February 2nd
Dear Journal,
Compared to last night, tonight was a dream! Work went fine, no problems what so ever, even some tips! And tonight I went to Port Angeles with Jason. When he came to pick me up I asked where Sarah was and all he said was "she wanted to stay home" but his smile told me he wanted her to stay home and I was okay with that. I needed someone normal like Jason in my new life. We drove to the theater chatting away about nothing at all. He asked how work had gone the previous night. I hesitated and he noticed.
"Did something happen?" he inquired further, now certain something was wrong. I liked the caring look in his eyes.
"Not really, I mean..." 'Should I tell him about Cade?' I thought but knew there was no way. "...we had some problems with some drunks but Kelly took care of it pretty quickly."
"Well, that's good." Jason sighed, and I knew he wasn't convinced.
At the theater he insisted on not only buying my ticket but soda and popcorn too. I didn't mind. It was like a real date, one that normal teenagers have. I was surprised I had never decided to go on one before! Oh wait, you actually have to have a guy to do that.
Anyways, we saw this horror/adventure movie. I wasn't really scared but I did get a bit squeamish. Jason put his arm around him the first time and it didn't move after that so I leaned against him for most of the movie.
The think that really bothered me was that the monster in the movie was vampire. He looked like death and slept in a coffin and was really stereotypical – the complete opposite of Cade in fact! But he had super strength and could throw people so far...even up into a tree on one occasion.
After the movie ended, Jason took my hand as we stood up. It seemed he had gotten quite confident after our "horror-movie snuggling". He could see I was a little caught off guard and let go, but he didn't look discouraged. On the drive back in Jason's jeep we had more meaningless conversation. I was through asking him questions, might as well let us have a normal relationship.
This is where it gets exciting and a little creepy.
First the exciting. When he pulled into Grandpa's driveway I was about to open the door and say goodbye but he grabbed my hand so I froze and looked over at him. Jason had braced himself with his other arm against the head cushion of my seat. He leaned forward like he was going to kiss me and I so would have kissed him back.
It's not like I think I'm 'in love' or anything, but I have really begun to like Jason a lot. He may still not be #1 hottest guy in La Push, but he has other qualities that get him a spot much better. So I was already for him to kiss me, I closed my eyes, just waiting for my first kiss when
BAM! Something big slammed on the top of the jeep. We were both really startled. Jason told me to stay in the vehicle while he checked it out but I didn't listen. We both got out and looked up to see nothing. Jason climbed up and I heard him say, "what the heck? There's a dent in the roof!"
I was just weird, you know? Like someone was watching and didn't like that we were about to kiss. What's more, it ruined the mode. When Jason came back down, he said just as much. "Better luck next time, I guess? See you at school, Jen." That was that.
I'm still creeped-out about the whole...BAM! thing. I'll be surprised if I don't have nightmares.
XoXo Jennifer Heartly