Memories of the Heartby Betty Bokor
Sam/Daniel. A mission goes horribly wrong while Sam's life is changed forever. Spoilers: All seasons, including 10 to the end.
Disclaimer: The Stargate original characters belong to MGM/Showtime, Double Secret Productions, and Gekko Film Corp. This was written strictly for the purpose of entertainment. No attempt at copyright infringement has been closed his eyes. He did not want to see. He could remember enough.

Memories of the Heart

Chapter 46

A.N. This section contains dialogue about sex. There is nothing graphic, as always, but enough to help the imagination. If you feel offended by this kind of writing, please, skip this section. You will understand the story anyway.

While Sam was fixing a late lunch by the stove, Daniel approached from behind and softly hugged her. She felt there was something wrong.

"Do you still feel you shouldn't be doing this?"

He chuckled. "Just a little bit." He got closer to her and kissed her cheek. "There, in the bedroom, we were different than we always are. Here, in the kitchen, you're back to normal Sam and she was forbidden to me."

"Was."

"I know." He turned her in his arms and kissed her. Then, he asked, "Do you need any help?"

"No, it's almost done." She finished cooking and they had lunch. He was quiet and pensive and Sam thought it was strange. It worried her.

"You haven't said a word since we started eating," she tried.

He looked down for a second. "Just thinking." He looked at her. "So much has changed in a few days. I'm free, I'm back home, I have a son and the twins are coming… and then, I have you. It's almost too much."

"Are you okay?"

"Yes, I'm okay. Just a bit overwhelmed. It will take a while until I get used to all this goodness."

Sam smiled. She stood and started picking up the table. When she was close to him, she could not resist and stroked the back of his head. "I love this short hair here, the way it feels when I do this." She stroked it again.

"Do you want me to keep this haircut?" he asked with a smile.

"I like that your hair is growing back, but this little section from the nape of the neck…"

"You'd like a cut more like Cameron's?"

She sighed happily. "I will like it either way." She gave him a small kiss. "What do you want to do now?"

"Let's go to the library upstairs. I want to give you something."

"Okay."

Once in the library, he searched for a while. "You said all my books are here, right?"

"Yes. Teal'c and Jack put them there."

"So it could be anywhere." He searched for another while and then he grabbed a book from a shelf. "Here it is."

"What is it?"

"The Kama Sutra."

Sam laughed a little. "The Kama Sutra? You've had that there all along?"

"Sure. It's an ancient Indian text, written in Sanskrit by Vatsyayana, and it gives a very interesting view of the society of that time."

"So, interesting because of the language and because of the historical value, eh?" She asked with a hint of sarcasm.

Daniel smiled and opened the index page. "Look."

"Is it in English, too?"

"Yes, it has both versions. This is an old translation."

Sam looked at the page he was showing and was surprised. "The Attainments of Virtue, Wealth, and Love… The Arrangements of a House and Household Furniture… The Daily Life of a Citizen, His Companions, and Amusements? Are you serious?"

Daniel smiled again. "Most people think this is about very complicated sex positions, but it has a lot more. Look at this."

"About the Wives of Other People?"

"It teaches how to win over the wives of other men in order to have sex with them."

"You've got to be kidding me."

"No. As I said, it tells a lot about those times."

"But it does have the sex part, right?"

"Sure, here, On Sexual Union, this is all about the Sixty-Four Arts. They thought there were eight basic ways of making love and they had eight positions within each of those, so that made it sixty-four."

"It sounds interesting," Sam said with a smile.

"I thought you'd like it. There's more. Just skip Chapter II of Part VII."

"Why?"

"It just gives me the creeps." He smiled. "Now you'll read it to know what it's about… I think it only hurts if you're a man. Probably it won't bother you," he half-faked shivering.

"Oh, come on. Now you have to tell me."

"No… It's just about how to get better if a man is not… It involves piercing, let's say." He shivered again.

"Ouch… Okay. I won't read it." She smiled. "You always amaze me."

"Don't give me too much credit. Just think that, after all these years, I still don't know how to re-wire a D.H.D."

"More re-crystal, I'd say," Sam corrected playfully.

"My point exactly."

"Well, we all have our strong suits."

"Yours amaze me."

"Thank you," she got closer and hugged him. "Let's get ready. They'll be here soon." As they walked towards the elevator, she thought that now that he was remembering some of his Ancient knowledge, maybe he would know how to build a D.H.D., but that was not the point. Even if he knew, that would never be his specialty.

When Jack and the others came back from their visit to Glen Eyrie, Sam called Jack and Teal'c apart and explained what had happened with Daniel's ribs during the weekend. First, Jack was mad that she had not called him immediately, but then he calmed down when she added that the weekend on their own had given her the chance to talk to Daniel about their relationship. Jack and Teal'c did not ask for details, but were happy that at least something was moving along. They both knew of the plans that the committee for the public Stargate had made for Daniel in less than a month and they also knew they would start asking him to work with them very soon. The more stable Daniel's private life was, the better.

Daniel felt very uncomfortable. He did not know how to act around Sam when the others were present. Just in case, he kept a good distance from her while they had visitors. While Teal'c was helping Jack pack his stuff to move back to his house ─Daniel was almost healed and Jack did not want to be in the middle─ Daniel had a chance to talk with Sara. He liked her and it made him happy that Jack was going back to her.

On Monday morning, Jennifer was waiting for Sam by her office.

"Is everything alright?"

"Yes. It's just that Rodney and I spent the whole weekend figuring out a way to get Daniel to heal his leg."

"Are you serious?"

"Yes. I think we got it. Rodney is setting things up in the Infirmary. If Daniel is willing to do it and you approve, we can try."

"Sure. Let me take care of a couple of things in my office and I'll go meet you there. Would you mind explaining it to Daniel? I'm sure he'd take the chance."

"Where is he?"

"In his office."

"Okay, we'll see you soon."

Sam walked into her office and started reviewing the papers Walter had left her ready on the desk. She wanted to be done quickly. She really wanted Jennifer's experiment to work and she wanted to be there with Daniel when it happened.