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ATTENTION! IF YOU HAVE READ NEW MOON OR WATCH THE MOVIE, YOU CAN SKIP THIS CHAPTER. This chapter has some cutting from the novel new moon chapter 23-the truth.

We were told to stay in the reception area of the Volturi castle until dark although I don't quite like the idea of being here longer than necessary but we have to obey their order. I learned that Gianna, the only human who is working for the volturi is fully aware of the Volturi's feeding practices and hopes to become one of them, just thinking about it disgusts me.

I was sitting on Edward's lap, with him hugging me close. It's been a long since I have been this happy well I was happy when I was Jacob but Edward is my soul mate, no one can replace his place in my heart. I love Jacob but not in a romantic way. Even in the midst of the danger, I still feel happy to be with Edward, there tons of reason why I should be happy: well basically we are both alive, together and will be alive tomorrow. But deep down in my heart I still have fear that Edward might leave as soon as the opportunity arises. I don't want him to leave; it's just too much to take. I can't go through the same zombie path I was a few months ago. At least back then I had Jacob to comfort me but after all that happened I left him and I don't think Jacob will comeback to me again. That's something I better get use to.

I turned to look upon a flawless, godlike man whom I love with all my heart. I missed him a lot, nothing can replace Edward in my heart not even Jacob but sometimes when I was with Jacob I forget about Edward. Never the less, now we are together and nothing is gona change that fact. My eyes met with his, it was still the same but something's different. I looked closely at to find the difference, his pupil was in onyx. Uh oh... ok this is not good. I offered to move from Edward's lap because he appears hungry but instead He assures me that, "I've never been in better control of that side of my nature than right now." ok... I think that much information is enough so i avoid asking questions, hoping that i can delay Edward's exit.

Meanwhile, Alice and Edward plan the return trip. Edward explains that the Volturi refers me his "la tua cantante" because my blood sings for him. Well that's kinda creepy, but you know I'm a danger magnet so basically my blood sings for him does make sense. Then Alec arrives to release us, atlast we going away from this place. We hurried away through the festival crowd. Alice using her many illegal skills again steals another car to get us to the airport. On the airplane, I refuse to sleep, I then point out to Edward that I will still have those nightmares if i sleep. I heard Alice call Jasper to communicate their success and to arrange for the family to meet us at the airport. Ok family reunion at the air port not a very good place for reunion but then again I missed them a lot. I felt a clod icy hand hold my hand, I turn to find Edward it was, and he starts kissing my hand and then touches it. I was aching for this for a long time but why is he doing it now. Wait don't tell me he's leaving me again. I try not show any signs of me worrying just incase if he feels it. He might leave and I don't want that. I tried my best hiding my true feelings.

As soon as we arrived at the air port we were greeted by the Cullens; Jasper, Carlisle and Esme waited for us inside. Each of them was expressing their gratitude to me for saving Edward and chastises Edward's suicidal behavior. I wondered where the other two Cullens were, esme then told me that Emmett and Rosalie was waiting for us outside. Edward reluctantly allows Emmett and Rosalie to drive us home. Rosalie apologizes to Edward, then to me, I forgive her immediately. This is new, I noted that this is the first time that Rosalie has spoken directly to me.

We were about a stone away from my house; all that I have in mind now is Charlie. Ok how am I suppose explain my absents for 3 days to Italy. I felt my shoulder being shaked, when I turned to look; it was Edward pointing straight ahead. I turned to look what he was pointing. It was infact a very angry Charlie. Ok just great Bella I grunted, of all the chaos that happen I really don't want to face Charlie now. The car stopped, with a deep breathe I stepped out of the car with Edward following right behind me. "Where have you been bells" I heard Charlie shouted with anger and sending invisible daggers to Edward. "Dad, I can explain" I started, ooh this is gona be a long day, I just know it. "Oh you better have an explanation young lady, cause you're in a lot of trouble" I was fidgeting my hands while trying to make an excuse. I never was a good liar and this is just hard, and plus I was tired. I traveled all the way from forks to Italy and then back here in 3 days not to mention while I was in Italy I was in Italy facing a bunch man-eating vampires. All of a sudden, my surrounding was beginning to be dizzy and then the moment moment It was all pitch black. The last thing I heard was Edward saying "sir, I can explain... it's not Bella's fault"

I had the sense that I'd been asleep for a very long time; my body was stiff, like I hadn't moved once through all that time, either. My mind was dazed and slow; strange, colorful dreams. Dreams and nightmares all swirled dizzily around the inside of my head. The horrible and the heavenly all mixed together into a bizarre jumble. There was sharp impatience and fear, both part of that frustrating dream where your feet can't move fast enough... This dream did not want to be shoved away into the vault of dreams I refused to revisit. I struggled with it as my mind became more alert, focusing on reality. I couldn't remember what day of the week it was, but I was sure school or work or something was waiting for me or maybe Jacob... I knew what I did was wrong I left him after all he gave; he was there when I needed him the most. He was patience with me not rushing me into anything that I didn't like. Most of all he loved me for who I am but I know it wasn't right for me to be with him. I know I hurted him but I just had to do it. I inhaled deeply, wondering how to face another day.

Something cold touched my forehead with the softest pressure.

I squeezed my eyes more tightly shut. I was still dreaming, it seemed, and it felt abnormally real. I was so close to waking... any second now, and it would be gone.
But I realized that it felt too real, too real to be good for me. The stone arms I imagined
wrapped around me werefar too substantial. If I let this go any further, I'd be sorry for it
later. With a resigned sigh, I wrenched back my eyelids to dispel the illusion.

"Oh!" I gasped, and threw my fists over my eyes.

Well, clearly, I'd gone too far; it must have been a mistake to let my imagination get so out of hand. Okay, so "let" was the wrong word. I'd forced it to get out of hand.. pretty much stalked my hallucinations and now my mind had snapped. It took less than half a second for me to realize that, as long as I was truly insane now, I might as well enjoy the delusions while they were pleasant. I opened my eyes again and Edward was still there, his perfect face just inches away from mine.

"Did I frighten you?" His low voice was anxious. This was very good, as delusions went. The face, the voice, the scent, everything it was so much better than drowning. The beautiful figment of my imagination watched my changing expressions, with alarm. His irises were pitch-black, with bruise-like shadows under them. This surprised me; my hallucinatory Edwards were usually better fed. I blinked twice, desperately trying to remember the last thing that I was sure was real. Alice was part of my dream, and I wondered if she had really come back at all, or if that was just the preamble. I thought she'd returned the day I'd nearly drowned...

"Oh, crap" I croaked. My throat was thick with sleeping. "What's wrong, Bella?"
I frowned at him unhappily. His face was even more anxious than before. "I'm dead, right?" I moaned. "I did drown. Crap, crap, crap! This is gonna kill Charlie." Edward frowned, too. "You're not dead." "Then why am I not waking up?" I challenged, raising my eyebrows. "You are awake, Bella." I shook my head. "Sure, sure. That's what you want me to think. And then it will be worse when I do wake up. If I wake up, which I won't, because I'm dead. This is awful. Poor Charlie. And Renee and Jake..." I trailed off in horror at what I had done." I can see where you might confuse me with a nightmare." His short-lived smile was grim. "But I can't imagine what you could have done to wind up in hell. Did you commit many murders while I was away?"

I grimaced. "Obviously not. If I was in hell, you wouldn't be with me." He sighed.
My head was getting clearer. My eyes flickered away from his face unwillingly for one second, to the dark, open window, and then back to him. I started to remember details... and I felt a faint, unfamiliar blush warm the skin over my cheekbones as I slowly realized that Edward was really, truly here with me, and I was wasting time being an idiot. "Did all of that really happen, then?" It was almost impossible to reassign my dream as reality. I couldn't wrap my head around the concept. "That depends." Edward's smile was still hard. "If you're referring to us nearly being massacred in Italy, then, yes."
"How strange," I mused but deep down I was wondering was it true that I slept with Jacob, I'm so sorry Edward I cheated on you. I didn't want it to be that way but at that time it just felt so right. I tried to stop before we got further but I was consumed by lust.

I better change the subject before he gets suspicious "I really went to Italy. Did you know I'd never been farther east than Albuquerque?" He rolled his eyes. "Maybe you should go back to sleep. You're not coherent." "I'm not tired anymore." It was all coming clear now. "What time is it? How long have I been sleeping?" "It's just after one in the morning. So, about fourteen hours." I stretched as he spoke. I was so stiff. "Charlie?" I asked.

"Well…" Edward started; his facial expression shows that something went bad between Charlie and him. Edward tells me that Charlie band him from the house. "Charlie banned you from the house?" I asked, disbelief quickly melting into fury. His eyes were sad. "Did you expect anything else?" My eyes were mad. I was going to have a few words with my father, perhaps it would be a good time to remind him that I was over the legal age of adulthood. It didn't matter so much, of course, except in principle. All too soon there would be no reason for the prohibition. I turned my thoughts to less painful avenues. "What's the story?" I asked, genuinely curious, but also trying desperately to keep the conversation casual, to keep a firm grip on myself, so I wouldn't scare him away with the frantic, gnawing craving that was raging inside me. "What do you mean?" "What am I telling Charlie? What's my excuse for disappearing for... how long was I gone, anyway?" I tried to count the hours in my head. "Just three days." His eyes tightened, but he smiled more naturally this time. "Actually, I was hoping you might have a good explanation. I've got nothing." I groaned. "Fabulous." "Well, maybe Alice will come up with something," he offered, trying to comfort me. And I was comforted. Who cared what I had to deal with later? Every second that he was here, so close, his flawless face glowing in the dim light from the numbers on my alarm clock; was precious and not to be wasted.

I cautiously start to question Edward about what he did while he was away, choosing the least important question first, what have you been doing? Edward responds by saying nothing exciting. "Of course not," I mumbled. "Why are you making that face?"
"Well..." I pursed my lips, considering. "If you were, after all, just a dream, that's exactly the kind of thing you would say. My imagination must be used up." After a few attempt at last Edward finally admits the truth that he was tracking Victoria. Edward begins to apologize to me for leaving me in danger. Ha, really? I was in danger, well gee what do you, I was in danger. I guess I was too busy being zombie and mourning my lost of till I didn't realize that I was in danger. He continue, He said didn't realize Victoria had such a response in killing me because he was too busy concentrating on James. He admits that he felt sick after hearing what i told Alice and seeing for himself what Alice saw. I stopped him, thinking he is apologizes out of guilt and nothing else. All I want is him to be happy no matter what it costs me.

I began to tell him that the things that happened while he was away were not his fault. I felt the ghost of the hole waiting it rip open when he disappears again. I strictly told him that he can't go off to Italy because of the choices I make. Well I was surprise that Edward is stunned that I think the only reason he went to Italy was because he felt guilty. Well isn't he guilty? Then he starts to explain that he can't live in a world where i don't exist. He said "Before you, Bella, my life was like a moonless night. Very dark, but there were stars points of light and reason... And then you shot across my sky like a meteor. Suddenly everything was on fire; there was brilliancy, there was beauty. When you were gone, when the meteor had fallen over the horizon, everything went black. Nothing had changed, but my eyes were blinded by the light. I couldn't see the stars anymore. And there was no more reason for anything." Ok now I'm totally confused, this doesn't make any senses at all. " I thought you said ' I promise that this will be the last time you'll see me. I won't come back. I won't put you through anything like this again. You can go on without any more interference from me. It will be as if I'd never existed' "then he explains to me he is a good liar but for me to believe him so quickly was excruciating. Ok now I am very sure I'm dreaming. It has to be me dreaming. It's just not possible for him to love me. But then I felt his breathe, I opened my eyes to see Edward leaning in to kiss me but I ask him not to, I told him it would too hard when he leaves me.

I was taken by surprise when I heard Edward ask me if there is someone else, if that is the reason that I was so hesitant every time he touched me and that can I still love him after everything that has happened. Omg! How am I suppose to explain to him that I and Jacob had slept together? Was it too obvious that I still have feelings for Jacob. No I can't, I love Edward and I am gona be loyal to him. I told him that the way i feels about him will never change, I will always love him. Then I felt his lips against me, it was a long passionate kiss but I wasn't happy about it. When I was kissing Edward, the only thing in my mind was Jacob. Why am I feeling guilty? It wasn't like I and Jake dated or anything we were just mere friends who did something stupid. It was just a mistake nothing more. , in the brief seconds when his lips were free, he whispered my name. Then he explains that he isn't leaving. He tells me that he only wanted me to have a happy human life. Human life without him? No way, if I was to have a life it has to be with him or else I don't want that life. He continued, he said no matter how many miles he puts between us, I can't be safe. Edward explains to me that his feeling were like mine when we were apart. See I told you we are soul mates, Edward don't you think it's about time you accept that fact?

Well, I am not as concerned with Victoria returning at all, I have much bigger problems; like Charlie, how am I suppose answer him and Jake .. I started laughing when I heard Edward said he thinks the werewolves are problem for me. What was he thinking, without the werewolves I'm sure by now I'm dead. I told him that the second biggest problem is the Volturi coming to check on me. He said in his old calm tone that he has a plan. Wait did he just say he has a plan? Maybe he's gona change me, well it's about time. I asked him are you gona change me and to my surprise he refuse then what the heck is the plan?. Why is this guy so stubborn? Just change me already.

"But what about when I get so old that people think I'm your mother? Your grandmother?" My voice was pale with revulsion; I could see Gran's face again in the dream mirror. His whole face was soft now. He brushed the tears from my cheek with his lips. "That doesn't mean anything to me," he breathed against my skin. "You will always be the most beautiful thing in my world. Of course..." He hesitated, flinching slightly. "If you outgrew me ...if you wanted something more. I would understand that, Bella. I promise I wouldn't stand in your way if you wanted to leave me." His eyes were liquid onyx and utterly sincere. He spoke as if he'd put endless amounts of thought into this asinine plan. "You do realize that I'll die eventually, right?" I demanded. He'd thought about this part, too. "I'll follow after as soon as I can." "That is seriously..."I looked for the right word."Sick." "Bella, it's the only right way left" "Let's just back up for a minute," I said; feeling angry made it so much easier to be clear, decisive. "You do remember the Volturi, right? I can't stay human forever. They'll kill me. Even if they don't think of me till I'm thirty" I hissed the word" do you really think they'll forget?"
"No," he answered slowly, shaking his head. "They won't forget. But..." "But?" He grinned while I stared at him warily. Maybe I wasn't the only crazy one. "I have a few plans." "And these plans," I said, my voice getting more acidic with each word. "These plans all center around me staying human." My attitude hardened his expression. "Naturally." His tone was brusque, his divine face
arrogant.

We glowered at each other for a long minute. Then I took a deep breath, squared my shoulders, I pushed his arms away so that I could sit up. "Do you want me to leave?" he asked, and it made my heart flutter to see that this idea hurt him, though he tried not to show it. "No," I told him. "I'm leaving." He watched me suspiciously as I climbed out of the bed and fumbled around in the dark room, looking for my shoes. "May I ask where you are going.'" he asked. "I'm going to your house," I told him, still feeling around blindly. He got up and came to my side. "Here are your shoes. How did you plan to get there?" "My truck." "That will probably wake Charlie," he offered as a deterrent.
I sighed. "I know. But honestly, I'll be grounded for weeks as it is. How much more trouble can I really get in?" "None. He'll blame me, not you." "If you have a better idea, I'm all ears." "Stay here," he suggested, but his expression wasn't hopeful. "No dice. But you go ahead and make yourself at home," I encouraged, surprised at how natural my teasing sounded, and headed for the door. He was there before me, blocking my way.

I frowned, and turned for the window. It wasn't really that far to the ground, and it was
mostly grass beneath... "Okay," he sighed. "I'll give you a ride." I shrugged. "Either way. But you probably should be there, too." "And why is that?" "Because you're extraordinarily opinionated, and I'm sure you'll want a chance to air your views." "My views on which subject?" He asked through his teeth. "This isn't just about you anymore. You're not the center of the universe, you know." My own personal universe was, of course, a different story. "If you're going to bring the Volturi down on us over something as stupid as leaving me human, then your family ought to have a say." "A say in what?" he asked, each word distinct.

"My mortality. I'm putting it to a vote."