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Bella's from (chapter:romeo vs paris)
"Oh hey bells, you're wide awake. how are ya? How's the big guy doing"Embry was talking to me with a huge grin on his face... wait why is embry here? Big guy? Who? "Shut it embry" I heard Sam scolding embry. Wait Sam's here too? I turned to look at Jake but his eyes were on embry and then I saw Jake smacked his forehead with his hands. I turned to see what bothered Jake that much. And guess what? I saw the whole wolf pack in front of me in the Cullens house. A pack of shapeshifters in a Vampire's lair? Now I'm sure I'm hallucinating stuff.
I asked Jake " Jake why are they here? Am I sick?" "Well bells...erm... erm..." I saw Jake fidgeting his hands. Wait, why is he nervous? I couldn't wait for his reply so I asked Carlisle. "Carlisle, what's wrong with me? Am I sick or something" "well Bella, not on what I observed so far, I think you are..." I waited for him to say it but he was taking time longer than he usually does. ugh! just answer me! "Go on." I said softly masking my frustration. "Well, I think you are pregnant" my mouth went wide.
Did I hear that right? I thought he said I'm pregnant. I shook my head " No. No. You are kidding me. Come on, stop joking. I'm not in the mood for jokes now" I said letting out my frustration abit at Carlisle. But his face was too serious to be joking. Oh god. This can't be happening. "bella, I'm not joking" Carlisle said. "Oh god, how did.."I stopped mid sentence when I remembered what happened between Jacob and me the other day. Then I turned to look at Jacob by my side, he was holding my hand in his but he wasn't looking at have i done? I must have hurted him but I thought it was just a mistake. I didn't think it would have come this far.
"Well since she's awake now, so why don't we just finish this right now? I don't feel comfortable having mutts in the house" Rosalie hissed, I'm not surprise when the whole pack growled at her. Hold on, finish what? "It's not like we enjoy being here" Quil snaped at her back. "Ok, now then lets get started." I heard sam said while taking a seat near me, as I can see by now everyone is siting except for Rosalie and Jasper. But they were not the person I was looking for.
Edward was no where in sight, my eyes were still searching for him around the room but it was futile. I really hope, he doesn't get this matter in the wrong way. "Missed me?" Edward whispered in my ears out of no where. I was taken by suprise when i saw him right beside me but on the other side of the bed, which is opposite Jacob's. I heard a low growl from Jacob, "Ok then everyone is here now. Bella..." Sam started. "Well as we know now, you are having Jake's child right?" I nodded in reply; I felt my cheeks getting warm. I must be blushing hard now. "So what are you planning?" he asked. "Planning? about what" "about the baby of course?" embry interupted. "oh.. I haven't thought about that, but I think I'm going to keep it" I said, I can't afford to loose my baby. I know it's a mistake but it's a part of me, I can't afford to risk it's life. The problem is how do I persuade Edward to accept my decision.
"I see,very well then, but yo need to know there are few rules if you are planning to keep the baby" what? "What rules?" "Bella, as you know, you are carrying a quilette in you. And it's very dangerous for you and the baby to be around us during your pregnancy" Carlisle said. "Yes, and so during your pregnancy. You can't be around them"Sam said supporting Carlisle's comment. "no!" I shouted, "There is no way I'm going to be apart from them for 9 months" "erm, not 9 but 15 Bella" carlisle corrected me. 15? No way! I am not going to loose my chance in becoming one of them after all that had happend.
Finally, i'm getting dream come agreed to change me and now this happens. Why? why does this kind of things happen to me? I can't choose, i mean I can't live without Edward but at the same time.. the baby. I can't..
Edward. The baby. Edward. The baby. . The baby. baby.
they were running through mind, Can't I have them both? But then, wouldn't that make me selfish. How could I force Edward to accept a baby that is not even his own and better yet his mortal enemy? But then If Edward did accept it, how would Jacob react? He would most definately hate the fact that his child is living with the cold never like Edward since the begining. What i am saying,how would the whole pack accept that ?They would surely want to keep it here for the rest of it's I wouldn't be here, The Cullens couldn't here, they stayed here long enough. Sooner or later they must move away. I can't.. I can't loose them... Him.. I'm sorry little one, but mommy has to do this, for the sake of everyone.
"I'm sorry but I am changing my mind. I don't want this baby" I stated. Jacob released my hand at the moment, I saw him. His eyes were filled with tears. I heard him whisper "bells…" he was pleading "I'm sorry Jacob but I couldn't be apart from them for that long, besides I told you. Its just a mistake." " A mistake? Well you should have thought of that before you slept with him?" embry shouted both angrily and sarcastically. I felt like as if I was slapped.
Before any of us could respond, I saw Jake pushing Embry against the wall; he lifted Embry with one hand, sliding Embry back against the wall "Don't you dare say that again to her or I swear, I will kill you and I meant it" Jake said in a low but scary tone. Both Jared and Collin were already by Jake's side, pulling him away from embry. At the same time, trying to calm him down. It was the first time I saw jake, this scary. He was defending me,just liek how he did back at Billy's when I slapped Paul.
I thought he hated me after all I did but i guess... " Jake, what's gotten in you ? did you just hear what she said? How can she say it's a mistake? Jake that baby it's not only hers, its yours as well. Don't you want the baby?" embry said in his 's right but I'm the one who is going to carry it for 15 months and so I have the right to say if I don't want it. I waited for jake to argue but he shouted " Embry shut up! This isn't you problem. Its between me and Bella, I do want the baby but it's her choice whether to keep it or not? But no matter what she picks, I'll be by her side all the time. " he said to embry. Jake..I was touched. I didn't know he could be this understanding, I'm glad to have him as my best friend even after all that had happened.
" Thanks,Jake. I know I can count on you" I said while smiling at him but he just remained silent. "erh.. Bella could I have a word with you in the kitchen" Esme asked me and I just nodded in reply leaving the boys in the room. I hope that they don't kill each other was what I thought as I went down stairs and straight to kitchen. I was surprise to see Alice was there as well. Ok why do I get the feeling that this is going to be a lecture? "Bella have a sit" I obeyed Alice. Esme started "bella…dear, I'm not going to tell you what to do. But do you think, this is what you want?" "about?" I asked her, playing dumb hoping to avoid the matter. "well, about the baby, ofcourse. Bella, I know how it feels loosing a child and I don't want you to go through the same thing" Esme had once told me, about her past. She had a son, but he didn't survive long. "And besides Jacob looks like a responsible guy and I'm sure he will take good care of you and the baby" esme added but I'm not going to change for my mind, I love edward and that's it. Nothing is going stop us from being together.
"I'm sorry esme but I'm not going to change my mind. You know I love all of you and I can't be apart from all of you for that long. Besides, having the baby is just going to make things mor complicated and plus, Edward agreed to change me if I marry him. I'm sorry but I'm not going to loose my only chance to be one of you." i said and there was a long moment of silence for " well.. I guess I'm going to go and check on them" I said not wanting to be there as it gets more Alice and Esme in the kitchen. I was shocked to see Rosalie standing in the middle of the stair case, as if she was waiting for me.
"Could we talk?" rosalie wants to talk with me? This pregnancy keeps getting weirder. We sat on the couch, as I waited for Rosalie to say something which she eventually did but I cut her first "okay if this is about the baby, I'm sorry to disappoint you but I'm not going to keep this baby, and nothing you are going say is going to change my mind" "Bella, I seriously don't understand you at all. Why are you so eager in becoming a vampire? There isn't any happiness in being one, vampires are just bloodsucking being who don't have souls and you want to be that? Do you know, what I would give to be in your place? I always wanted to have a family and you are going to have one but what you doing is trying to do is throw away everything you got and for what to be us?" rosalie said, it was the part of her that I never knew it existed. "I thought you were smart, but you just proved to be like everyone else." and she's back. Sarcastic Rosalie, gald to have you back.
"I'm sorry if I'm over reaction but it's the truth. you shouldn't be one of us, its not the.." "Bella." Edward interrupted Rosalie. "Rosalie, if you mind" he asked Rosalie to give us some, time alone. "Fine, but think about it Bella. Once you are us you can't go back" "she heard enough Rosalie" Edward said sternly. Ok now what's wrong with Edward. "When did it happen?" should we even talking about this? This is just embarrassing and whole a lot awkward. I'm talking about me sleeping with my best friend to my boyfriend. Great can life be much better. "Well. it was just a mistake. I don't even want this baby" I said trying to make him understand. He remained silent. And then said. " Bella, are you sure? I mean this is really important and you have to think twice about it."
Is he doubting me? "Edward I am more than sure. I want you more than anything in this world, more than this baby." I said to him, while getting lost in his eyes. "I love you" he mouthed, "I love you too" Carlisle joined us. " Bella have you made your decision?" he asked. " yes, and I'm not going to keep this baby, Carlisle " " bella, please think very carefully" "yes I have thought of it more than once and I'm not going to change it. I'm not going to let my chance in becoming one of your family just because of this." I said while rubbing my belly.
"But I'm sure I'm going miss it. I always wanted to be a mother but its ok, as long as I have you nothing matters to me." I said while looking at Edward. "Bella, you don't need to do this, you know you can both" I heard Carlisle said. "What are you talking Carlisle?" I asked him. "Well, you could keep the baby and when it arrived you can get married and edward will change you. In that way you get to be a mother and have become our family too. I just can't stop the fact from the moment I knew you were pregnant, I keep seeing visions of esme when I found her. She looked terrible, she was so heart broken the fact that she lost her son. And I don't think my son could handle that situation with you" I started to think about what carlisle said.
It did make sense but I already thought all about it nothing is going to change then edward and i had a talk after Carlise left. The talk di cleared up my confusions and at that moment i know this is what i going to do and i made up my sure this time.
[back in the room with the packs after bella had a talk with Edward ] Bella made her mind and the whole Cullens and the pack were waiting for Bella's decision.
"I heard that you have made up mind?" Sam asked. "Yes. I will keep this baby in one condition." "and that is….?" " I can visit the cullens twice a month" I stated waiting for sam to say something " but Bella you don't understand, it will be dangerous for you and the baby. The baby isn't fully developed and it's hard for the fetus to adjust to the Cullens body temperature by you being close distances with the Cullens. It might not be very healthy for the baby. It might ..." "no... Bella, you have my word. You can visit them twice a ..i too haveone condition. That is I should be with you all times when you are making trip here" I heard Jacob said cutting Sam.
"Fine, with me" I said keeping what Edward told me in my mind. "Jake, we are having a talk after this, and with that out of the way, now let's go to the next one. As the father of the baby Jacob must be with Bella all the time so that incase the baby has some problems trying to adjust to Bella's body since she isn't of Quileute blood the baby might have problems with the body heat. Next, is treaty. It remains but there will one of us always around bella other than Jake even when she comes over here. And from now on bella will go for check ups with Sue and only her" he said while staring at Carlisle at the last part " ok .. we agree"