The weak and fragile older woman looks towards the door as she hears her name being said. She feels as if her eyes are playing tricks on her. She blinks hard just to make sure. She's here, it's really her. Tilly walks closer to her bedside enabling her to come into better focus for the brunettes weak eyes.
'Tilly' Jen let out in a croaked and husky voice behind her breathing mask.
'Shh its ok Jen, im here' Tilly replies as she places her hand gently onto Jen's whom are spread effortlessly beside her.
Tilly looks down at her girlfriend. She shakes her head as tears start to form in her eyes. She feels overwhelmed and lost for words as she examines Jens delicate state.
'You look so helpless lying there; I wish I could take your pain away…' Tilly says in a quiet voice as she looks into Jen's deep brown eyes. She blinks away the tears which have now brimmed. They fall, creating a small pool onto their intertwining hands. Tilly gently lets go and moves away, turning her back on her lover. Tilly looks away and uses the back of her hand to wipe her tears.
Jen can't help but just look at her younger lover with tears in the own eyes, she's unable to say anything; as she knows she won't be able to control her breathing and shaky emotions. Tilly has now been standing for a minute with her back turned, wiping away her tears as they continue to fall at pace. She takes in a deep breath and turns to face Jen, who again just looks on as Tilly begins to speak again.
' I've been coming everyday out of visiting hours, just so I don't get caught. I've been so worried. I didn't think…' Tilly chokes on her last words as she tries to keep her tears under control.
She continues 'I didn't think I was going to see you again; I love you so much Jen, I really do…..You're going to be ok, I promise'.
Jen groans in response to her girlfriends little speech. She lifts her hand, struggling to find strength within her to lift the mask off her face.
'Let me' Tilly says as she gulps back more tears. She gently lifts the breathing mask off her face with a shaky hand and places it down onto Jens chest.
With a couple of deep breaths Jen opens her mouth 'I love you too Tilly, so much.' her breathing quickens, but she doesn't care; she just lets out a faint smile and moves her hand to touch her younger lovers. Tilly replies with the biggest smile Jen has ever seen. Tilly lifts her hand and brushes Jens fringe as it lay partly over her eyes, escaping its neat place.
'you're going to be ok babey' Tilly says reassuringly. Jen looks on, smiles and nods in response; barely having the energy to speak any words.