing with someone touching him, as I had when I requested to show him an example of physical affection, made him very stressed and confused. It was a lot for him to deal with, hence the reason after I merely touched his antennae he ended our first session of him learning about emotions so quickly.
So right now; I can hardly imagine what he is feeling. What he is thinking or dealing with. The fact that I was attracted to him was surprising enough, but it was somewhat understandable. An emotional vehicon that should look up to commanding officers in a respectful sense, surely said vehicon would get attracted to one of them after some time? It could nearly be considered an inevitable outcome.
But Soundwave? Talk about random at its finest. Commander Shockwave has been working with him in a profession sense, and now he finds out that his counterpart has been attracted to him this entire time? That would be pretty weird to experience, particularly by a mech such as Commander Shockwave.
"Soundwave is attracted to me also? I have never made such an observation in all my time working with him... His development of emotions must be quite intense if he's willing to be hostile towards anyone of which could hinder his chance of..." Commander Shockwave trailed off, his antennae flicking subtly as he averted his gaze to the floor. Knockout simply raised an optic ridge with a small smirk. "Being with you?"
Commander Shockwave simply looked back up at the red medic. "Indeed..." Commander Shockwave then rested his servo on his helm, shaking it slowly before speaking yet again. "Apologies; I am simply not used to receiving such attention. I'm still surprised by the fact that David holds an interest in me, now my long-time acquaintance has developed the same feelings."
Knockout suddenly scoffed with angered optics. "I understand, it's fine. But sorry, the same feelings? Eh... No. Soundwave doesn't hold any emotions for you as unique as what David holds. David loves you. I honestly have never cared for love, but wow... I changed my entire perspective of things when I met David. He makes it out like it's the most amazing thing in the world..." Knockout slowly quietened his words, a gentle expression forming on his face plates as he shifted his gaze slowly to the floor.
"It was then I realized..." I watched in shock as Knockout spoke, my optics wide and my derma agape. His words had touched me in a spark-wrenching sense. I didn't know what to think. Had I really made an impact on Knockout such as this? I never even knew I changed his look on love so drastically. I soon smiled wildly as I watched him; I was beyond happy and proud right now.
"It is the most amazing thing." His derma became a soft smile as he looked back at Commander Shockwave, who had been listening quietly the entire time. Knockout then simply sighed and slowly closed his optics.
"Soundwave, on the other hand, would much prefer to see you strapped to a berth before he'd endure anything loving with you. I can damn well tell." My face plates heated up at the thought of Commander Shockwave strapped to a berth. Oh frag that would be so hot. I quickly bit my lip plates and shook those thoughts away. I really am beyond easy to distract. Bad David! Focus!
Commander Shockwave stood back slightly at Knockout's words. Oh right; Knockout has absolutely no clue of how impacting an emotional sentence can be to Commander Shockwave. If I was standing beside him now I would have hit him hard on the helm. "I see..." I suddenly slammed my servo to mask, feeling embarrassed by Commander Shockwave's reply. The poor dear doesn't even know how to react to that.
Knockout nodded and crossed his arms again. "Yeah, so, word of advice; If you do end up picking a mate. Pick David. With all due respect sir, but I will lose all of my respect for you if you end up with Soundwave rather than David. David will induce you with more happiness than you could have ever imagined, if you're willing to learn of emotions like he told me."
Well, I tried. But I failed; the coolant was now pouring from my optics like that thing humans call a 'waterfall'. Knockout is my absolute best friend. I cannot even begin to express that truth right now.
Commander Shockwave simply nodded. "I believe you're taking matters a little too quickly there, but I shall do as you have told me if the time comes or is deemed right. Considering your skill in emotions, if David is considered the logical choice, then I shall take your word for it."
"Oh Knockout!"
I just couldn't stay there any longer.
The two mechs shot their helms towards my direction, Knockout's optics were wide while Commander Shockwave's optic brightened in surprise. I stood up and placed my servo on the table I had been hiding behind, lifting my weight up to swing myself over it. I then ran over to the medic and grabbed him, hugging him tightly as I continued to cry.
"I am so sorry! Please forgive me! I didn't mean to fight with you, you're my best friend and I love you!" I buried my helm into his chest plating, ignoring his protests about damaging his finish. "Eh... Ehehaha, David?.." His confused expression soon became one of joy, he simply laughed in confusion.
I didn't care how foolish I seemed right now, I needed to express my gratitude to Knockout in anyway I can. Besides, I'd be lying if I said that I didn't consider this as being an opportunity to show Commander Shockwave another form of physical affection.
I then pulled back from our embrace and swiftly took my mask off of my face plate, grinning sheepishly with tear-stained cheek platings. Knockout smiled back at me and shook his helm in a perplexing manner. "How long were you hiding here for?.." He asked in a hyper sense, causing me to shrug slightly with an even bigger grin.
"I was in the main control room, I was watching everything happening there since I..." My gaze soon became serious as I brought my stare to Commander Shockwave, my optics full of sorrow. "Since I haven't been resuming my duties with Commander Shockwave." Commander Shockwave didn't react as I looked at him, we simply exchanged unexplained stares for a moment.
I then looked back to the red mech. "I then saw you speak to Commander Shockwave as you left the main control room and I followed you both. I-I couldn't stay there asking myself constant questions. And... I'm glad I didn't."
I smiled softly, randomly hugging Knockout one more time before pulling away. Knockout continued to smile, nodding in understanding as he wiped his chest friskily. Typical. "It's okay, I understand. Hah, I'm kind of glad you did too." He chuckled as he rubbed his helm gently. He then smirked and gazed at the tip of his digits in admiration. "But yes, I know, I am simply amazing."
I laughed at his statement, that's the Knockout I've certainly come to know, and I wouldn't change him for Cybertron itself. I've really come to grow fond of his cocky nature.
I then felt my heat plates warm up, my mind was soon brought to the matter at hand. I looked to Commander Shockwave again shyly, my expression was full of nothing but tense nerves.
"Uh, sir, I..." I trailed off quietly, not knowing what to say to him, but I was motivated to speak when Knockout punched my back and caused me to stumble forward slightly. I then tripped during my stumble, making me fall quickly towards the floor.
"Woah!" I cried out loudly, expecting to hit the ground harshly but I was prevented by a strong servo on my chest. I looked upward, and it certainly wasn't long before my optics shook in shy fear as they were met with Commander Shockwave's optic.
Commander Shockwave had bent down and saved me from falling, using his servo to help me up again. It kind of represented the nutshell of my life... I simply trembled nervously as I awkwardly tried to stand up properly and regain my composure. My embarrassment was only increased as I heard Knockout snicker behind me.
"S-Sorry sir, I didn't mean-" "I believe it is Knockout who should apologise." Commander Shockwave interrupted me as he looked to the red medic, his tone expressing that of annoyance. His stare was like he was saying "Really?" to Knockout in a very sarcastic way. Knockout simply waved his servos innocently and laughed. "Ah what? Commander please, look at him! He loves the attention you're giving him!"
"Knock. Out." I hissed as I turned my helm slowly to look at the now hysterical sports car. He continued to laugh and bit his lip plates. "I'm sorry David, I n-never knew you acted so goofy around him. Pfft, i-it's hilarious!" Knockout then continued to burst out laughing, causing me to bring both of my servos to cover my face plate.
Oh Primus, was I really that bad? It takes quite a lot of effort to make Knockout laugh like that. It's absolutely no wonder why Commander Shockwave found out about my emotional state so soon. What a dunce I am...
"Knockout." Commander Shockwave's voice was commanding, soon causing the medic to stand properly again and regain a straight expression, though it was obvious he was fighting against his desired laughter. I simply sighed and fidgeted with both of my servos, retracting them from my face plate as I looked to the purple scientist again.
"I just... I just want to apologise for not telling you about all of this sir. I-I was simply... so afraid that... Uhm." I looked down shamefully, my optics dimming sadly as I rubbed my arm. I felt so guilty of what I had done to both Knockout and Commander Shockwave, I didn't think it would affect them like this, while it certainly affected me.
Commander Shockwave merely shook his helm in disagreement. "There is no need for you to apologise, you have done no wrong. It was wise of you to tell Knockout, so now he has told me of this issue." I stared up at Commander Shockwave with so much love and respect, my spark suddenly began ringing again with immense desire. It truly was no wonder to me why I loved this mech.
I smiled with closed optics and nodded vigorously, my face plates heating up shyly. "Y-Yes, of course are correct, as always..." My last two words were full of longing and love, I immediately frowned when I heard Knockout snicker again behind me. I was just glad Commander Shockwave didn't notice how infatuated I was by him as much as Knockout did.
"Now then," Commander Shockwave started, causing my lovey-dovey thoughts to shoo away as I focused my attention on what he was going to say, and well, I wasn't very pleased by it either. "I am going to deal with Soundwave."
Clearly both Knockout and I were thinking of two completely different things at that time, for my face plate showed nothing but pure horror whilst his showed nothing but immense delight. I simply fumbled with my servos in a confused manner; as though they were holding something really hot, and shook my helm in disapproval. "B-But sir! Soundwave, he... he'll try to- What if he-"
Commander Shockwave immediately raised his servo to halt my rambling words, in which he succeeded in doing so. "Trust me, David. He will not try anything of a toying manner against me, if he knows what is well for him. That I assure you of." I remained quiet as I stared at Commander Shockwave sadly, of course I trusted him, but I couldn't help but worry for his well-being. Particularly after that... dream.
"Yes sir..." I muttered as I looked to the floor, Knockout simply came up behind me and rested a servo on my shoulder reassuringly. "Don't worry David, Commander Shockwave will put Soundwave in his place. Ohoho, Commander Shockwave; get a recording of it, won't you?"
Knockout chuckled darkly, I simply grumbled in annoyance and rubbed my neck cables. This mech, really was, unbelievable. Comamnder Shockwave turned away from the both of us and shook his helm. "That, I'm afraid, is not provisional. Do not test my patience, Knockout."
Knockout stopped his laughing, again, and looked to the wall awkwardly. "Yes, sir." He said, his tone unreadable as I chuckled. Knockout was such a malfunctioned drone when he wanted to be.
"I will return shortly, both of you remain here until I do." Commander Shockwave spoke as he walked to the door of the lab, his stride calm and collected, as usual. I simply watched him sadly, my optics full of concern as he then left. My spark felt as though it was shot when the lab door slammed shut behind him.
I really was concerned for Commander Shockwave. Why wouldn't I be? I love him and it is necessary that I care. Especially when he's approaching a mech that... Ewugh. I'm not going to even dwell on that thought. I'm simply glad that Commander Shockwave is so strong, he can take care of himself. Right?
Knockout and I remained quiet for a moment after Commander Shockwave left, both of us shifting on our spots as the current situation sank into our processors. The silence was killing me so I decided to kill it first. "Thank you, Knockout. I'm glad you helped me in the end. And I really am sorry for everything that happened." I looked back to the red medic, earning a smug smirk from him as he nodded.
"It's alright, like I said; I'm simply amazing. I shouldn't have suggested you let Commander Shockwave go, especially when I don't understand that immense love you hold for him. We're all going to sort this out now, okay? Don't be afraid anymore." Knockout's optimistic words caused me to smile happily. He was right.
I then grinned and pulled him into another hug, receiving the gesture in return before we both pulled back. "You are also beyond affectionate... Sheesh!" He rolled his optics and shook his helm, causing me to laugh loudly. "How does a mech with such a love for amazing paint jobs intend on dealing with that? Oh Commander Shockwave's gonna have to get used to a hug or kiss every few kliks."
We both continued to laugh at his words, it simply felt great to laugh again. I had not done so these past few days. But he was right; it was all going to be alright. I just hope Commander Shockwave is okay, of all things. With that thought, I looked to the door of the lab, thinking for a moment as I narrowed my optics.
You know what. Frag this.
I suddenly started walking towards the door, the medic that was once beside me was now staring at me in complete confusion.
"Hey?! Where are you going?!" Knockout called to me, soon running up beside me with a confused expression. I simply continued to walk with a face plate of seriousness. "I'm going with Commander Shockwave. Well... I'm going to stalk him while he talks to Soundwave, I need to make sure he's okay."
I was very serious. I get very uneasy and panicky when I don't know something of which I want to know of. Particularly when it involves Commander Shockwave. I know he told me to stay in the lab, but for his safety I have to disobey that order. I'm not going to feel right until he comes back to me safe and well. Even if he's just going to talk to Soudnwave, I don't trust that silent mech anymore. Nor should I.
Knockout suddenly stood in front of me, causing me to halt with an annoyed expression. I groaned and tried to push pass him. "Knockout, you're not going to stop me." Knockout simply smirked and shook his helm. "Who said I was going to stop you? I'm going with you. I want to see Commander Shockwave show Soundwave who's boss." He grinned, causing me to raise an optic ridge in slight confusion, but with a smirk I quickly nodded.
"I don't think Commander Shockwave is going to attack Soundwave, but alright then, let's go." I tried to walk again but he simply placed a firm servo over my chest, stopping me yet again. I just looked to him, trying to figure out what he was trying to do. "Eh... I think you're forgetting something." He smiled as he lifted my mask up in his servo, causing me to gasp and grab it.
"Woops, eh, I forgot..." I chuckled nervously and began putting it on clumsily, the visor brightening as I latched it onto my face plate. Knockout simply patted me back and nodded. "Now let's go." He said with a chuckle as we both rushed out of the lab, sneakily following Commander Shockwave to where he intended on talking with Soundwave.
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