Find Me

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Chapter title: Meadow and Lies

Edward's POV

Bella had told me everything that happened, and it broke my heart into a million pieces. The way she took the time to talk about all the details to get them off her chest, made me feel like the world's worst person. I was still lying to her. I was no different than Jacob. I was still using her. She would see my face contort into a ball of fury, and she would gently stroke the palm of my hand to calm me down. Her touch, and aroma settled me down instantly. It is amazing the way this girl would comfort me. Most of the girls I went out with cringed away at the sight of my face, and body if I was angry either with envy, or jealousy. My body would become rigid, and they would just leave my side when I was in my "insane" mode. Bella stuck by me. Telling me that everything is going to be alright, and that we were safe now. It was almost funny the way she cared more about my safety than her own. Jacob never came after me, only Bella, and I started to cringe again with shivers knowing he had undressed her with his filthy hands to gawk at her beauty.

After a two weeks had passed since the incident, I decided that tonight was the night to show Bella my "getaway" spot from everything. I called her cell to tell her that I would be at her house around seven tonight to pick her up. She was still a little mad that I wouldn't tell her where I was taking her. She didn't like surprises much. I showered, and dried myself in a hurry. Putting on my black dress pants, and a dark blue, button down shirt. Everything I needed had been in the my car, and I quickly went to my sanctuary to set up for our evening. I placed small tables with white tablecloths around the area, and put multiple candles on their surface. This place already was scented with its own aroma of beautiful purple, and white wildflowers. The bigger table was set up last for the two of us to enjoy our dinner. I didn't light the candles because I was going to leave to pick up Bella, and I didn't want anything to happen. So I brought along Alice, and Emmett. I told them to light all the candles after I leave. While I was setting up everything Alice was jumping for joy. She really didn't hang out much with Bella but she knew Bella was great for me, and that made me very happy. As I was getting ready to live Alice started to light the small candles on one side, and Emmett did the other. I couldn't wait for Bella to witness this place.

It took me about fifteen minutes to get to Bella's house. I exited my car, and walked up the short distance to her door. I waited for a minute, and Bella appeared. She looked absolutely incredible. She had her hair down, and it was very curly at the bottom. Her hair was bouncing around as she took me into her tiny arms. She was wearing a tight hugging midnight blue dress that looked radiant on her figure. "Hey beautiful." I said sighing. She giggled, and started to blush. "Hi handsome." She said inches a way from my face, as she placed a very delicate kiss on my cheek. I flushed. No girl had ever made me blush. That's when I knew I was in too deep. No one had ever made me feel this way, and that made it a lot harder to tell her the truth. But she deserved it.

I put a blind fold on her, and drove to the meadow. We made it there just over half passed seven. I escorted her out of the car, and led her to the meadow. "Okay Bella, you can take the blindfold off. I was at her side to see her reaction. "Oh My God! Edward it's beautiful. I have never in my life seen a place so serene. "Thank you Edward." She hugged me, and kissed me on the lips. I led her to the table, and pulled out her chair. Alice, and Emmett were hiding, and they made their way home. I could see them behind some trees but Bella couldn't. I made pasta, and chicken, and placed some of the meal onto her plate.

"It's very delicious." She pointed to her plate, and I started to laugh. "What? It is!" She giggled. After we were finished I decided to open up to her. "Bella I have to tell you something. We have been together for over six months now. You are the one true person that I care for, and I will always be here for you." I stood up from my seat, and walked over to her intertwining my fingers with hers, and I lifted her up from the chair. "Bella, I love you." I said, as I held her face with my hands, and gently rubbing her cheeks with the back of my hands. She closed her eyes, and let out a sigh. "Edward." A tear fell down her face. "I love you." She said as she put her hands in my hair, and started to lean forward. "Bella I have something else to tell you. It has been eating away at me. I promise you this is before I even knew you, and please just hear me out." Her face twisted into confusion. I led her to the table knowing that it would be better if she wasn't standing up for what I was about to say.

"Over six months ago I was with Tanya. Not romantically or anything like that. We were on a friendly basis." I was trying to find the words to make this less harder on Bella's ears. "Tanya devised a plan, a bet. You were her target, and mine." She started to back away. Her chair was pushed back, having a shocked look on her face. She started to leave me. I didn't continue at this point I just quickly made it over to her side. "Please Bella, you have to understand I didn't mean to hurt you." She stopped her eyes were full of tears. "What was the bet about? Were you going to make me sleep with you? What were you going to humiliate me at the prom? Tell me!" She shouted. I winced in pain seeing her like this. "I had to date you for six months, and then break up with you. But don't you see? I don't want to break up with you. We've been dating for over six months now Bella!" She laughed. "Oh so that makes it alright all of a sudden?" She tried to get out of my grip I had on her but I just tried to hold her their longer. "Let go of me. You're just like them, you're just like Jacob!" She spat, and pushed me back by the little strength she had in her arms. "Bella, No! Please, I'm not like him." She had made her point. I remembered sitting in front of Bella when she told me what happened to her while she was abducted by Jacob. I took advantage of her also, playing this game.

She was retreating out of the woods, and didn't know where to go because she was blindfolded the entire way here. "I can't do this, I can't handle this." She cried out stumbling over. I just added to her pain, and misery. "Bella please let me take you home. I wouldn't forgive myself if something happened to you out here. Please do not walk home." I pleaded with her. "Fine! But I won't speak to you at all. Starting now." She said in a hushed tone. She had kept her promise. All the way to the car, the drive to her house she had said not one word. She just kept staring out the window, and wiping away at her eyes. I gripped the steering wheel with so much anger that I was swerving in my lane. Thank God there were no other cars around. She got out of my car, slammed the door, and proceeded to run to her house. I felt so low. I didn't even know if I would ever see her again.

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