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Jacob pov, from when Jacob ran into the woods. There is also slight Jacob pov from twilight when Bella left with Edward to save herself from James. The words in italic are conversation between Jake, embry and Sam in their minds while they were phased in wolf form.
I saw her lock the doors, I guess this is it. Good bye my love. With that I was about to turn but Bella threw her arms around me and kissed the palm of hand. I wish I could stay like this with her but that's selfish, I can't give her the happiness that she wants I better go, with that I run towards the woods. I was about to phase but before that I turned to see her for the last time, as I thought, she didn't look back. I lost her. I phased and went in the woods. Bells take care… I love you and I want you to be happy no matter with whom you are. Just be happy.
With that, I ran towards the woods, I didn't even undress myself before I phased. I just can't accept the fact that my love, bells could do such a thing to me. But I promised her, I won't hurt her and I will keep my promise; I won't hurt her. Now I have to make a decision. The most important decision of my life. I should take my time so I went to the dept of the woods. The images of her saying it was just a mistake, kept replaying in head like tape. Why does it hurt so much when she left?
It didn't hurt this much when last time she left me. It was before her prom, I go to know through quill that bells school was gona held prom soon so I went over to ask her. But when I reached there, I only saw Charlie, he wasn't acting like usual, his face was pale and he didn't do anything but just sit in the kitchen. I asked him where is bells and he said she left. That's all? She just left... like nothing here was important. I tried searching for her but back then I couldn't phase so I can't cover much ground so I just let it slide aside. I was the happiest man after Charlie I think to have bells back. I wanted to kick that bloodsucker to dead when I heard bells was injured. Thank god it was only her leg.
"Hey, isn't that Jake?" I was startled by embry's voice. How long have I been here? I started to wonder, which is why I didn't notice embry and Sam coming towards me. I was knocked on head by embry cause he thought I ignored him but the truth was I was thinking.
"Guys, could you please phase back. I need to talk to you" I said, wait... when did I phase back to human form myself?. I was wondering again, since bells left me I wasn't myself. Even though it was just a few hours ago she left me, It felt like it was already a century. I turned to see embry and Sam when I heard Sam said "Jake, what's wrong? You look a little pale" great... now im sick.
"Jake you idiot!" what's wrong with embry? "You got all of us worried sick! Where have been the whole the yesterday?" the whole day? Wait it's already a day since bells left me, I guess took my time to think much longer than I thought.
"I'm sorry guys, I just got side track"I said, hoping they won't ask me much more." Sorry... just sorry? Jake! do you know what you made us think?" embry continued, I can see his tone rising bit by bit.
"You got Billy worried,you got Emily worried,you got all of worried! Do you know that! We all thought that red hair caught you, you could at least informed any of us that you were was that important than rather being at the funeral, you got side track?" embry said well practically shouting.
"Calm down embry" Sam said in his normal low voice. I was practically speechless, well first I didn't know I had been out for almost a day and second how am I suppose to tell them what happened. I can't tell them that my imprint left me for her previous lover who so happens to be a bloodsucker.
"Jake, embry lets go home" Sam ordered us "wait, I said I want to talk" I told Sam back, didn't he hear when I said I need to talk. "Whatever it is, im sure it could wait we till get home. It's been awhile since you went back home go back and rest you look pale" with that Sam started walking but immediately stopped when he heard me say "I'm not coming back"
"Why? Are you planning on staying here?" embry asked sarcastically, he wasn't usually like this, I guess I got him upset. I'm sorry embry I whispered. "I'm never coming back" "what?" I heard both of them say that at the same time.
"Jake, this is not the time to joke around, im tired OKAY,we have searching for you since yesterday"embry said in disbelief "embry, sit down. Lets hear what Jacob has to say, I think this important" Sam said, he was the true alpha. He knows when to say what exactly. Not like me, im worthless, I can't even keep my own imprint with me.
"Fine this better be good" embry muttered while sitting on the ground right next to Sam. They were waiting for me say something. I took a long breathe and then started. "Guys. I have imprinted on Bella... and..." before I could continue embry interupted me by hugging me. "So it's true" I heard Sam said.
Embry started to congratulate me; I can see happiness was filled in his face. But i didn't have the heart to tell him the next thing. "Wait, Sam how did know that I have already imprinted on Bella" this is ridiculous, I asked them to phased back so that they can't read my, so that they can't my images with Bella when I was still with her on our special moment.
I turned to look at a blushing embry when he said "oh... that yestreday when Seth was on patrol, he passed through here and he saw the images... (Embry coughing) well u know what I mean, well none of us believed him when he said to us or when he showed to us.
Since we can't sense you, so we thought he was hallucinating. So we asked him to go back home. Wait... did he just say Seth showed them the images of me and bella making love? So the whole pack saw it, this is embarrassing.
I gotta change the topic"wait there's more" I said i felt my lips move but nothing came... not a word. "Hurry up Jake ... we're waiting... besides where's bella? I haven't seen her since yesterday." Oh god why can't I just tell them that bells left me for that leech. Why is my body disobeying my command?
"She left me…"I whispered as i hung my head down. "What? Jake what did you to her" embry started shouting at me as if I hurted bells, if only he knew what happened.
"Wait let me finish" with that I continue "she left me, she went to save to him when she heard he was in danger"it hurts to even think about it. "oh... jake ... im so sorry. I...i... didn't know she...wel…. im sorry I shouted at you just now. I didn't know your situation. I'm sorry bro" I just nodded in reply to embry.
I saw his face; his face was dull, as if something bad happened to him. I guess I ruined his mood as well. Man I'm such a pain in the butt. "How could you let her go?" it was Sam. I didn't say anything to reply him. "Jake... I know what you feel? I was in your shoe once" how could you possibly know, you never went through this. I stayed silent.
"I loved Leah with all my heart and soul, I never thought any girl would replace her in my heart … untill" Sam trailed off "until... I saw Emily, when I imprinted on her it was as if my soul was connected to her, as if we were one.
But back then I was still in love with Leah so tried to avoid Emily as much as possible cause I don't want to hurt Leah but eventually I stopped avoiding Emily. I just can't keep on going like that, it hurted a lot. As if thousand knives were stabbed in my heart, I can't sleep at night, I can't eat, I can't do anything, as if I have gone mad. Imprint is your soul mate, once yours always yours thats how strong it is and I can't believe it.
I can't believe that you could just let her go? As if you don't feel anything… Jake why did you let her go?" "She said it was mistake... she said it would her if anything happen to him" I replied sam; I know I left both of them confused not understanding what I just had said. But I can't tell them. I can't tell them the truth. I don't want remember it.
"I'm leaving..." I stressed it. "Jake ... why would you want leave, its her lost that she left you. Don't worry eventually she come to back" embry said trying to reassure me as if everything is gona be ok. "No, the more I stay here, the more I will remember her, the more it will hurt me,.. I'm sorry guys but I can't go through it again. I can't just move on as if nothing happened." I said with all the strength that left in my body.
"So what are you planning on doing?" thanks Sam. I replied Sam "well, planning on leaving la push, I'm going on a hunt. I'm gona hunt that red hair down, as long as she's alive, bells safety is in danger. I can't her hurt bells." Embry said in anger
"look at you Jake! Hear yourself! You want to leave your family and friends for a girl who leaves you for her former lover that had left her. She calls your relationship a mistake! Jake open eyes...look she left you... she doesn't deserve you; moreover she's your imprint. Didn't she feel anything when she left you?"
"Embry... please stop saying like that about bella, whatever she does, she's my imprint. Have some respect" I said the last part in stern. Whatever he said maybe true but I don't want to hurt bells, her happiness is all that matters to me, nothing else.
"You want me to respect a b*tch ? Jake she maybe your imprint but she's acting like a f*cking b*tch. I am your brother and I have the right to…" I pounded him before he could even finish. He has crossed the line, NO ONE. Aint NO ONE can call her like that. He maybe my brother but when it comes to bells, I don't care who it maybe I am gona kill that person who hurts bells or even say something bad about her.
To me bells, my angel, my light, my everything. She may ignore me but I can't do the same to her. By the time I pounded embry, I already phased. I bite his neck first then I aimed for his throat. I brought my paw towards his throat with all the strength but I was stopped from doing something that I was gona regret later on by Sam. Thank god, he got to me before I killed Embry.
What have I done? I attacked a fellow brother, all for her but she…I stopped right there. I'm sorry guys with that I turned behind and ran to the woods. If I stayed there any longer I'm sure. Something bad might happen with the condition I am now; I don't think I can control myself. I'm sure Sam would understand, since he phased just now to stop me in the nick of time. I owe him one. But now, my only intention is getting away from here, I don't want anything getting hurt and besides I'm going on a mission that is to kill that red hair. Bells I promised you, and I will keep my promise.
I arrived at the end of our territory, this is it after I cross this line. I'm never coming back. I replayed back all the things that happened to me and bells all these while. I wanted this to be the last time I ever I remember all these things. I want bells to be happy so if me being there is gona make her situation bad then I better step aside.
Good bye la push…good bye dad... im sorry dad, I know it's my responsibility to take care you but I can't be here after all that happened I just can't. Im sorry for being selfish dad... I'm sure Sam will take care of you in my place. Speaking of Sam, im sorry guys... I don't deserve to be your brother anymore and Sam I know you will be a better alpha than I will ever be.
"Who said so?" I heard Sam's voice in my head. Before I could even I response to Sam both he and embry was in front of me in wolf form. "I'm sorry, bro" embry said. "Hey, I'm the suppose to be saying sorry here" I said feeling bad that he is saying sorry instead of me. "Nah! That was nothing, it didn't hurt a bit... we saw everything just now jake" embry said in reply. I know very well what he was talking about he was talking about the things that I replayed in my head just now. I should have known they phased.
"Jake... you are the true alpha! Its in your blood...you are the next alpha...i'm sure you would be the best alpha" sam said trying to make me feel betterembry continued by adding what sam said.
"Guys... I'm sorry... I made my mind and I'm not gona change it." " Jake please thing of us, think what would your dad say when he knows this. You should at least let him know what's going on" embry replied me.
"He will be fine, besides he has the whole pack to help him... What could possibly go wrong" I said with a smile on my face trying to hide my true feelings. I listen to Sam's thought "Jake... I know whatever we say now isn't gona change anything but didn't you promise Bella to protect Charlie? If you go now how are you suppose to keep your promise to her"
How did he know that? Oh yeah, he must have seen that when I replayed everything just now. But I ignore what he said. He has a point, if I go now. I am breaking my promise to bells. No... I can't leave now. "Guys I am staying till bells comes back, when she does. I'm leaving… understand?" They both nodded. "Jake go home and rest you seem exhausted. See you soon." With that Sam left but before he left he asked embry to escorts me back home cause I looked like I was about to faint any moment.