Much to Jens dissapointment the day was going by quickly. She was trying all day to stear her thoughts from the red head but she failed to do so and before she was ready the time had come for the last lesson of the day, the lesson she was dreading. She was nerviously setting out the equipment for the lesson when she heard the sound of the bell signalling the start. She opened the door welcoming the flow of noisey students, each one making their way to their seats. She hadnt yet noticed Tilly, she was always the first to walk though the door eggerly taking her seat ready for the teacher to speak. Jen would always notice how Tillys eyes would always light up as they were always fixed on her as she was gracefully gliding her legs around the class room while she spoke. She loved the fact that Tilly did this, it made Jen feel like a great teacher, like she was passing on her innovations and making her students see the beauty in everything. A couple minutes passed and there was still no sign of the student so Jen closed the door and began the lesson. 'Right, silence everybody...'

Meanwhile Tilly was in the toilets, her hands were clutching onto the sink while looking into the mirror taking in deep breaths. She physically felt sick inside she was feeling uneasy about attending the lesson and even contemplated not going for a minute.

'You can do this' She whispered to herself. Repeating the words over and over again trying to sink them into the present. After 5 minutes she started making her way to the classroom stopping herself at the door composing herself for the 2 hours ahead. As she opened the door she kept her head down trying not to make eye contact with the teacher. She knew if she did she would fall into a deep daydream mesmirised by there beauty. 'Sorry im late miss' she uneasily spoke as she made her way to her seat. Jen was disrupted from her flow of instructions, she looked at Tilly and noticed how she now portraied a lack of confidence unlike earlier on today. She replied with 'thats ok, just take your seat while i continue with the lessons instructions'. Jen then cleared her throat as she felt a wave off emotion flush through her body, making her feel a little more on edge.

All the while Tilly just sat in her seat with her head down fiddling with her hands, trying to distract herself from looking up. The Teacher noticed this as she was speaking, she didnt like it she started to feel concerned for Tilly worried that she may have truely hurt her. This thought made the teacher quiver along with what she was saying. She needed to let the students get on with their work so she could relax and try to distract herself with some marking. she finished with 'now you know what to do everything you need is on that table if you need any help or have any questions then feel free to ask' As soon as she finished speaking she slumped onto her chair and started marking some work.

The lesson was shortly over and everyone was in midflow concentrating on their peices. Jen had so far sucessfully avoided looking in Tillys direction. On the other hand Tilly was unable to concentrate she had been attempting to complete some work but failing several times screwing up the paper before starting again. After yet another failed attempt she gave up and admitted defeat. She slouched forward putting her head in her hands closing her eyes. George showing some concern for his friend tapped her shoulder and asked if she was ok, she told him she was just really tired and couldnt concentrate but reasured him that she was fine. Persuing it no further and thinking if something was wrong she would tell him he carried on with his work after giving her a slight smile. This didnt go unnoticed by Jen, she sore how Tilly was sitting and was worried for her. 'is everything ok tilly?' the teacher softly spoke. After waiting a minute for a reply she stood from her desk and stood by the teenager placing her hand on her shoulder while repeating herself. This shocked Tilly out of her daze as she felt a gental hand being placed on her. 'yes im fine' she replied but Jen could see she had tears forming within her eyes. 'could you come with me for a moment please tilly, i would like to speak with you about your work' Tilly couldnt help but raise her eyebrows and with no reply she followed the teacher into the small room attached to the classroom. Before closing the door for privicy Jen spoke to the students so it wouldnt raise suspision 'i wont be a minute guys, im just discussing work with a student' she closed the door and turned round to see Tilly perched against a small desk infront of her.

'What about my work Miss Gilmore?' Tilly asked. She knew Jen didnt want to talk about work but she couldnt help but try to act oblivious to the concerned look on her teachers face.

After a minutes silence Jen looked up and spoke with a worried tone to her voice 'Tilly, i know this situation is hard between us but you cannot let it affect your school work. Your a bright pupil and i would hate for this to ruin your education'

Tilly immediatley snapped back at Jen without any hesitation 'What do you care?'

Jen was taken back by the sudden out burst she immediatley said 'i care alot Tilly, you have no idea how much i care'

'Well youve got a funny way of showing it, if you really cared that much you wouldnt of dismissed me so easily without any regard for my feelings, now ive got work to do so exscuse me Miss Gilmore' Tilly then started walking towards the door to make an exit, she was suprised by what she had said but she was not going to act like a pushover around Jen anymore.

She was suddenly stopped by Jen who had placed her arm on Tillys pulling her around so she was now facing her. 'Tilly please... just let me explain'

'Get off me'

'Pleasee...just meet me so i can explain why i did it' Jen now had tears forming in her eyes, she swallowed hard trying to fight them, prevent them from falling down her cheeks and expose her vunrability towards the was a couple minutes silence between the two women.

Jen had come to quickly realise that she couldnt fight it any longer, she couldnt stand another minute of the pain she was feeling. She needed to tell her how sorry she is and how she can no longer fight her urges and the need to be with the person infront of her.

Jen broke the silence, scared if what she is about to say will be rejected. She was about to break down one of the walls around her, going against her head and following her heart.

'Tilly..i .. i need you, more than youll ever know. Im not strong enough to deny these feelings that are growing inside of me anymore. Please, just let me make it up to you... let me take away the hurt i have caused you' All the while Jen looked down at her feet, scared of what Tilly was going to say to her speech.

Just then the bell went and Jen could hear the students on the otherside of the door, but she did not move, she just continuted to look down. she was about to speak again when...

All of a sudden Tilly barged past Jen with her head down, she didnt want Jen to see the tears that were now streaming fast down her face. Jen just stood there crying with her back towards the door way. Tilly picked up her bag and ran out of the classroom and out of college. She hurried herself home where she ran upstairs not wanting her parents to see her in this state and have to answer their questions. She threw herself face down onto her bed and cried for what seemed like an enternity.

Tilly was utterly shocked by what Jen had said, it was the last thing she expected to hear from her teacher. She didnt know what to make of it, was jen really sorry? she must be as she never shows any type of feeling or emotion. She always has her gaurd up. Tilly sooo scared, she wanted to be with Jen more than anything, she had from the first day she met her at the gallery but she couldnt handle being hurt by the bruntte again. Tilly was in love with Jen but she didnt want to fall madly in love even further for her heart to just be ripped out. She doesnt think she can survive it a second time round. Shes torn between her head and her heart, her head is telling her to stay away but her heart is saying otherwise.

After confrounting her fears of opening up Jen went home and went straight to her room trying to aviod eye contact with Diane as she knew she would recieve an array of questions from her. She closed her door and burst into tears and hid herself beneath her duvet. All the while many thoughts running through her mind...

I need to have her in my life, i am not complete without her, she is the only woman i have ever truely loved! Nothing or knowone has even come close to what i feel for her. I need to confront my fears and tell her how much she really means to me, i need to stop acting scared of what might happen or im going to loose her forever. This revilation shocked Jen, she hadnt really thought of never having Tilly in her life ever again. There was always a small wim of hope inside her that this will never happen, she thought that they maybe in the futre be friends. But now she's realised they can never be friends after such feelings have got involved. 'I have to get her to forgive me and make her see that i can make her happy without all the pain. I just need a plan...Jen's thoughts reeled into the late night until she fell into an exhusted she was going to try and win back Tilly Evans.

But how?

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