2 days have passed after Tilly left Sophies apartment, leaving Jen alone crying on the floor. After that moment Tilly got a train back to Hollyoaks, she couldnt bare to look at Jen at that point, she just had to leave. She needed time by herself to think about everything; she knew that if she let Jen explain things further or apologize anymore then she would surely forgive her. Thats all Tilly had done in the past, forgive and forget. But not this time, she was determined to make Jen see that she couldnt do this to people anymore and most certainly not Tilly, she needs to be honest with herself and others.

Jen decided to go home after the disastrous weekend, she was glad she had another week off for the holidays as she dont think she could face anyone at the moment, She barely came out of her room. .Jen had sent Tilly multiple messages, begging for her forgiveness mainly which Tilly did not respond too. Jen was going out of her mind, she needed to see Tilly. Jen cant blame her for not wanting to talk, she wouldnt be surprised if she didnt speak to her ever again as Jen knew she didnt deserve her forgive-ness but she wanted to try because even the thought of Tilly not speaking to her again churns her stomach. It makes her feel physically sick.

After being in her room constantly for 2 days, being cooped up with only 4 walls surrounding her and not forgetting those walls which are a constant reminder of Jen with the pictures of Crosby beach and the statues. Tilly needed to get out and get some fresh air.

she decided she would go for a run, she never used to go for runs but recently at first she used it as a chance to clear her head but sometimes it was for pure enjoyment, feeling the fresh air hitting her face where she was in a world of her own or just to simply let some steam off.

Jogging down a stoned path through the park, headphones in her ears. She wanted to listen to knowone, just paying attention to nothing more than the path in front of her, no one explaining anything or pointing out her mistakes. She was her own master.

Thus she had to build her mind, to discipline it, to make it strong. At this point she had the danger of giving up, slacking, slowing down. She was trying to reach a goal, not always as sometimes she just ran for no purpose. But she lives her life as 'there is always a purpose in everything you do'. She gave this run a purpose to forget about her worries of recent actions, discussions and a vision, Jen.

During this run her mind started to change, she became more confident, feeling as if she was able to control her body and mind in a different manner, a more efficient one.

Feeling free, away from the stare of others, with her judgment of people around her. She became blind to those people who are around her as she now reached a clearing. A field and a track.

She was enjoying the fresh air hitting her face and skin, which lit up in the sun stunningly, her freckles more apparent than normal. Sweat gleaming off her forehead down to her chest. She was now focusing on her legs, the way her thighs would tense up with every stride she made, she felt good.

For the first time in a couple of days now she had forgotten about a certain someone, perhaps running was now her favorite thing to do. After passing the fields of independence and confidence she came out into the village. She felt a rush of thirstiness and decided she would go to get herself a ice cold smoothie. She walked through the village, head held high with a smile on her face, taking long confident strides.

However she was stunned out of her feeling of bliss as she had just turned a corner and bumped into the one person she so wished she was able to hate.

"Tilly!"

There it was, that voice. That sweet sweet voice she loved listening to in class so much. All of a sudden everything went blurry. Her breathing quickened uncontrollably, she was loosing control 'you can do this, you are your own master' she pleaded to herself. Tilly so desperately needed to get away from Jen. There were a couple minutes silence as the two former lovers studied each other.

Jen noticed how stunningly beautiful Tilly looked at this moment, her nicra shorts clinging to her legs making them look longer than normal. The sweat that has built up on her chest making her skin gleam in the sunlight. Her vest skin tight making her breasts stand out from her slim stomach. Jen couldn't, help but stare at them as her breathing quickened in pace.

Tilly noticed how tired Jen looked, how exhausted and red her eyes were. She really did look deflated, defeated and on the break of giving up on everything. She looked miserable and on the verge of crying.

"Excuse me" Tilly spoke, putting Jen out of her thoughts of how sexy Tilly was looking.

Jen placed her hand on Tilly's. "no wait, i need to talk to you, im going out of my mind Tilly, ive missed you soo much you have no idea, just please theres something i need to say to you"

Will Tilly listen to what Jen has to say?

Will she find it in herself to forgive Jen?

The next chapter is a big one, more drama and it should get another reaction from a few of you...

Thanks, E xx (Let me know what you think of the story so far, i love chatting to you guys and also other authors)