Part 40 Nightmare

I flung myself down the long flight of steps tumbling down them knocking my head and joints. I started to feel dizzy and sick. Then I hit the floor at the bottom landing on my stomach the suitcase had skidded to a stop a few metres away. I lay in a crying, sobbing heap on the floor as I heard, Gaara, Temari and Kankuro running towards me I started to push myself up. My arms started to shake, I hoped that I hadn't damaged the baby; I hadn't really thought it through in my blind fury. An arm grabbed me turning me over carefully that had been a long flight of steps. It was Gaara and for a moment I wondered what was doing on the floor with Gaara looking down at me so worried. Then I had the sinking feeling in my stomach as my world crashed around me with the force of an atomic bomb.
"Keitii-"
"Get away," I hissed. I stood up my legs were aching after that and I limped over to the door. I attempted to open the door handle but found sand blocking my way.
"We need to talk," Gaara said seriously, his tone wasn't soft it was a command.
"I don't want to hear anymore," I said glaring at him. Temari rushed up to my side touching my arm but I jerked it away from her. "Let me out," I whispered.
"No," said Gaara.
"Let me out now," I said through gritted teeth.
"No," said Gaara simply.
"If you ever want the remotest chance of seeing the baby you'll let me out." My tone was cold and distant right now I want to lash out at Gaara but I knew it would be unwise seeing as I wasn't in any fit state. After a moments hesitation the sand dropped and I turned the handle but Gaara turned me around quickly.
"Please just let me explain."
"No, I don't ever want to hear from you again." I slammed the door shut and ran down the streets letting tears flood down my face. I had no idea where I was going to go but one thing was for sure, I wasn't coming back here again. Kotaro looked sad as he rubbed his neck against my head. I walked up the steps leading me to the walls of Sunagakure dragging my feet and the suitcase.

I took one last look at Suna sad to be leaving but in the end I knew it must've been too good to be true. Now I really did have well no-one, my family was already dead and now my new family had turned foul. I sighed as I walked out of Sunagakure, the night was now cold the bitterness whipping about my face. I looked around, Gaara had accepted that I wasn't coming back due to the fact there was nobody tailing me. I sighed racking my brains to think about where I could go that wasn't too far away. Suna wasn't too far from the border of the wind country which as it happened bordered with a country that wasn't a ninja one, it would be perfect well for now at least. I started walking using the stars for direction to help guide me towards my intended destination.

The door slammed and her red-headed form whipped out of sight. In less than an hour Keitii had left me the one person who had given me happiness was gone for good and hated me through no fault of my own. I had to think fast she wouldn't want someone trailing after her but I couldn't leave her out their in her weakened state. I had to get Keitii back no matter what the cost she was too precious to loose like this.
"I want all of the surrounding villages who we're allies with alerted to look out for Keitii if I can't follower her I want to track her movements."
"But Gaara for one what has happened?" Temari said, "And two I will go after her in the morning and when I find her I'll try persuading her to come back."
"She saw someone kissing me and it was forced upon me and she just got angry." Temari sighed heavily.
"This girl is more trouble than she's worth."
"I love her and I am going to do whatever it takes to get her back now go do what I said I need some time to think," I said walking away and running my hands through my hair. I just prayed that she'd find somewhere safe to go for the night and that she'd be okay. If anything happened to her I could never forgive myself and if anyone dared touch her there would be hell to pay.

I had started to shiver but I was almost at the border and couldn't resist speeding up the process with chakra. There were some hills at the edge of the border that I clambered up to get a better view of the place and how far away it was. I could see something in front of some great gigantic things which I assumed were mountains about 6 miles away or so. They way I saw things I had two options or three if you counted going back to Suna which I was not going to do. One I could continue walking and not use my chakra and freeze my arse off or two, I could use chakra get there quicker to where I would be safe but I would be weakened quite considerably. Right now I was more in fear for my life out here so I gathered the chakra and then ran at a high speed parting the grass. I ran so fast that I didn't realise that the grass had begun to be covered in snow as I drew closer and closer to the village. I felt a stabbing pain that went diagonally across my body; I screwed my eyes up but kept on going about a mile away I slowed to a walk. My breathing was shallow and painful with my chest heaving, I sat down on the suitcase, I needed to break. I was starting to feel dizzy so I shook my head I was not passing out here. Kotaro landed in front of me cocking his head to one side looking at me sadly.
"Don't worry mummy's fine we'll be there soon," I talked more to myself than Kotaro. I clutched at my side but I saw by the pale moonlight a shadow cast across me and I looked up in to a little face. She had quite large dark eyes surrounded by blue eye-shadow and dark pink lips. The girl couldn't have been much older than 6. She wore a short blue kimono; the neckline was black and had kanji on it the sleeve's hems were light brown suede. Her long dark hair was in a high bun with a red and black pin and some strange black and white material tiara. I looked and saw she had a box in her hands.
"Hello," the little girl said smiling.
"Erm, hello."
"Why are you out at night it's just silly?" Her tone was light and cheerful.
"I-"
"Aya don't run off like that, sorry is she bothering you?" I looked up at the woman she was beautiful with dark brown curled hair a long white dress with a short red jacket over it. The snow was still falling and I looked up, she was older than me. "Oh but why are you out here all alone and your face has bruises and cuts on?" She touched them lightly and I winced.
"Do you come from that village over there?" I asked.
"Yes we do my name's Takashi Harumi," she said giving me her hand and helping me up.
"Yanagi Keitii is that a ninja village?" I asked quickly.
"Ninja? No, no it's a regular village, it's the Village of Crystal we don't live in any ninja country to that fact we live in between them." I sighed looking back the way I'd come. "You can tell me why you are here on the way back you don't look fit enough to look after yourself." She picked up my suitcase as I held on to her arm limping slightly.

As we walked through the snow slowly Aya skipped in front of us clutching her little box. "So why are you here and in such a terrible state?" I tried to breathe deeply as it was becoming painful.
"I came from Sunagakure it's in the desert and I am married to the Kazekage there but it's turned sour," I clutched at my chest. "I caught him cheating but I am going to have his baby, I couldn't take anymore and I have no-one left, my family was killed in front of me and now my best friend is going to die as well I have had enough of the shinobi life!" I sobbed letting my salty tears drip and glistening melt delicate little snowflakes.
"Oh my dear but that still doesn't explain how you're in this state." Her eyes were wide and concerned. I bent over double then collapsed on to all fours and threw up all over the perfect pure white snow. My arms were shaking and Harumi knelt down and helped me up.
"I have used a ninja technique ever since I was young and it ages me rapidly, I'm only sixteen and I won't make it to twenty." Her eyes were glistening. "Don't cry I am fine really I just wish I could be around for when my baby grows up but I threw myself down the stairs because I was distraught I thought he loved me," I laughed wiping away tear, "I think I knew that in my heart of hearts that it was too good to be true." I could see detail now highlighted by the moon in this new village.
"You seem to have had it pretty rough by the sounds of it and to think some of the girls and boys in our village would admire your lifestyle." I suppose ninja were superior to others due to our strength and intelligence. The entrance to village was in my sight now and we must've been about 100 metres away. The entrance was a great white marble archway white stone wall surrounding the village. There were some guards with swords, although they probably weren't ninjas they were probably experts at ordinary sword techniques. They were of course useless at fighting off attacking ninja. We walked through the villages with small snowdrifts in front of buildings to clear the roads of any snow for safe passage, the street life was bustling and lively with people mulling around in pubs to the occasional midnight shop.
"How far are we going?" I asked taking a sharp in take of breath, I still clutched to her arm like some old decrepit person.
"Not far it's just a couple of streets away." I nodded as I saw people turning to stare, there clearly weren't many injuries here and I had the forehead protector still on. "I'll call for a doctor when we get to the house because the hospital is at the other side." As we rounded the corner a beautiful house came in to view. The house had a bottom level with wooden panels on the top had an outside staircase and a balcony all the way around. There was a warm glow of a light and Aya skipped up the steps and ran inside. I on the other hand had to go more slowly, it wasn't easy going up the steps but I managed it swaying on the spot slightly. There were two men stood in the doorway one was older and clearly the father of Aya the two had the same eyes.
"Harumi- oh who's this?" The man said as I was set down on some cushions the younger of the men looked at me with interest.
"This is Yanagi Keitii and she's in a bad way I found her out on the moors."
"Pleased to meet you Keitii my name is Hotaka, Harumi is my wife and I believe you've already met my daughter Aya." I nodded with my arm wrapped around my stomach, Kotaro landed next to me. "This," he indicated the younger man in the corner, "Is Kiyoshi my son, Kiyoshi come over and great our new guest." He moved towards me and I noticed his features now. A shock of white spiked hair and grey eyes, he wore a black jacket on top of a black shirt, his trousers were smart and black and around his neck hung a black cross. He knelt down beside me and from one ear dangled a silver cross earring.
"Hello Keitii you wear a forehead protector are you a-"
"Yes I'm a ninja and of high ranking this is a Sunagakure one," I took it off with one hand handing it to him. I lay back on the cushions with a painful sigh.

"Kiyoshi we're going to fetch for a doctor and pick up a few things look after Keitii, Aya is coming with us." The girl skipped out of the room and Kiyoshi smiled at her exiting back. His voice had been deep and calming he looked about 18.
"Would you like anything to eat or drink you must've had a long journey." I nodded staring up at the ceiling. He quickly went away coming back with a glass of water and I drank it. "You can have dinner when they get back I'm not much of a cook really." I sat up again.
"Oh so what do you do then?" He had been looking at a wall but turned his gaze back to me.
"I'm a student teacher at the local highschool, I teach sport." He looked at me with interest. "How did you come to be here a ninja such as yourself never comes to our villages?"
"Well I left Sunagakure and I didn't really want to go far and this place was closest." He nodded and plumped up the cushions so I could sit comfortably.
"What is the ninja life like then?" He could tell I didn't want to talk about my dealings with Suna.
"Its fun at first but sometimes it is the last thing you want to be." He frowned and gave half a smile. "It's a dangerous job and is far from pleasant seeing those you love die at the hands of others."
"Ah.... How old are you?"
"Sixteen and yet an accomplished ninja." He cocked his head to the side.
"You just seemed very mature, when you're well enough I could take you in to the village if you like?" I nodded.
"That would be lovely thanks and remind me I'll teach you some basic skills if you want?"
"That would be most enjoyable incidentally expect a lot of attention in the village."
"Why?" He laughed his face breaking in to the first proper smile.
"You're a ninja people look up to you, be careful about the men as well mind you, you won't have problems getting rid of them," he said with a wide smile and I laughed even though my sides hurt. "Why did you leave- Suna wasn't it?" I nodded grimly my face dropping.
"Well I am married to the Kazekage and I thought he loved me but then he cheated on me stupid fucking bastard and I am carrying his fucking child as well he left me with nowhere to bloody go!" I yelled in my rage and Kiyoshi jumped back a bit in surprise.
"Hang on you're sixteen, you're a ninja, you're female and using very er flamboyant language." He paused thinking. "And you did you say?" I nodded sadly.
"Early stages but, yeah, I can't even drink god damned alcohol but yeah basically I am in a bit of a fucking mess."
"You don't say, well you're welcome to stay we have plenty of room but don't you have any other friends?"
"My best friend will be dead soon and my team mates were slaughtered and my family died bundle of joy and laughs I am." His eyes widened.
"I'm sorry, you needn't be especially my father stupid git," I muttered under my breath. I looked up. "What?" I asked innocently and he burst out laughing.
"You are the most outrageous and unusual girl I have ever had the pleasure to meet."
"Normal's boring." I heard voices and feet pounding up the steps as the paper panelled interior slid apart. A doctor stepped in his hair black and short, he wore glasses and a neat suit. I don't know that he could do anything I mean come on he wasn't a medical-nin.
"Hello Keitii I heard that you threw yourself down the stairs and travelled far yet you're pregnant?" I nodded confused, he was being patronising and I would not have any fear in biting his head off. "Well I don't think your injuries will have affected the baby-"
"Look you're no a medical-nin so there is nothing you can do I should be okay in a couple of days due to my chakra so I think you just better go home unless you can fix a broken life then you can't help," I said bluntly. He nodded sadly and sighed.
"Just give me a call if there are any problems." I nodded and he exited.

"Keitii?" Said Harumi, I turned my gaze on her.
"I've fixed up a room for you Keitii, Kiyoshi do you want to take her to it?" Kiyoshi helped me up and let me use him as almost a crutch. Kiyoshi slid the panelled door open where a low bed was, the room was nice enough and he set me down on it.
"If you need anything I'm just across the hall, at least I finally have someone around my age to talk to sleep well Keitii." He said smiling and shutting the door. I knelt up slowly on the bed and opened a window looking out at the moon and its star filled sky. Even though I hated him right at this moment I missed him and it was wrenching my heart in to two fragile pieces to know that I wouldn't see him again. I wiped my tears away, I wondered what he was doing right now, I sighed heavily drifting off in to a restless sleep full of nightmares.

I wanted to see her again so much, she'd only been gone not even a day yet I missed her. I had to go after her if she was not found because life without that laughing and outrageous person I loved was not worth baring. I punched a wall hard in my frustration, how could I let this happen?! I let the good thing, the best thing that ever happened to me slip away and was possibly gone forever. In the morning I'd work on getting her back, I just hoped she wasn't hurt; I just wanted her back, so much.

Now that you're gone,
It's too dark at night.
It's constantly cold.
And nothing seems right.

Now that you're gone
It hurts to be alone.
I can't stand it here without you
Afraid and on my own.

Now that you're gone
My world means naught,
I'm sorry for what I said,
And all the times we fought.

Now that you're gone,
I can't seem to find my smile.
I didn't think I'd lose it yet,
At least not for a while

Now that you're gone,
I can't help but yearn
For the love that we had
And the day that you'll return

Now that you're gone
And have left me behind
I'm loosing my focus
And have already lost my mind.

Now that you're gone
Nothing else will matter
Each day I'm without you
My heart won't cease to shatter

Now that you're gone
All it does is rain,
The heavens seems to weep
As if they feel my pain.

Now that you're gone
I just want to cry,
Because I curse that night you left,
When we had to say good-bye.

Now that you're gone
I only want one wish,
For you to come back
And give me just one kiss