Find Me
Edward's POV
What happened with Tanya back at the ice cream shop almost ruined me. Bella couldn't know why I wanted to hang out with her so much. I am going to try to stay away from her so she won't become too suspicious of me. Although she most likely already is. This isn't turning out as I thought it would. I am playing a game here. Tanya, and her friends got me all tangled up in this bet. I used to date Tanya for about five months before I cheated on her with Lauren. Tanya is getting back at me by making this bet with me that I couldn't find a girl, and stay with her for a period of six months. Longer than when I was with her. I agreed to it because I didn't want to lose against her. I only cheated on her because she was cheating on me. Everyone thinks I'm this big player so I play the part to perfection. Why? I don't know. I guess it's because I don't want to be alone. Bella doesn't deserve this though. I have come to know her somewhat, and she is different from the other girls. She is sophisticated for her age, intelligent, and just what I have been looking for.
I remember all the times I had seen Bella. In class for the first time, in the cafeteria, almost being violated in Port Angeles, and the ice cream shop where she was humiliated publicly. She looked beautiful everyday, although she would sometimes shield herself behind her chocolate hair. I wanted so much to see those eyes everyday. They were hiding mystery, and I wanted to unlock her soul. How was I supposed to stay away from her? "This is going to be so hard."
"What's going to be so hard?" Alice had now joined me in my room, jumping on the bed, and bringing me out of my daze. "My God, you scared me." I flinched, and said in a low growl. "Oh come on, you didn't see me?" "No! You're so small, and came out of no where." I shot back. "Whatever… So what's going to be so hard?" She is really trying to push me over the edge, and get an answer out of me. "Oh nothing, I just have an exam coming up." I quickly lied. "Oh please you're a genius Edward. You can't fool me. Remember I sense things." What she said is true. She is great at predicting outcomes of different situations but I couldn't tell her about what I had done, and what I'm still doing.
"I have to get ready for school. Can you please go now Alice?" I mumbled. "Alright but I am going to find out!" She said while happily skipping out of my room.
I had myself ready, and out the door heading to my vehicle in ten minutes. I took a different route this time to school because Alice had left earlier with her friend Rose. I passed Bella's house, and noticed that her red truck was already gone. I continued on my way, and made it to school in five minutes.
Classes were boring as usual. Knowing everything already in school isn't a good thing if you're trying to kill time. My only way to kill all this time was thinking about Bella. She caught me staring at her a few times in English class. The one class we had together. Which was going to make it easier to stay away from her although my staring isn't helping me accomplish my task. Tanya saw me looking at Bella also. She laughed, and caught Bella's attention when she did this. Bella just hunched over even more, and covered her face with her hands. No one that beautiful should be forced to hide herself.
School was finished for the first day of the new week. I never saw Bella the rest of the day, only her back walking to her car to leave the school grounds.
"Earth to Edward!" There was a hand waving in my face. "Oh hi Tanya." I blinked a few times trying to forget about my inside pain from having to deal with her so much. "You know you're really bad at this. You can't control yourself, and she's going to find out why you want to spend so much time with her." She spat at me. She wanted Bella to find out about the bet. She wants to ruin me. I am going to appease her because I can't stand her voice, and I didn't want to hear anymore from her. "Of course I am going to get Bella. You're going to lose Tanya." I retorted against this vile person, and she left me alone.
I didn't want to "get" Bella. I have learned not to be such a pig. I just said that to make Tanya go away, and be happy with herself. I would ask for forgiveness from Bella, if she would ever understand me one of these days. I want her to look passed all these superficial things about myself, and try to like the person inside. It could be a lost cause, or it could become something special.