Chapter 6

When I opened my eyes again I was laying in my bed. I stretched and realized that I must have fallen asleep as I was getting stitches. I sat up and looked at my clock. It was four in the morning. I hopped out of bed and changed into shorts and a tank top before going for my morning run as usual. I was just going out the door when I smacked into a brick wall. My forehead was throbbing as I sat down on the porch. That shit had knocked me kind of dizzy. I sat there with my head tucked in between my knees for a moment. The whole time, Sam stood there apologizing and getting me to look at him. I finally looked up and he let out a breath. "Are you trying to kill me?" I asked hysterical. I loved messing with him.

"Ava, I am so sorry. I have been so distracted lately that I haven't been paying attention."

"It's ok Sam. What's going on?" I asked.

"I can't tell you." He sighed. I raised an eyebrow.

"Does my ninja need to make an appearance and find out?"

"Ava"

"Sam"

"Why do you have to be so nosy?"

"Why do you have to be so secretive? Do you think I won't understand? Do you think I'll just up and run? What is it?" Sam started to pace. I knew I had him.

"Listen, I can't just tell you. Okay." I glared at him. As I was getting ready to yell at him, the guys emerged from the trees with Leah and Emily out of the house. I was standing and in Sam's face at this point.

"You can't tell ME but Emily knows and Leah and all these sixteen year olds who you have only talked to for a short amount of time! It was me and you Sammie…against the world and now it's you and everyone else against me!" I took off running down the path never slowing. I could hear everyone yelling for me and Jacob yelling at Sam as well as Paul siding with Jacob. I ran for what seemed like hours, letting off steam before I went back.

Its funny how one minute everything is perfect. You have your friends, old and new, your family, and a job that you enjoy. Then in the next everything becomes complicated. Your friend, a new one, has kissed you and you barely know each other, but it feels right. The same friend is hung up on a girl that doesn't love him back and he is also a student of yours. So in the mix of everything, you keep yourself at a distant in an emotional way. THEN you have been noticing how your friends act, as well as family, and realize there is something going on that only you know nothing about, while in fact everyone else does. It all kind of blows up by an unimportant act. One small thing happens and I cant keep my mouth shut.

I walked back. I wanted to keep my distance as long as I could, but I knew I would have to face them sooner or later. I was walking up the hill to get to Emily's backyard when I was suddenly grabbed. I turned around and found myself looking at Paul. "What are you doing?" I asked pulling away from him.

"We have been looking everywhere for you." He said. His voice telling me how upset he was.

"Well I wasn't that hard to find. If you were looking for me then you would have found me." I challenged.

"Where were you?"

"I went for a run like I do every morning." I began walking back up the hill when he caught my arm again.

"Listen, Sam is worried sick. There are things around here that you just don't…."

"Then tell me instead of keeping me in the dark." I demanded.

"It's not that easy."

"It could be." I stated. This time I turned around and ran all the way back to the house. Sam and the others were sitting on the porch as I rounded the house. I would have used the back door but somehow Brady and Collin ended up jamming it shut. How they managed that, I have no clue. They all looked up as I came into view.

"Ava" Sam said standing up. I put my hand up.

"Stop. I need space. I need to calm down." I replied. "There is so many things that I have to think over that JUST happened in the last 24 hours. It's a little much right now and I need to think." He nodded and I walked around him to go in the house.

"Ava, Emily and I are going to Port Angeles, so it will be a while before we are back." He said.

"Alright, just be careful." I whispered before going in the house. Everyone else left too. I sighed out of happiness before going and running a hot bath. I filled it with lavender and stripped down before sliding down and letting the heat engulf me. I had to have been there for about an hour before I washed and got out. I was glad today was an off day. I didn't have to be back to school until tomorrow. I drained the water and dried off before throwing my towel over the rack and walking to my room naked. I mean, no one was home anyway. I had just stepped out into the hall when Jacob walked around the corner. He stopped. His eyes were full of lust and I was slowly becoming turned on after seeing his excitement. I sucked in a breath as he looked over my body, admiring it, taking it in. "Like what you see big boy?" I teased.

"Ava, I'm…" he began.

"Let me get dressed first ok. I wasn't expecting anyone to be home." I had just walked into my room and shut the door when the reality of the situation hit me. Jacob just seen me butt ass naked. One of my students! I dressed in a pair of jean shorts and a black tank top before finding my black flip flops and brushing out my hair. I quickly pinned it up and walked out of the room. Jacob was nowhere to be found in the house so I went out on the porch. I found him sitting on the swing. I walked over toward him as he watched me. Taking a deep breath I sat down beside of him. "Jacob, you never saw me naked. You got it. It didn't happen. This makes two situations in one day that should have never happened." I looked over at him and I could see him gritting his teeth.

"What because I am sixteen?" he growled.

"No Jacob! That is not it at all. I forget you are sixteen because you look older, act older, and just cause feelings in me that a normal sixteen year old never could. You are so mature for your age." I sighed. He looked over at me studying me.

"Then what was so wrong?" he asked.

"Because honestly this love triangle bullshit that you are wrapped up in is not me. I don't do drama Jacob. Never have and I never will." I whispered. " Jacob, what if I would let myself let go and just go with my feelings and I fell in love with you? Instead of Jacob loving the girl that loved someone else, it would be me loving someone who loves someone else and so on. I won't be that girl. I wont love someone who doesn't love me back." I stood up and walked over to lean on the porch rail. I stood there looking at the forest until I felt heat beside of me. I looked over seeing Jacob lean down beside of me. His fingers intertwined.

"Do you care about me, Ava?" he asked. Turning to meet my gaze.

"What do you mean?" I asked. " As a friend? As more? How?"

"Just how do you feel about me?" he watched me, gaging my response.

"Jacob, I care about you like I care about all of my friends. Only, with you I am confused."

"What do you mean?"

"I mean I do not know. I feel as if I have known you all of my life. Which in some sort of way I have. You bring out feelings in me that I never thought I would ever feel about anyone. At the same time though, I can't see past the friendship stage. It could be because I don't know you, but I am not sure."

"Are you saying you love me?" he asked breathless.

"No! I am not saying that, I am saying while one part of me feels attraction, the other doesn't."

"Oh. Well, ok then." He stood up and looked down at me. "You think you will want to go to the movies?" he asked. I could tell something was bothering him, but I wasn't going to ask. I am sure he would tell me in time. I was about ready to answer when Paul and Embry came running out of the forest.

"Jake man! We gotta go, NOW!" Embry said. Jacob looked at me and then them.

"Listen to me, Ava. Get in the house and don't come out until we come back…GOT IT!" he was shaking and on edge. But something in his voice told me to listen.

"Ok. Go. I'll go in." He hugged me to him and I went inside.

"LOCK THE DOORS AND WINDOWS. PULL THE CURTAINS AND STAY AWAY FROM THE WINDOWS." He yelled as I shut the door. I did as I was told, but I was definitely confused. What in the hell was going on around here? I feel like I am living in three different worlds right now. One world being my normal life. The second being the world where Jacob and I mess around and the third being some James Bond Shit that I know nothing about. Something makes me wonder if the secret and all of this is connected. I would just have to gradually see what I could find out. This chick is going on a mission.