"well thats tough, YOUR the one thats done this to us, YOUR the one that destroyed us" Tilly said though teary eyes.
Jen just stood and looked at Tilly, she was speechless. Tilly had always forgiven Jen for her actions but she wasnt letting it go this time, she was really hurt. Jen knew this and she hated herself for it, she just wanted to see that beautiful smile again, that cute laugh, those soft lips and her memorizing eyes that would light up at Jen when she was excited.
Tilly started to walk away but before she could Jen spoke again. Raising her voice a little in urgency.
"just give me a couple of minutes to tell you something and then i will walk away. I will never bother you again because i can see how much ive hurt you, so i am willing to if its what you want...just a couple minutes up there so we can talk"
Jen then pointed to the top of the bridge that overlooked the deli and the gym.
Tilly didnt talk, she just looked down at the ground then walked up to the bridge. Jen followed her, she was so grateful that Tilly has given her the time to talk, even if it was for a couple of minutes. Jen didnt think she would ever talk to her again and to be honest, neither did Tilly.
As they reached the top of the bridge, Tilly leant her arms on the edge, she used it to support herself as her legs felt like jelly at this point, this talk could really be a decider on the rest of their relationship...or lack of.
Jen took a deep breathe composing herself for the biggest speech she thought she would ever have to make.
She started speaking.
"I know ive done wrong, i was soo stupid to keep that from you; but i was scared. I knew that if i told you, you wouldnt want to know me. I was messed up back then, for one i was in a situation that i couldnt get myself out of. I got involved with Claire and then i couldnt get out. Before my Dad died he warned me about her, he didnt have a good vibe towards her and i didnt listen. I couldnt move out and go to his house, I was just stubborn and i didnt want to be given the 'i told you so' speech, but then it was too late and she had a control over me. But you must understand that i never wanted to be the person i became back then, i didnt know what i was thinking as my head was all over the place, my dad, Claire, her sister. Everything was soooo fucked up. But then i realized that i cant keep going in the direction i was and i thought to myself 'if my dad could see me now, he would be soo disappointed' and thats what made me realize the most"
Jen stopped for a minute or two to wipe the tears on her face. Her thoughts turned to her Dad, She smiled to herself.
"Since my Mum walked out on us when i was 12, i used to always be in my bedroom drawing, painting, creating different things, i never used to think they were any good but whenever i finished one i would show it to my dad straight away. Always. As i knew he would praise me anyway. But one day he said something to me, something that i will never forget to this day. He said 'Anyone can paint or draw a picture but you my dear are an artist and do you know how i know that? ..because everything you have been through so far in life makes you the artist you are' and i promised my Dad that i would make him proud one day. When he went i felt so alone, that was until i met you Tilly. You make me who i am today and for the first time in a long time i know who i am.
Im someone who cant wait to wake up every morning, just so i can picture your face. Im someone who is a better person When I'm near you and when you're away I'm only half the woman I want to be and if you give me one last chance i know i can make you happy and
being happy doesn't mean that everything is perfect. It means that you've decided to look beyond the imperfections. So im begging you Tilly, try and look beyond my imperfections"
Jen couldnt see Tilly's reactions as she was still facing with her back to her, looking down from the bridge ledge. Jen waited about 5 minutes for Tilly to respond, but she didnt say anything and she didnt move.
Jen had given up, there was nothing more she could do to make Tilly forgive her. She felt exhausted, sad and beaten. She walked down the steps, she didnt want to see anyone, speak to anyone and she certainly didnt want to go anywhere, except far away. Far away from her former lover. She couldnt face her everyday at college if she couldnt have her, it would hurt too much.
But through her loud sobs she heard her name being called, that sweet voice she loved to listen to so much.
"Jen!" Tilly shouted from the top of the bridge, still in her same position.
Jen turned around and looked up. Then Tilly said three words to herself, visually clear so Jen could see.
"i love you"
From where Jen was standing she made out what Tilly had just said. She beamed the biggest smile in the world.
Then all of a sudden a car came around the corner at high speed, the sound of its breaks screeching Jen to attention and out of her loving daze and in that split second she looked up at Tilly. It was too late for Jen to move.
BANG!
The front of the car impacted Jens legs sending her crashing into the bonnet and then rolling down onto the pavement in front of the car.
Jens pov.
I am confused. I couldn't tell which direction I was facing, nor from where the voices came. I heard phones click to life from people calling emergency services. Strangers ran to assist me, and an angel, my angel. Tilly took my head in her hands kneeling over me, her calm reassuring voice a comfort unlike anything Ive heard before. With my head cradled in her grip, I knew I could 'let go' I was moaning out of fear and out of pain. I couldnt move but i didnt want to as all i wanted to do was look at the beautiful sight in front of me. A shot of pain rushed through my body suddenly, it made me jerk in agony. But i didnt scream, i couldnt. Blood started trailing out of my mouth as i then tried to speak my last words i thought i would ever get to speak again. Tilly leaned closer so she was able to hear me. "Thank you, i will always love you"
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