She wanted to feel numb. So it would all go away. Maybe it would pass with time, but right now she wanted to feel nothing. As the water got colder, Thirteen pressed her cheek against the cold, tan tile and closed her eyes.

She'd cried more is the past twelve hours than she had in her entire life leading up to those hours. She didn't know how long she'd been in the shower, but she thought she heard the phone ring while she was trying to lose herself in the freezing mist.

Tilting her head up to let the water spill over her face, Thirteen let her shoulders fall. They'd been aching so much over the past few days.

Suddenly there was a knock on the bathroom door making Thirteen jump.

"Remy?" Cameron's voice asked.

"Yeah," Thirteen sighed and turned off the faucet.

"You okay?" Cameron asked resting her hands on the door, completely relived.

Thirteen stepped out of the shower and wrapped a towel around herself. Then she opened the door where Cameron was standing in her work clothes.

Cameron reached up to sweep some hair out of Thirteen's face, but her hand paused in the spot. She felt Thirteen's cheek, "Jesus are you trying to give yourself hypothermia?"

Thirteen just kind of shrugged.

"C'mon," Cameron took Thirteen's hand and pulled her to the bed. "Lay down."

Thirteen did as instructed, letting the towel drop to the floor and laying down. Cameron immediately pulled the comforter over Thirteen and then laid down next to the other doctor.

"You okay?" Cameron asked carefully stroking Thirteen's cheek.

Thirteen just looked at Cameron's eyes. "I…I'm tired."

"Then sleep," Cameron kissed Thirteen's forehead, "I'll be here when you wake up."

Thirteen nodded and closed her eyes.

Cameron slipped under the covers and wrapped her arms around Thirteen's chilled naked body. Cameron held her close hoping that it would warm the younger doctor and that it would let her know that no matter what she was there for her. Thirteen had been a little cold toward Cameron in the past day and Cameron didn't take it personally. She just wished Thirteen would see that it was okay to trust her, to let her in.

Cameron closed her eyes with a sigh and let herself fall asleep.

Cameron slowly woke up out of her deep sleep and her eyes fluttered open to see the peacefully sleeping face of the woman she loved. Thirteen had her arms wrapped around herself and was taking up as little space as possible on the bed, laying with her legs crossed and straight out.

The older doctor carefully unwrapped Thirteen's arms and replaced them with her own arms. She felt bad that she broke down yesterday and Thirteen was the one comforting her. It should have been the other way around. Or at least a mutual comforting.

She softly kissed Thirteen's exposed neck and felt Thirteen move closer to her. Thirteen snuggled deeper into Cameron and groaned.

Cameron smiled and kissed Thirteen's cheek, then her lips.

Thirteen's eyes fluttered open.

"Good morning," Cameron smiled.

Thirteen nuzzled her face into Cameron's neck and sighed.

"You okay?" Cameron asked, her smile fading.

Thirteen just nodded into Cameron's neck, her arms securing their place around Cameron's waist.

"You hungry?" Cameron asked softly.

Thirteen nodded again.

"You wanna go out to get something or I could cook…" Cameron trailed off.

"It'd be safer if we went out," Thirteen mumbled.

Cameron chuckled, "Hey I only set fire to the stove once."

Thirteen pulled away slightly showing Cameron her slight smile, "Twice."

"Okay, only twice," Cameron smiled, "But I didn't burn the kitchen down."

"Yeah…" Thirteen sniggled back into Cameron, "Where do you wanna go eat?"

After settling on a little café down the street, Thirteen and Cameron sat at a small round table near a window.

Cameron was looking out the window watching the people walk by while Thirteen watched her. Thirteen took a deep breath, "It just all seems so trivial now."

Cameron nodded, "I agree."

"I've wasted a lot of time," Thirteen added

"If you think about it," Cameron took Thirteen's hand, "Most of human existence is wasted time."

Thirteen smiled wistfully, "Yeah."

After a few moments of silence Cameron looked out the window, "It's going to rain."

"You wanna go for a walk?" Thirteen asked.

Cameron raised an eyebrow but kind of expected it. She nodded.

Thirteen smiled, "I'll go pay." Thirteen stood up while Cameron sat at the table thinking.

After Thirteen paid, she took Cameron's hand and dragged her outside toward the park. They walked in silence just enjoying each other's company.

A crash of thunder made Cameron jump and Thirteen smile.

"You okay?" Thirteen asked.

Cameron nodded, "I'm fine as long as it doesn't start raining."

Just as the words left her mouth a wall of rain came rushing toward them and before they knew it, they were engulfed in a steady, dense rain.

"See what you did?" Thirteen asked with a smile.

Cameron chucked, "Sorry about that."

Thirteen pulled Cameron into a long searing kiss, "There's nothing to apologize for."