A/N thank you to my beta, you are great.

It had been twenty-four hours since those words had been spoken. Sara was now sat at home in a state of shock, she'd been to see an oncologist who had given them an abundance of leaflets and spoke to them. To be honest Sara couldn't remember a word he said she just sat there nodding at the appropriate times, luckily Grissom had been listening he had sat trying to take in every detail and remember everything that had been said and he was now sat reading the literature they had been given. Catherine was on her way round before shift to see them, Sara wasn't too sure if she liked that or not all she wanted t the minute was for everything to normal again because she wasn't a victim even when Natalie took her she wasn't a victim she go herself out but now she wasn't sure what she was fighting and while half of her wanted to break down the other half was angry, angry at the thing on her arm angry at Natalie, angry at Grissom for looking at her with a hint of pity in his eyes and mostly she was angry at herself for been scared.

Gil Grissom was scared her had buried himself in reading concentrating on the facts, he could cope with facts and right now that was all he could cope with, he didn't know how to act or how he was supposed to respond.

A tapping at the door saved both Grissom and Sara from their thoughts.

"Hey," Sara gave Cath a soft grin as she opened the front the door and the older women pulled her into a hug.

"How are you doing?" Cath whispered into Sara's ear as she hugged her.

"Ok," replied Sara as Cath pulled away.

"Now do you need one too?" asked Cath as Grissom entered the room. Grissom looked slightly bemused as to what he needed after missing Cath hug Sara.

"I'll take that as a no," smiled Cath.

"I take it you know then," said Sara wondering into the kitchen.

"Yes and I'm here if you need anything, either of you," she added looking at Grissom.

"Thank you," smiled Sara., "but at the minute all we need is a lift," she said finding what she was looking for and shoving the bottle of water in her kit that was by the front door.

"Sure," smiled Cath following Sara out the front door.

It wasn't until five minutes into the drive the question came Sara was waiting for.

"Is someone going to tell me what's happening then or are we playing twenty questions?" asked Cath as she drove along.

"At the minute were not sure," replied Grissom from the back.

"I've got scan's and x rays tomorrow and that's when we find out what's happening," said Sara, "we've got to talk to Ecklie today explain and get tomorrow off," said Sara her voice not hiding her displease at having to tell Ecklie anything.

"What about the guys?" asked Catherine. Before that would have been a simple answer for Sara to give, before it wouldn't have been no she would deal with it herself, it was only through a weak moment that Catherine even knew. But now it wasn't just her, it was her and Grissom she was learning to live with the fact that they now had to share things including feelings.

"I don't want them to make a big deal out of it an dif I announce it they'll over react," Sara started to ramble but Grissom interrupted.

"I'll talk to them before shift," he said in what was possible one of the kindest gestures he had done. Despite this Sara wasn't entirely happy Grissom didn't exactly have a way with words and the last thing she wanted was pity and people treating her like she was some sort of breakable object like after Natalie had taken her.

"We'll talk to them you wont even know they know," said Cath to which Sara nodded gratefully. The rest of the ride was pent talking about other things, which Sara was grateful for. Once at the lab she made herself scarce while Cath and Grissom went to tell the others. Unfortunately this gave Sara time alone to think like Grissom she'd done the reading she ken wit could range from just a minor problem if the growth could be removed in one go and was small to a something she didn't' want to consider if it was a large growth.

"Hey your early," smiled Nick as Grissom and Catherine entered the break room.

Warrick was about to make a comment but saw the serious look on the pairs faces.

"We need to talk before shift," started Grissom.

"If this is about that prank we played on Hodges," started Nick.

"No it's about Sara she…." Grissom trailed off so Cath continued for him.

"She has skin cancer." For some reason when Cath said the words out loud they sounded worse. Everyone in the room seemed to freeze.

"She doesn't want a big deal made out of it,"

"Big deal," said Greg not entirely sure where he was going.

"She doesn't want fussing over," warned Cath.

"Act normal," said Nick trying to wipe the shocked look off his face, "does she know you told us?"

"Yes she asked us to," said Catherine speaking for Grissom who had was trying not to make eye contact with anyone.

"How bad is it?" asked Greg.

"She's going for tests tomorrow then well know," answered Grissom.

"Whatever she wants," said Warrick breaking the silence that had fallen, "we're here for both of you," he added putting a hand on Grissom's shoulder.

"Thank you," said Grissom barely above a whisper. Once Grissom left the three men immediately questioned Cath but she knew little more than they did. None of them knew how to react although they doubted there was a handbook for this sort of thing all they knew was they had to support her and they knew Sara, don't fuss so that was what they were going to do.

When Sara walked into the break room she knew Grissom and Catherine had told everyone. As she walked in Warrick was leaving with a slip in his hand.

"Hey girl," smiled Warrick with a bit too much enthusiasm, "got a match to the finger print on my rape case," he said continuing to walk away trying that tiny bit too much to act normal.

"Hey Sara we got a homicide a strip joint," aid Nick standing as she entered.

"Right," said Sara taken slightly back by the fact everyone was acting so normal.

"You ok?" asked Nick referring to her slightly gone outlook, "I didn't' mean… I know…can we just pretend I didn't' stick my foot in it," said Nick thinking what he said had been so stupid of course she wasn't ok.

"Yeah I'm good," smiled Sara, "so what you got Greg," she asked the newest CSI who was sat staring at a file.

"Paperwork," moaned Greg, "do you remember this case?" he asked.

"I'll meet you at the car," said Nick leaving Sara to look over the case file with Greg. After a few minutes of talking about the case Sara was about to leave when Greg looked at her seriously.

"I'm sorry Sara."

"So am I," replied Sara with a lopsided smile which Greg gave a half hearted smile back to and that was it, that was how the day went tiny reference to her condition the guys checking in on her once to often with Cath's coincidental meeting bordering on stalking, the thought of them all trying to act normal on whatever results she got even brought a smile to her face because for once she was glad she wasn't alone.

"Hey sorry I got caught up in ballistics," said Grissom who had now joined Sara outside Ecklie's office, "is he in there?"

"Yeah probably wondering why I've been hovering outside his door for the past twenty minutes," smiled Sara.

"Are the pair of you going to loiter in my doorway all day or are you going to come in?" came Ecklie's voice.

"Conrad," said Grissom stepping followed by Sara who shut the door.

"What have you done?" asked Ecklie putting down the piece of paper he was reading.

"Done?" asked Sara immediately taking the attack.

"I assumed…never mind," said Ecklie taking in the rather serious appearance of his two employees.

"We need to talk to you about a personal matter," started Grissom as Sara noticed Ecklie eyes dropped down to her stomach.

"I'm not pregnant," said Sara all in one breath putting Grissom of his stride, "I have skin cancer." The words hung in the air like a thick mist.

"What do you need?" said Ecklie after a few seconds contemplating how to handle the situation and not infuriate Sara.

"I've got to have some tests tomorrow we'd like the time off encase the appointment over runs," explained Sara.

"Of course," replied Ecklie before a short silence, "just say what you need." Finished Ecklie as they stood to leave giving Sara a look that told he was avoiding the point of her work after the tests. Sara nodded at Ecklie and left with Grissom to finish her shift.

Sara walked into the break room to find Nick, Catherine, Warrick and Greg as sat down drinking and chatting, while the noise level fell when she walked in it didn't go completely silent.

"You off now?" asked Nick looking up at Sara.

"Yeah I'll see you on Wednesday," replied Sara picking up the drink she had come in for.

"Let us know how it goes," said Warrick.

"Yeah," replied Sara turning to leave but she stopped turning back round.

"Guys," said Sara getting all their attention, "thanks."

Nick nodded in response, as did Warrick while Greg gave a slight grin.

"Good luck," said Greg as Catherine shot out her chair.

"I'm sorry but I have to," she said throwing her arms round Sara and hugging her before letting go and moving encase Sara decided to retaliate.

"Ok," said Sara with a half smile, "I'll ring tomorrow," she said as she left. Sara wondered down into the locker room quite proud at how she was handling herself and also surprised Cath's hug didn't make her want to run away in fact she found it quite comforting. Sara was snapped from her thoughts as a soft hand touched her entwining itself in her fingers.

"Are you ready?" came Grissom's soft voice. Sara nodded in response and they left the lab hand in hand.

TBC ……………

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