February 25th
Dear Journal,
Caden hasn't showed up since that night, the night I wrote about last time. So I haven't written. Things have been great with Jason and me. Well, they were great. He was still questioning sometimes but knows I don't want to talk about it. Everything was great. Till a few hours ago.
Jason wasn't at school today. I'm really scared.
I went to his house and asking Mr. Black if Jason was sick. He didn't say anything, just said "Yeah, he's sick" but I knew he was lying. I tried calling Jason's cell but he never answered. I left about fifty messages. I know that sometimes people just take a break for a day and stuff but...this reminds me too much of Kyle.
Speaking on Kyle, he came back to school Friday. He was really big; maybe twice the size of when I last saw him. And he was sitting with the boy-pack. He didn't talk to any of his friends, not even Sarah. Sarah went to Seattle with her Aunt for the weekend. I called her and she hasn't seen Jason. She's worried now too.
I only had one resort; I could just let it go. I had to know Jason was safe. So I called the Wolfes. Someone named Chuck answered, I'm guessing the last member of their coven. He told me, "Jacob up isn't home, he had to get out for the weekend. But I can have him call you when he gets back." It was obviously rehearsed.
"That will be too late!" I yelled at the phone, then lowered my voice so I didn't wake Gramps. "I can't believe I'm asking this, but is Caden there?"
A few moments later, Cade was on the phone. "Jenny, is this about...what happened? Look, I'm really sorry, I've been trying to give you some space. I know I overreacted when I saw you with Jason. I shouldn't have made things worse between us..."
"Cade, stop. I'm not calling about that. I'm calling about Jason. He's gone," I said, my voice cracked at the end. Caden didn't respond and there were a few tense moments of silence.
"I'll be there in a second," he said, before I could stop him he hung up the phone. That wasn't what I wanted. I don't know why I even asked to talk to him. I curled up into a ball in the corner of my room, hoping my phone would ring and Jason would tell me he was okay.
I don't know how long I sat there feeling alone. But it seemed like seconds when I saw Caden climb through the window. I didn't want to rush into his arms to be comforted; I didn't want to encourage him. But everyone else was acting like things were okay, I was breaking up inside.
Caden didn't say anything. He just came and sat beside me and put an arm around me. I closed my eyes and tried not to think. "Cade, what's going to happen to him?" I asked, hoping he would know the answer.
"Jacob didn't say exactly, but I do know things...change," he replied, carefully choosing his words.
"What? You mean he's..."
"He's got the same blood as Jacob, dog flees in his veins. What did you expect?"
"So he's gonna become a werewolf...I mean, shapeshifter," I stated, trying to accept it as truth. "Why does my life have to screw up every time things start to get perfect? I wish your coven had stayed away. Then this wouldn't happen!" I harshly spoke. Caden hesitated then removed his arm from around me. "Cade, I didn't mean..."
"Yes, you did. Just know that if he doesn't come back the same, I will be the same, and I will still be waiting for you," Caden told me. He kissed my hair and then left. I was alone again. And I feel so alone now.
XoXo Jennifer Heartly