Part 35 Tears of Anger

I was sitting at my desk and looking up at the people stood before me. I was pleased to see them, Naruto, Sakura, Tsunade, Kakashi and the rest. I suppose Keitii had really turned my life around even if she didn't realise it. I missed seeing her greatly but with one thing and another we were both tied up.
"I can't believe you're getting married Gaara it doesn't seem two minuets since we were in the chunin exams." Naruto grinned widely.
"Yeah remember when Gaara lost his nut?!" Kankuro laughed. The Shukaku had been fully formed with me not conscious and I owed it to Naruto for snapping me out of the Shukaku's grasp. I glared and Kankuro.
"Kankuro-baka you can't speak to the Kazekage like that even if he is your little brother." I rolled my eyes and then there came a knock on the door.
"Enter." Everyone turned around to look. It was one of Keitii's wedding team. "What is it?" She looked flustered.
"I-It's Keitii she's passed out and she's in the ward and the medical-nin don't know what's wrong with her." My eyes widened and I clenched my fist.
"You can all stay in Sunagakure as long as you like but I'm sorry I have to go see to my fiancé."
"No problem I hope she's okay." Naruto clapped me on the back and I followed them out of the door. I sped down the corridors a great speed, I was determined not to lose her! If she was indeed on her deathbed then I wanted to be there with her but I mustn't think the worst. I spotted Keitii's guard outside a door they bowed and let me enter. It was a clean room and very white, Makaiko was sat down on a chair next to Keitii and she looked distressed as she kept running her hand through her hair. Keitii lay there her hair splayed out on the pillow, her face was drained almost of colour and her eyes were closed. She had never looked so fragile and weak with monitors beeping. Was this the reality of what her father had done to her? Had forced her to do! I knelt down on the other side of the bed and took her hand in mine, it was still warm and I breathed a sigh of relief. Her eyelids did not flicker and all I wanted was for her to be like when I met her. The feisty, quick tempered girl. But I had to face the fact that she was slowly dying before me and I was helpless to do anything. I clutched her hand wishing she'd spring up and cry rape. I just wanted to make her better back to her usual smiling foul mouthed self but I knew those days were slipping away quickly. I kissed her hand and she did not stir she just laid there still her eyes closed.

"Keitii you're," my heart did a drum roll in my chest, "Pregnant."
"W-what?" I said shakily not quite believing what I'd just heard.
"The reason you're levels were everywhere is because you're descending from the peak of the stars chakra anyway and you're carrying a child also with the stress caused the collapse." I was speechless. How could it? One night? "It's early stages but we can tell within a few days of the pregnancy and you're almost two weeks but we advise you don't tell many people unless you miscarry."
"Is that likely?" I asked.
"Well the risks of the strain your body has endured over the years means you could miscarry, give birth prematurely, the baby could be born with abnormalities as well." I looked down at the covers letting my hair fall over my face. "I suggest you tell the Kazekage yourself and we will check on your progress in 3 weeks time." They exited.

I stared down at the sheets my hair hiding my tears from Makaiko who I could tell was looking at me. I shook with holding the sobs in. How could I tell Gaara? How could I have been so stupid?! I hated myself for letting my life get this way.
"K-Keitii-chan?" I did not answer. She'd tell me I was a stupid fool for what I'd done.
"Go on then tell me I'm stupid for getting myself in this mess." I sobbed and looked up at her.
"Well you can't change it now what's done is done well I don't know what to say but congratulations!" She grinned. I shook my head and wrapped my arms around my knees.
"Congratulations what do you mean?!" She sighed, she'd done her best to try cheer me up but she wasn't generally good at those things. "How am I going to tell Gaara? How can I be a mother? How can I leave a child alone and motherless at the age of 4?!" I cried in to my knees. I couldn't tell Gaara I mean how would he react? I couldn't be any kind of mother at sixteen and what would happen when I did die, I couldn't tear a child's life apart like that! Makaiko shook me roughly.
"Keitii-chan you've got to tell Gaara!" She looked serious and more frightening than she ever had. "You're great at looking after little kids I saw you at the academy and I know you don't want to leave the child without a mother but you'll have to it's the facts of life!" There was a knock and Makaiko let go of my shoulders and I dried my eyes best I could.
"Come in." Mitsuri walked in.
"Are you okay Keitii?" She looked concerned.
"She'll be fine in a minute or two." Mitsuri nodded and closed the door.

Later that day I was discharged Makaiko walked with me. "You've got to tell him."
"I can't though."
"But you have to!"
"Keep you're voice down."
"Okay but he is the father he has a right to know unless you've become a," she gasped and pointed an accusing finger at me. "Prostitute!" I cracked up with laughter for the first time in a while.
"No I haven't in case you wanted an answer and I just won't be able to bring myself to." I felt something latch on to my shoulder and I looked down. Makaiko had done this before she was biting on to my shoulder. "Let go Makaiko-san."
"Not until you promise you'll tell him," she said and it was slightly muffled by my jumper.
"Fine I promise to tell him then." She let go and I wiped my shoulder. We headed in to the Kazekage manor and I had well wishers coming up to me, none of them knew of course but they were all nice none the less.
"Does this mean I can start learning to knit?" I snorted.
"Ha yeah I could imagine you knitting."
"Okay fine but we can go shopping for little booties!"
"Makaiko-san ssshhh I don't want people knowing."
"Knowing what Keitii-chan?" Kankuro and Temari walked around the corner.
"Nothing I'll tell you later." Temari looked at me with concern.
"You better go see Gaara he's really worried about you, I've never seen him like that." Makaiko looked at me, it was now or never.
"Right I'll go see him now then."
"Good luck Keitii-chan." Makaiko smiled and the two siblings looked confused. I didn't know how to tell him. Hey Gaara I'm preggers! Or hey Gaara I have a present for you it's called a baby! Okay I didn't really plan on that course of action. Maybe slip it in to the conversation, hey Gaara how's the wedding plans, by the way I'm pregnant lovely day isn't it? Somehow I thought that one wouldn't work. All too quickly I was outside his office. The guard opened the door for me.

"There's someone here to see you Kazekage-sama." Gaara had been pacing and stopped then looked towards the door. He sighed and hurried over to me and held me close and tightly stroking my hair, breathing in my scent.
"Keitii-han you're out thank god! I thought you were at deaths door." I smiled.
"I-I'm fine."
"What was the reason for the collapse?"
"O-oh nothing."
"Keitii-han please don't insult my intelligence," he sighed and lifted up my chin, "What's wrong?"
"Nothing I'm fine."
"Your eyes say different, please tell me you can tell me anything."
"But I don't know how to." I pulled away.
"Please tell me," he whispered softly in my ear.
"I-well do you remember the night we got back?"
"Yes."
"Well- Gaara I'm sorry!" He looked startled and a single tear ran down my cheek.
"What are you sorry for Keitii what's wrong?" He asked and sounded worried. I took a huge shaky breath.
"I-I'm...going to have... a baby and it's yours." More tears ran down and I wiped them on my sleeve. Gaara had stiffened. "Gaara?" I touched his shoulder he didn't move. "Gaara please talk to me." Nothing. "Gaara say something!" I yelled through the tears. He slammed his fist down on his desk.
"Get out," he hissed menacingly, I jumped backwards terrified of what he would do reminding me forcibly of my father. I waited a few tense moments then ran out of the door.

My vision was completely blurred by tears streaming down my face, I could hear my guard hurrying after me and I rounded a corner in to a deserted corridor and slid down the wall.
"Keitii?" Mitsuri knelt next to me. I just sobbed in to my hands and refused to get up and laid on the floor just letting the tears silently stream down my face. "Someone go find Kazekage-sama."
"No not him." The first time I had never really said his name in a sentence.
"Makaiko then." A guard disappeared and a few minutes later Makaiko, Kankuro and Temari were by my side. Makaiko lifted me up off of the floor I probably looked like a wreck.
"Keitii-chan?"
"He's angry so angry," I sobbed in to her shoulder.
"What's happened Keitii-chan tell us?" Kankuro said. I was supported back to my room and I sat on the bed. Temari closed the door and sat down. "Keitii-chan what's wrong what happened?" I controlled my sobs so I could speak.
"I-I'm pregnant!" I wailed Temari went white and Kankuro's jaw dropped.
"I-Is it Gaara's?" I looked up at Kankuro and nodded, he looked dumbfounded.
"Well how did he take it?" Temari asked.
"I-I told him and then he just didn't speak, slammed his fist on the table and told me to get out."
"I'll go knock some sense in to my little brother!"
"No," Temari said quickly, "For one he's the Kazekage and could beat you, two give him some time to come round before you go barging in their with your big mouth and put your foot in it." Kankuro spluttered and I gave a nervous little giggle.
"Well you do have big feet Kankuro," Makaiko said looking down at his feet.
"Will everyone kindly keep my feet out of this!"
"Okay okay back to serious business about what to do about Gaara, Keitii and their baby."
"I better go talk to him you know man to man."
"You're a man?!" Makaiko said in surprise, Kankuro rolled his eyes.
"Well anyway I say we've given him long enough to cool off, do you want to come as well Temari?"
"I'd better do to make sure you don't mess it up." I looked up at them.
"Look thanks."
"Don't mention it." And with that they strode out of the door.

Makaiko whistled and looked side ways at me.
"Alcohol?"
"None for me I have to look after the child all I can." She sighed.
"Don't worry he'll come around."
"I'm not so sure he will."

Anger coursed through me like poison. How could she?! My position I'd worked so hard for would be ruined! There was a knock on the door.
"Come in," I said viscously.
"Gaara we need to talk to you." I glared at them had they come to tell me I was sacked from my post?
"What about?"
"Keitii and your baby."
"As far as I'm concerned it's not mine." They both shook their heads, I was the Kazekage how dare they challenge me!
"Gaara you're a father whether you like it or not, Keitii was in a right state after she left your office!"
"Don't you raise your voice you might be my older sister but I am Kazekage!"
"I thought you might put your fiancé and child before anything but the fact is you're scared of being a father aren't you?!" The truth was that I was scared of turning out like my father had. How would I know how to act?
"It's your fault as much as hers Gaara." I looked up at Temari fierce determination blazing in her eyes. I glared then seemed to slump in to almost helplessness.
"I suppose I am scared of being a father and not knowing how to be one."
"I know father wasn't a great role model but you seriously scared Keitii and she's in pieces, if you're not careful this could affect her and the baby's health." I looked down at my papers ashamed at what I'd done.
"Where is she?"
"In her room."
"What should I say to her?" I asked not knowing quite what to think.
"How about you're sorry at how you reacted and that you want this baby." That did seem like the right course of action.
"Also Gaara I think she's worried about well from what we can gather about leaving a child alone in the world without a mother and if she sees passed it's birthdays in to a young child at three and if they see their mother die like she did even if you're sixteen or three that child will remember it now go to her before it's too late to get her back!"

"Well if he doesn't come round then it's his loss and I say you get away from Suna either tag along with me, Deidara and my lovely brother or go back to Hoshigakure."
"I couldn't raise my child in a criminal organisation!" Was she off her rocker? "And I won't go back to Hoshigakure again if I can help it."
"Well suit yourself then," she said flicking her tail back and forth.
"Oh come on imagine Deidara and Hiroaki as babysitters." Makaiko burst with laughter. "It's not funny I bet you'd love your Dei-chan in a fetching pinny."
"Yeah him and kids!" She was crying with laughter.
"Although Hiroaki would be like a Michael Jackson probably."
"Who?"
"It's best you never know," I said with shifty eyes. There was a long silence that followed neither of us wanting to bring the mood down. After about half an hour I spoke with my voice a whisper. "He's not going to accept the child it's been half an hour, what happens if he doesn't want to marry me anymore?"
"Keitii-chan he'd be a stupid fool not to, personally I think you've given him enough chances." Makaiko wasn't the most patient of beings.
"Before the wedding we were fine but-" There was a knock on the door. "Come in," I said tentatively. Temari and Kankuro walked in, I knew it he didn't want to see me again, my heart sank and I looked away from them all down at the floor. Tears welled up in my eyes.
"Keitii-chan," Temari said tentatively. "He's outside-"
"He is?" I asked not believing it through my watery vision and blinked back the tears.
"Yes and he says that you don't have to." I sat in thought for a while.
"What has he come to say that he never wants to see me again?"
"Look just listen to what he has to say." I looked at Kankuro and Temari then sighed.
"I'll see him but alone."
"Keitii-chan are you sure that's a-"
"I can look after myself Makaiko-san."
"Not in this state you can't."
"Makaiko I just wan to hear what he has to say but not in front of everyone else." She pouted then exited with the others.

Gaara entered and my breathing was getting a little quicker and my heart beating faster. I seemed to almost shrink away from him and he stopped where he was.
"Look Keitii-han I-"
"Hate me, loath me for letting this happen and you don't want anything to do with me anymore?" He shook his head.
"I knew it was no good talking to you."
"What do you mean it's the truth isn't it?!" I yelled at him. "The way you looked at me when I told you, the way you spoke to me go on admit it!" He just shook his head silently as I did not suppress my rage. "If you hate me so much then be a man and admit it then I can carry on with my life and my child's and go somewhere else and find a father to care for it!"
"Keitii stop it!" He grabbed my wrist. "Keitii I don't hate you!"
"Oh stop lying-"
"Listen to me!" He was getting angry and I didn't want it to turn in to the arguments I saw between my mother and father. "I do still want to marry you and I want this child to grow up here with both parents!" We just stared in to each others eyes. "Keitii I'm sorry at how I reacted alright and I know your scared but well I'm scared that I'll be a bad father." Then I took in what he was actually saying. "I know you didn't mean this to happen but it has and we'll bring up this child."
"You really have accepted it now?" I asked disbelievingly.
"Yes please I'm sorry."
"I know," I whispered and he came to sit next to me. He lifted my chin up with one finger and kissed me gently. I snuggled up to him on the bed, he put his hand on my stomach and rested mine on top of his. Gaara sighed heavily and I looked at him.
"Look Keitii-han I am so sorry but I can't stay here any longer I have to get back to working." I smiled.
"It's okay I can't stop you doing something you love." We walked out of the room hand in hand and kissed goodbye, I watched him down the corridor. Makaiko appeared.
"Finally I thought he'd killed you or something!" I gave a small smile to myself and just looked at the spot where he'd just disappeared.