The concluding conclusion! Yayness! And OMC Bonfire night is tomorrow. Und ich liebe die fireworks! I'M SO EXCITED. Ich bin pyromaniac!! xD (You can ask Caitlin, it's true. And, for the record Caitlin, I changed itch. Are ya happy now?)

Date: 4th November

Character: Edward/Bella

Stimulus Word: Breakeven viii

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing

Not that breathing is a necessity. While I was with Bella, Breathing was a good thing. It made me more human. And I have not been alive in oh-so-long. Too long, perhaps. It would be better if I removed myself from my family's presence; I only cause them more pain. That would be better, I think.

Just prayed to a god that I don't believe in

There is no god. If there is, then what did I do wrong? What did I do, to deserve this? No-one should have to go through this. No-one.

Cos I got time while she got freedom

She is free of me, finally. Free to live her life the way that nature intended. She will go to college, get married… maybe even have kids. She deserves that. If anyone deserves happiness, it's her. But perhaps I am biased…

Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break even

I hope that he is happy, because I am not. I hope that wherever he is, whatever he is doing, he is happy. I hope that there is some point to this. I hope that this is worthwhile, in some way. I hope the he benefitted from my absence, even though it is painful for me. I hope that it was a clean break, for him. I hope for many things.

The one thing I do not permit myself to hope for is his return.

What am I gonna do when the best part of me was always you
What am I suppose to say when I'm all choked up and your ok
I'm falling to pieces
I'm falling to pieces
(One still in love while the other ones leaving
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven)