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Chapter title – Forgive or Forget?

Disclaimer – I do not own Twilight, or its characters.

Bella's POV

I didn't want to wake up at all today. Last night Charlie said it would be fine if I stayed home from school. That is what I did. Charlie tried his best to take the day off work but he had a lot to do, and had to go in today. I told him that I would be fine, and that I would just clean the house or something. I invested myself in dusting, mopping, sweeping, anything you can think of that had to do with cleaning. I was drowning in my own sweat when I finished. So I headed upstairs after putting all the products back in the closet, and jumped into the shower. I let the hot water burn my body for a little while. I know that's weird but it felt great when the water started to turn a little cooler. I took my robe off of its hook, and headed to my room to blow-dry my hair. Right when I was about to switch the on button my phone shrieked. The noise made me jump, and I dropped the hair drier to the ground hearing a loud thud. I went over to my phone, and saw that it was Edward calling. Ah I don't want to deal with this shit right now. I turned my phone off, and headed straight for the computer, forgetting about blow drying my hair. I had bookmarked a site to book my tickets back to Phoenix.

I would leave without saying goodbye to anyone, except for my dad. I clicked quickly all over the screen, and confirmed my trip. I would be back home soon to be with my mom, and friends again. I missed them all so much. I had only talked to my friends back home a couple of times because Edward, and Tanya took up all my time. Saying their names out loud just sent chills up my spine. They can have each other I thought. I dressed myself in a haste, and went downstairs to eat something, anything to fill my body. I decided on yogurt, and an apple. With each bite of the apple I would crunch harder. I was just so angry. I'm not the type of person to drown my sorrows in alcohol but what I saw over at our side bar interested me. In my viewpoint I saw a small refrigerator where Charlie keeps his beer. That didn't look too appealing. I could mask my drink if I added coke or something, so that Charlie wouldn't get suspicious. Walking over to the bar I looked over the bottles. Some of them were bigger than others. Different wines, and so on. One caught my eye though. Whiskey. That would easily mix with a can of coke. I took the bottle in my hands, went to the cupboard to grab a glass, and took out some ice cubes. I placed everything on the counter, and went to grab the last element that would complete the drink of my choice. I flicked the can of coke open, dropped a couple of ice cubes in the glass, and poured some of the Whiskey inside after that.

Mid-way through pouring some of the coke into the glass someone stormed into my house. The cup, and can both dropped out of my hands simultaneously, and I panicked. I grabbed the nearest object to protect myself from the intruder. I hid behind the counter, with the big bottle of wine in my hands. The invader in my house moved around in the kitchen. They stopped suddenly, and called my name out softly. "Bella? Where are you? What did you do?" I put it all together. After I didn't pick up his call, he left school, and immediately came to my house. He had a way of saving me all the time from different forms of impending doom. Either from Jacob, Tanya, or myself. I placed my hand on the edge of the counter to slowly move myself from the ground to an upright position. I then saw Edward's face, and I started to shake in my own skin. I knew I was going to fall. Edward saw my uneasiness, and ran towards my position to stop my fall. I was in his arms, and it felt right. For the first time I felt truly home. "Bella why?" He breathed over me while he gently carried me to the couch in the living room. He put me down, and put a small pillow under my head. "I don't know Edward. Please not now." I slurred out even though I wasn't drunk. I didn't even drink any of it! "Bella you can't just escape everything. Why did you feel the need to make yourself that, that drink?" Edward's pacing back and forth in front of me didn't do any favors of bringing down my dizziness. I grabbed the back of his shirt, and stopped him. I motioned him to sit down beside me on the couch. "Edward you really hurt me. They really hurt me. I guess like you said I wanted to escape." I said in between breaths. "But I'm right here for you. I love you Bella. I didn't mean any of it." He made a point of dragging out my name, and the way he said you. "I know I just feel drained from it all. I spent a lot of time with you Edward. To be humiliated that way is incredibly painful. If I had done that to you, you would be furious to." I did want to let this go but something in the back of my mind told me not to.

"Bella please I" I cut him off, "Edward I can forget about everything. But I don't know if I can forgive you." He stood up, and walked away shutting the front door behind him.

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