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Continues from chapter: a change in time (bella's pov)

[btw the words that are bold and italic are taken from the novel New Moon chapter 11]

A few minutes later, I heard someone whisper, "I've missed you" into my ear. The coldness in the voice sent shivers down my spine.

"Ah!" I gasped silently when I felt a pair of arms wrap around me by suprise.

I felt my back hit a very hard surface, I turned around immediately and there he was. The same golden eyes and flaming bronze hair. "Edward," was all I said.

"My Bella," he replied while enveloping me into a hug. I gave in, and laid my head upon his chest. I felt a sudden movement in stomach but I ignored it. I was missing this, Edward and me, together.

I want, no.. I needed us to be back together."My love, how are you doing?" he asked while stroking my hair.

"Other than being hungry all the time, I'm fine." I replied while chuckling. I waited for him to join me but he just kept quiet.I raised my head that was under his chin to look at him. His eyes were vacant and his face carried no expression at all.

Then I saw his hand move and he placed it on top my stomach. I stared at him, wondering what he could be thinking. His face stayed blank and as I studied his reaction I felt a sharp pinch from within my stomach. I winced when I felt it and as a result I stepped back from Edward.

"Uh ... I'm sorry my love, I didn't mean it." Edward said while turning his back at me.

" No. No. It's not your fault. It's just the baby isn't familiar with you. Don't worry it will get use to you." I said trying to get Edward to feel better. I didn't want Edward to be awkward around me while I was sooner or later he will my child's step-dad.

"No, its not." Edward said while looking at the ground and shaking his head.

"It's never going to ..." What? Why was he taking this so seriously? I thought he was fine with this.

"Edward, what do you mean?" I asked him while I tried to reach out and put my hand on his stepped away from me when he saw my hand reaching out.

"Edward … what's th ..." but I was cut short.

"What do you think I mean?" he said in an angry tone while raising both eyebrows.

"Can't you see Bella, it's a monster. I just can't accept the fact you're carrying IT inside you"

"Shut-up Edward! That's enough. How dare you say that about MY baby?" I said with enraged tone. How dare he? I didn't even care if it WAS Edward. I wasn't going to allow ANYONE to say anything bad about my precious one.

"What was I wrong about? Tell me Bella," he said as if nothing he stated was untrue.

"Was I wrong about calling it a monster?" he said . that does it; never ... never get a pregnant woman angry.

"STOP IT! Why do you keep calling my baby a monster? I don't undertsand!" I screamed at him.

"It is what it is Bella. It's a monster, since the blood of a monster runs through it. Tell me Bella, what was the cause of Emily Young's scars?" he asked me in the most calm yet highly irritating way. Blood of a monster?

But the bigger question was how did he know about Emily? And what did any of that have to do with my baby? I was pulled by from my tain of thoughts when I heard him say, "Speechless are we? Wasn't her scars caused by a certain monster, who couldn't control himself? Wasn't it Sam Uley?" he continued while he walked around me in a circle.

"What do you call that Bella? A thing which destroys another's life, making them miserable for the rest of their life? A thing which harms your loved ones? Giving you no choice but to live a life full of fear. Let me remind you Bella, 'The apple doesn't fall too far from the tree.' he whispered the last sentence in my ear.

"Even now, the father of this thing is just waiting to kill me. You're the very reason I'm still alive Bella. But what if you weren't there for me? Like the other day, what if you weren't there, surely he wouldn't hesitated to break the treaty" he questioned.

No! This is just wrong. Jacob didn't want to do that ... he wouldn't do that … but didn't he …

"I swear Bells if he tries to put his arms around you today, I'm going to kill him. Treaty or no treaty!"

"Bella, is that what you want? for me to die infront of your very own eyes?"I stood there stunned, no response given. How could Edward think that I wanted him to die? I needed him like the air I breathe. He was my everything.

At my lack of response Edwards face crumbled, snapping me out of my thoughts and I instantly reached for him again.

"Don't touch me," he uttered as if he was in pain while turning his back to me.

"I don't want you to leave, but maybe it's best if you go home. I can't do this right now. It's too much." He said wearily over his taken back, I relived every moment, every single word Jacob said on that day.

"What do you want?" Jacob demanded, his expression growing more resentful as he watched the play of emotion across my face. "I want to talk to you," I said in a weak voice. Was it too much ask? i thought you were my personal sun.

No one can help me now." The words were a low moan; his voice broke. "What did he do to you?" I demanded, tears collecting in my eyes. I reached out to him, as I had once before, stepping forward with my arms wide. This time he cringed away, holding his hands up defensively. "Don't touch me," he whispered. He turned you into a cold hearted…..monster. It tore me apart when i heard him say that.

"Wait!"I called as he turned towards the house.
He spun around to face me, and I saw that his hands were shaking again.
"Go home, Bella. I can't hang out with you anymore."What was that suppose to mean? This is it? Its over? I thought you loved me, how could you do that me to me Jake?

What if Edward was right? No, no … Jake wouldn't, no he couldn't do that … but what if it's out of his control? I struggled with finding the answer and then I remembered my precious one.

"What about you?" I whispered while rubbing my baby bump.

Upon hearing my words Edward turned and stated, "Besides Bella think about it, after the arrival of your child. We will be separated for good since the tribe won't let us get anywhere near you or your baby. Are you ready for us to be separated again? The possibilities of this becoming one of them is high. And what happens when it phases ? Surely it will be wanting me kill me for stealing away it's father's love? Afterall, I am their mortal enemy, aren't I? And what about the forever you always wanted?"

"No, it couldn't!" I said while shaking my head in disbelief.

"I know Bella. I know you don't want your child to be the same as those monsters. So please, think are you ready to raise the ONE THING that will be the reason for us being separated again?"

"Edward please don't ... just stop. I don't want to hear anything about this anymore ... please, please just stop. I beg you!" I pleaded with him while I was on the brink of crying.

"Oh, my love, I'm here for you … for as long as I can be." He whispered while wrapping his arms around me from the ... I can't ... I'm not willing to lose Edward again. I can't bear going through those long lonely months again. It's just too much to bear.

I need both Edward and my baby and I can't choose between those two. If you had asked me a few months ago, I would have without a doubt chose Edward but then as the months grewcloser to my due date, i started loving my baby even more. I just can't! I can't pick!

"Why? Why must it always be like this? Edward I can't loose you again. I don't want to." I said while pulling his arms tighter around me.

At that moment, I felt the sharp pain again pinching in my stomach, but I paid no attention to it. I needed to be near Edward. I needed him to hold me and take away my fears, my worries.

"I don't want to be apart from you either my love, but I can't do anything about it. It's all in your hands. Make a choice." he said while kissing my cheeks.

"Why must it always be this hard? Can't I just have both of you? Is that too much to ask?" I said sobbing into his arms.

"Well there is something else you can do. But. but … you probably wouldn't like it." he said decreasing his tone bit by bit.

"What is it? What? Tell me. If I get to have both of you then I will do it. Whatever it takes." I questioned with new found optimism. A ray of hope shined now, was all I could think to myself.

"Well after your child is born, I could change it into one of us and then change you after our wedding. What do you say my love?" Changing my baby? Well that certainly didn't occur to me at first. But this isn't just my baby, but its Jake's as well. He would never go for this.

"But Edward, I'm afraid Jake would never agree to this."

"Why ask him? Didn't he say it's your choice to have the baby or not? That certainly means he isn't interested in raising this child so why ask him?Besides, when I made you agree to go further with this pregnancy,Jacob wasn't in the picture right?" he questioned.

"Yeah ... but ..." I was having doubts about this, Jake did say that. But recently he's been more than interested in raising this child. He already started thinking of names for the baby and ... there was a rough draft that looks like a cradle on his table.

"But what my love?" he asked but I just remained silent.

"If you believe that Jacob is going to be there for both you and that baby, then you're wrong. You do remember that he WILL imprint on someone. What then? Jacob will want nothing to do with you or the baby. His only concern will be his imprint and having a family her. You nor the baby will have any bearing in Jacob's , what if you did become one of us just like Alice's vision? Then what? Are you ready to let go of your child? "

"I ..."

"Bella!" I heard someone shout, I turned and it was Jacob. I saw the look on his face; it was full of hurt, anger, and despair. What could have happened?

"Nothing is going to happen Bella, as long as I'm here," Edward said while tightening his arms around me.

His arms were around me? Wait ... that's when it hit me, Jacob must have thought something happen between me and Edward. Wait did he hear what we were talking about? When did he come here?

"Jake … it's not what you seem to think it is," I said in rather a rush.

"Get away from him Bells," I heard Jake say sternly while holding out his hand for me. I stepped away from the Edward and went towards Jake, but then Edward pulls me toward him.

"Leave her alone leech!" Jake shouted while putting his hands into fists.

"What if I don't?" Edward god, not now.

"Bells move." I heard Jake say while getting in a fighting god if this keeps up, one of them is for sure going to break the treaty.

"Jake please ... don't ... please calm down." I said while trying to move closer to Jake. But then Edward grabbed me by pulling me around my stomach tightly.

"Edward ... please let just let go of me. I don't want anyone fighting. Please I just want you both to calm down." I said while trying to escape his grip.

"No, Bella. He is not safe now. Don't go near him." Edward said while glaring at Jake.

Oh no ... no ... Jake's not a monster ... he isn't ...

"Edward let go! I know Jake, he won't hurt me. Please let go of me!" I shouted.

But Edward just kept quiet while tightening his grips around my stomach, Iwas suffocating.

"That's it Edward, times up" Jake said while coming closer to Edward and I.

"Edward please let go of me, please …" I stopped mid sentence when I felt the same sharp pinching pain in me again, but this time it was stronger.

I felt the blood rush to my face and my body getting warmer and warmer.

"Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!" I just couldn't take it anymore; the pain was just too much

"Bella!" I heard Jake shout.

"Bella … love?" that was the last thing I heard, before I fell into a deep black hole.