Alone

My stomach was buzzing with nervousness. Josh was going to be in this room. With no music cranked up to beyond loud. No girlfriends snooping next door. No interruptions— I hope — just the two of us.

Alone.

Ok, maybe I shouldn't dwell on that, because my stomach buzzed with excitement that made me worry some more.

There was a knock on the door, the back of my neck all of a sudden became warm. I ignored it the best I could and tried to make myself look casual.

"Come in." I said.

Josh's head went through the empty door frame, he gave me a big smile and closed the door behind him. He walked over to my bedside, and sat in the chair Noelle just sat in.

"Hey." He smiled.

"Hi." I said sitting up, my hair rolled over my shoulder, I was using my left hand to hold me up. I was angled towards him, and quite comfortable.

"So are you doing ok?" He asked nodding at my right shoulder.

"Ya, I'm slowly getting over the fact that my old roommate just shot me." I gave him a small smile. He returned one a little bit bigger.

God, this boy made me melt.

"Well I guess you beat my broken jaw story." Josh smiled.

I started cracking up. He told me about the time he broke his jaw when we where walking to Ketlar after our Thanksgiving meal. It was just the two of us on campus, all alone. That was also our first kiss, not that pleasant though with my blubbering moment.

"I guess I do." I said still giggling.

Silence swept over.

"When are you leaving?" He asked me.

"I don't really know, but I hope it's soon." I confessed looking around my boring room.

There was a silence again, I figured it was my turn to break it this time,

"So is Ivy ok?" I asked, looking down at the blanket beneath me, picking at it a bit.

Josh cleared his throat, "She's ok, we've been fighting a lot." He confessed and sighed.

Then dump her and come back to me.

I didn't have the guts to say it though. There was another silence. This was going no where.

"So did you like my present?" I asked. Josh smiled a huge smile, I haven't seen him smile that big in a while.

"I loved it. It brought back so many memories and thoughts and feelings." He smiled.

Feelings. Feelings, for me? Was it hatred, loathing… love? I was about to ask but he spoke instead,

"It really was the best gift anyone has ever given me Reed," Josh told me, when he said my name, I almost went in to kiss him. I had to hold myself back. I had to let at least something out.

"Josh, I miss you so much. And even though we broke up, I still have those feelings I had when we where dating. And I don't know if you still have feelings for me like I still do for you. But when I start to doubt, I realized something." I didn't finish I waited for him to process it all.

"… What do you realize?" He asked looking me dead in the eye.

"I realized that you saved me, you risked you're life to save mine. That's not something you would do to just anyone." I told him, tears started to fall from my eyes. Roll down my cheeks, and into my lap.

"Reed… I… really don't know." I confessed with apology in his eyes.

"Is it because of Ivy?" I asked pitifully. Even more tears came.

"Reed, don't cry." He told me, he was so close to my face, I wanted to touch his. He had his hand on my face, his thumb whipping away my tears. My face felt tingly and electric by his touch. I had a feeling he felt the same way.

"I still love you Josh." I told him true fully.

He was silent just searching my eyes. He looked so beautiful

"I still love you too Reed." Josh gave now what was the biggest smile I've ever seen. He meant it! My smile was equal to his.

He leaned in and kissed me.

I smiled in the kiss, I couldn't stop crying what now was tears of joy. I leaned in closer to him. Wrapping my left arm around his neck sense I couldn't move my right. Josh held my face with both of his hands like he has so many times before. I couldn't believe this was happening. I poured all of my emotion, and love into that kiss. I've been waiting for ever to get him back. And I think I did. There was only one thing that was stopping us.

And she chose that moment to open the door.

"What the hell is going on here?" Ivy gasped/shouted.

"Ivy—" Josh started but she cut him off.

"I should of seen it. You talked about her all the time! How much you did with her, how much she meant to you! I should of dumped you then. Not so I could go through a break up like this!" Ivy shouted. I was shocked and scared from her entrance and her screaming. I was pretty sure everyone was listening because the hall behind her was silent.

"I thought you where better then the rest of them Reed. I thought you weren't a backstabbing bitch like all the other Billings girls. But I guess. I. Was. Wrong." She spat, spat at me like I was like Cheyenne or something.

"Ivy I—" I tried to explain but she cut me off.

"Don't even try to explain there's nothing to explain!" Ivy said, I thought I could see some tears in her eyes. I felt bad, ok really bad. But how could I feel bad? I got Josh back, I learned that he still loves me.

But I hurt someone else in the process.

I had to make everything right. I had to.

Well I updated when I said I would!! I hope you guys liked this chapter, it was hard to write.

Really hard.

I hope I didn't like over do it or throw abything at you too soon!

tell me what you think!

Peace out,

Lauren