when Jen entered the apartment she heard noises and sobs coming from the bedroom. She walked to the doorway to see Tilly packing, she hadn't yet noticed Jen.

Then Jen spoke hesitantly.

"Tilly, let me explain please" Jen said with tears in her eyes. But Tilly just ignored her and carried on packing, she was too angry at her to talk right now. She just needed to get away from her, she was still trying to process what Claire had said. She was merely in shock still.

"Tilly pleaseee, just listen to me. I can explain everything!. please dont go!" Jen by this point had tears running down her face. She didnt care whether she let her walls down in front of Tilly anymore. She just didnt want to loose her.

Still nothing, no reply, no reaction. Tilly just continued packing. Then Jen went over to the other side of the room where Tilly was and placed her hand on her shoulder. Tilly stopped what she was doing and turned her head slightly to look at Jens hand.

"Get off me" she gritted through her teeth. She then looked at Jen before continuing.

"I dont want to hear it Jen, youve ruined everything"

Jen just stood there not knowing what to say. Tilly had finished packing, she walked through the apartment and just as she was about to leave. She was putting her jacket on. when Jen said...

"I love you"

This made Tilly even more angry, she thought how dare she say that to me after shes been hiding this for all this time. Shes engaged for god sake, She doesnt love me, she doesnt know how to love anything.

"How dare you! ..you dont love me, you never have.. You dont care about anyone other than yourself!"

"You know thats not true, i do love you. Would i be risking everything for you if i didnt"

"Jen! your engaged... or did you forget that?"

Jen had to get Tilly to hear her out, she knew if Tilly walked out that door now she wouldnt want to see Jen again.

"Just hear me out and if you still want to walk away from me... then ok, i wont chase you" She cringed at the last part of her sentence.

Tilly was just about to pick up her bags but stopped after Jen said what she did. She turned around to face Jen, walking over to the kitchen she poured herself a glass of wine.

"Can you pour me one" Jen asked.

Tilly just looked at her "Youve got 5 minutes Jen"

A couple of minutes passed in silence, Jen didnt really know where to start. There was soo much she needed to say but she just couldnt do it. She needed to tell Tilly everything but she has been so used to having her guard up, it was a struggle. She had never spoken about her ex after she left her and never really thought about her up until these past couple of days.

"Fine, im going" Tilly went to move to collect her things.

"Ok! ok!... ill talk, sit down"

so Tilly sat down on the sofa. She made sure she distanced herself from Jen and made sure she didnt look at her. She didnt want to fall for those mesmerizing eyes, the beauty in them were enough for anyone to fall at her knees.

"Me and Claire were together for about two years, the first 7 months or so were great, we got on so well. So we had the idea of moving in together and we got engaged, i was so happy. Until from one day she started going out alot and not telling me where she was going and some nights i would wake up and she wouldnt be there next to me"

Jen took a deep breathe and wiped the tears running fast down her cheeks.

"i fount out she had been cheating on me and i confronted her, she didnt deny it at all. She kept deeply apologizing for it and i was stupid enough to forgive her. But from that day it wasnt the same between us. I would be out all the time hanging with my friends and partying while she was out too. I didnt love her but i couldnt leave as i felt like i had no where to go and she was controlling. well, one day my dad passed away with cancer, it was soo sudden and know one told me he was dying. I was soo close to him and my family just wanted to protect me.

Anyhow, i didnt speak to anyone about it, i would snap at people for no reason, drink alot and go out partying all the time; until i fount comfort in Claire's sister, We had become good friends and i would use her for an outlet of emotions and talk to her about everything. But one night we got very drunk and we slept together, Claire caught us. She didnt say anything she just left the room and stayed at her parents for the night. I didnt feel sorry for her at the time, i felt sorry for myself. I had to get away and make a fresh start and sort myself out so i left London, i left a note on the table which said i need a break, im sorry. i didnt want to say i was leaving for good, i didnt want to hurt her anymore than i just have. The only person that knew was Sophie. I hadnt heard from Claire until 2 months ago she sent me a message saying Take as much time as you need, ill be waiting for you. i love you. i just ignored the message and carried on with my life.

Not for one second did i want to go back to her. We werent in love. It was just convenient at the time, it was physical more than anything. But i promise you Tilly it was over a long time ago, i feel nothing for her"

Jen just looked at Tilly though her glass glazed like eyes. Tilly had her hands to her temples trying to process the information.

She didnt shout, didnt raise her voice. she just simply said.

"Youve been engaged this whole time"

Jen instantly replied and protested "I haven't, i split up with her before i moved here"

Raising her voice Tilly said "Jen, you left without saying anything, not forgetting after you slept with her sister...How was she to know that"

"i know, i know" Jen said while placing her head in her hands.

Tilly got up off the sofa, collected her belonging and looked at Jen. "Your not the person i thought you were, this was a big mistake, youve lied to me all this time... and if you cant be honest with me then what have we got ey?..nothing"

Jen immediately lifted herself up and skipped the couple of paces towards her.

"I love you so much, ive changed, im a different person Tilly... please, i cant loose you, "

"You just have" she simply replied.

Tilly turned and left, as soon as the door was closed she broke down into heavy sobs. leaving Jen open mouthed, she slid down the door with her knees tucked into her whilst she hugged them. Tilly, please come back! im sorry. Jen broke down crying.

what do you guys think?

Ive also got more drama coming up!

Thanks, E xx