Epov

I had just told Bella I wanted to be with her, and she just took off. I was confused.

Then I thought back to what she told me, Rose, Jacob, and also Charlie. All great I'm a ass. I really should of gone about this a different way damn it.

I took off running back to the campsite so I could talk to Bella but when I got there she was gone.

"SPLASH!" I heard something hit the water. I arched a brow. "HEEELLLPP!" I heard Bella scream out but it sounded kinda muffle.

Wait, splash water, Bella sounding muffle. Shit she in the river. She told me she was clumsy but I thought she was joking.

I took off at a sprint down the river until I saw Bella in the water. "BELLA LOOK AT ME!" She turned her head and looked at me and she look like she was panicking.

"BELLA HOLD!" I yelled out to her.

I ran ahead to where I could get in at without being sweeped away myself.

Then I found where a tree was down and hung on to it as I walked into the water as I reached the end of the tree I looked for Bella.

She kept going under and she was where I couldn't reach her. "BELLA I NEED YOU TO FOCUS!" I yelled out to her. But she was still panicking.

"DAMN IT SWAN, I NEED YOU TO FOCUS!" That's when she looked up and just nodded at me. "I NEED YOU TO SWIM START SWIMMING TOWARDS ME AS HARD AND FAST AS YOU CAN." I told her. I don't know what she was thinking but all of a sudden she started to swim towards me.

She finally got close but I noticed she wasn't going to reach me. So with still hanging on to the tree with one hand as tight as I could, I walked out as far as I could and she almost went past me until she grabbed my hand.

I pulled her up to me and held her close to me as I pulled her back to shore and fell over.

"Alright when you said you were clumsy I thought you were joking!" I told her. "Nope! I told you was clumsy and I wasn't joking." She told me.

"What the hell were you thinking walking by the river anyways?" I asked her.

"Actually to tell you the truth, I wasn't thinking. I was scared."

"Bella, I'm sorry I should of gone about it a different way and telling you." I told her.

"Edward, it wouldn't of matter it still would of scared me. I don't.."

I stopped her.

"Bella, don't! I understand your scared. But I'm not going anywhere, will you trust me damn it! All I want is to be with you."

"Edward if you let me finish, I would of told you the minute I hit that water is the minute I realized well what I was scared of is what I already felt for you!"

I looked at her confused. "What!" I said. "Yes, I'm scared, but I'm scared of losing you because I'm afraid you don't feel the same way I do. Sure we have the same passion for the speed of racing and alot of other things. But I didn't want to lose that either. I was afraid afraid you saw my scars you walk right out of my life for good.

And to tell you the truth Cullen I just couldn't bear to lose you because.."

She paused and closed her eyes. "Because as stupid as it sounds but I fell in love with you. I just couldn't handle my heart to be broken again when you just put it back together."

I looked into into beautiful chocolate brown eyes which was full of tears now. "What you just say?"

"That I love you Cullen and I couldn't stand my heart to get broken again after you just put it back together!"

"Now I know I should of approach this a different way, because it's not stupid Bella, because I love you to. In the few months I know you and the more you tried to push me away, it just made me want to be with you more.

But when I thought I lost you last weekend, that's when I realized I loved you." I told her.

Bpov

"You love me?" I put into a question. "Yes, I love you, more than you will ever know." He told me. He took his hand and gently put it on the side of my face.

"I don't want to lose you either Swan, and I'm just as scared as you are. I'm not afraid of you racing bikes or cars, I'm afraid I won't be enough for you. I'm afraid that what if she doesn't want to be with me the way I want to be with you Bella!"

I gasped. He really wanted to be with me and had all my fears except for the scars. "You really want to be with me?" I asked him, as my heart started racing and I could tell I was breathing heavy not from still trying to catch my breath from being in the river either.

This was from wanting him. The deep need to be close to him. He leaned closer to where he was only inches from my lips and I could feel his breath on me.

"Yes, I really want to be with you!" He said as he pressed his lips to mine.

He licked my bottom lip to ask for permission to explore. I granted him permission, as he did me. I wrapped my arms around his neck and gently tugged his messy wet hair.

I felt him wrap his arms around me and pulled me closer to him. We finally pulled away and he leaned his forehead against mine. "No more walking off by yourself. I don't need you falling in the river again."

I leaned my head back and started laughing. "To think my stupid clumsiness almost ended all!" I told him.

"Oh, no I still would of got in and saved your clumsy ass!" He chuckled. He got up and reached his hand out. I took it. He wrapped his arms around my waist.

"You never answered my question Bella!" He told me. "Hmmm, and what question would that be Cullen?" I asked with a smart ass look on my face.

"Will you be with me. I don't me we have to.." I stopped him and pressed my lips against his but it wasn't as long. I pulled away. "Yes I'll be with you." I told him.

He put the biggest smile on his face and I ended up squealing when he scooped me up off my feet. I started laughing.

"Edward put me down!" I finally told him. I shivered as my feet hit the ground. "Are you cold?" He asked me. "Yeah, alittle."

"Come on let's get you back and you change out of those wet clothes and I will start a fire." He told me.

It was dark by the time we got back and I noticed Edward walked in the other tent.

I walked into my tent and sat on the floor of the tent. As I pulled my boots off and socks off. I thought about what just happened.

I started to feel the need to be closer to him. But when I stripped down to my bra and underwear I looked down to the big scar just below my panty line.

I remember what the doctor told me, that I was lucky it glass shard completely missed my uterus, but they still took one ovary. Because it was damaged.

The I put my hand across left breast over my bra. It had the shifter go through part of it so I'm missing some of my breast. It may only be a small chunk but it's noticeable.

I close my eyes still scared of this. But at this moment I made the biggest decision. One I wanted to be with Edward more than anything.

Two, I needed to know for sure, because beside Rose he be the first one that would see my scars.

I stood up and grabbed the blanket off the air mattress and wrapped my self like I would a towel, knowing full and well I had only my bra and underwear on underneath and there was no turning back.

I walked out and walked up to where I was a few feet behind Edward and he was kneeled down by the fire adding more wood to it and he already had his cloth changed.

"There you are, I thought I was going to have to call Rose or something to go in and get you."

I didn't say a word to him. I just stood there quite waiting for him to turn around to say anything. I was scared to death, and I knew I needed him but I had to know to.

He finally turned his head and did a double take and ended up falling on his butt. I giggled when he did that.

"Bella what on earth are you trying to do give me a heartache?" I started laughing and walked over to him.

"No, that wasn't my plan!" I smile. "Then what are you doing?" He asked me looking up at me.

"I made the biggest decision I could ever make!" He looked at me confused. "But does that mean you have to come out here in just." He swallowed hard. "A blanket!".

Then it dawned on me he told me he never had a girlfriend. "Well, I have a little more than just the blanket on." I told him smiling as I kneeled down in front of him.

"Then what are you doing?" He asked me. "I told you I made the biggest decision and I know what I want but I also have to know something else to." I told him.

"Bella you don't have to do this, I love you no matter what and I'm willing to wait if I have to." I smiled when he told me that.

"No, Edward I need to do this, but I know I want to be with you too." I told him. I stood back up.

"Bella you really don't have to do this!" I was a little frustrated why he was trying to stop me.

"Why, are you stopping me from doing this Edward? Unless you really don't want to see." That's when my heart sank. I went to turn around and walk back to my tent when I felt Edward hand on my shoulder.

I stopped and closed my eyes with tears falling. "Bella, don't! I just don't want you to rush anything your not ready for."

I turned around and looked into his green eyes. "I've never been more sure of anything then I am about being with you like this." That's when I looked down to the ground and took a deep breath and let the blanket fall to the ground.

"I want to be with you Edward and I want to give myself fully to you!" I finished telling him and looked back up into Edward eyes again.

He started to search eyes. Then he stepped closer and took his hand and gently put it on the side of my face.

My heart was racing again and I started to breath heavy. I couldn't take my eyes off of Edward eyes.

He gently pressed his lips against mine he pulled away to quick and he was gone from my eye site. My breath hitched.

I wanted him close to me again. I wanted to feel his hand against me again. Then he appeared again. I looked back into his eyes again he went to reach for me but I stopped him.

I closed my eyes and slowly reached behind me and undid my bra I took my one arm and covered my breast as I took my other and lowered the straps of my bra and removed my bra and dropped it.

I finally dropped my arms and just waited. When I opened my eyes Edward was standing in front of me. He was looking at me then looked back up into my eyes.

He leaned over and whispered in my ear. "Your beautiful to me Bella!" That's when I let out a breath I been holding in.

I couldn't believe what words such small words keep break down the rest of the walls I had built up around my heart and make me want him more, I wanted to feel what only he could offer me.

And that was his love. He pressed his lips against mine again and I wrapped my arms around his neck as I granted his tongue permission inside my mouth as he did for me.

I felt his hands grip my waist and pick me up not even breaking the kiss.

To be continued.

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