CHAPTER 20
Kagami slowly awoke the next morning in a strange bed. The rising sunrays peeking through another tattered curtain warmed her face and she twitched several times until she lifted her eyes and they were met with the burning light. Her vision was blurry at first but as her eyes adjusted to the intrusive light, Kagami was finally able to pull herself up in the bed. She nearly shrieked in terror when she realized she was naked and quickly held the bed sheet over her breasts and looked around.
The bedroom was nothing short of an ensemble from a horror movie set. The walls were painted black with satanic symbols also painted in red with trails moving downward resembling dripping blood. Paintings of demons and scenes of humans and even animals being tortured were also painted on the wall with the symbols. On one of the walls, a large crucifix was hanging but the figure nailed to the cross was a fake decomposing skeleton. Kagami's eyes quickly caught movement on one of the dressers and saw a fish tank used as a cage for two black scorpions being kept as pets and were in the midst of eating two baby mice. Kagami continued looking around the room and saw many candlesticks, some in gothic designs and were covered with melted wax. The candles sitting in them had been burned down completely and some were still smoking with Kagami unaware that they were used to illuminate the room last night when she and Miyakawa slept together. Other weapons including swords, axes, and a mace were also scattered around the room and above Kagami's head was the ceiling fan, the blades of the fan replaced with replicas of human femur bones, at least Kagami assumed they were replicas. A large lamp was also standing in the corner with a human skull as a cover, Kagami once again assuming it was a replica.
The doorknob slowly turned and Kagami winced when it turned but breathed a sigh of relief when Miyakawa walked inside with a towel wrapped around her naked body and one wrapped around her hair as she got out of the shower. When she saw Kagami was awake, she paused and started laughing.
"Well good morning sweetheart." She giggled and sat down on the bed with her. "Well, you did great on your first dance so I rewarded you and I must say…you really know how to give a woman what she wants."
Kagami blushed and quickly hid under the covers. "Cut it out! Don't go there its embarrassing!"
Miyakawa giggled again and began to rub Kagami's body hidden underneath the covers. "Don't be embarrassed, Kagami. We had a great time, especially you, you dirty girl. You made me feel things I've never felt before. I'd be proud if I were you."
Kagami pulled herself tighter under the covers. "Don't be mean, Yuka. But did I do good last night? Really? Was I beautiful? Because that means so much to me. I just…I just want to do well and make the people who care about me proud."
Because Miyakawa had a corrupt and deranged mind that went above and beyond the definition of psychotic, she was able to smell mental illnesses in anyone and when she inhaled the scent Kagami gave off, she knew the twin-tailed girl was suffering from something. She had an idea that it was some kind of personality disorder and knew that Kagami needed attention along with constant validation and praise or else she would collapse. To Miyakawa, encountering a girl like Kagami with a disorder like that was a wet dream because she had the manipulating skills that could brainwash her into doing whatever she wanted, as long as she continued to tell her that she was perfect in every way. Last night with the dancing and sleeping together was only further proof of it.
"You were incredible, baby girl." Miyakawa whispered softly for her while still tickling Kagami underneath the covers. "You were right about that shrine maiden costume. Wherever you got it from it definitely made the customers go wild and I've been hearing some of them say you're sexy enough to go up for bids at an auction. Maybe you and I can do it together. I wouldn't even consider something like this if you weren't perfect in every way."
Kagami slowly lifted her head out from under the blankets. "Do…do you really mean that?"
"Do you trust me?" Miyakawa asked playfully.
The twin-tailed girl slowly came further out of her shell with a nod.
"And you must remember that those people who claim to be your parents…they don't love you. All they do is ridicule and scrutinize you. Your family doesn't love you, Kagami, but we do. They don't understand how talented you truly are at this lifestyle and they'll never want to understand." Miyakawa continued. "Your late sister Matsuri showed she didn't care about you with how she treated you after you met Ryuji after the party and you decided to cut loose a bit and have a few drinks. Your mother definitely doesn't love you if she went bat-shit crazy over a few inanimate objects that you needed to help get your fix. To me, that's being cruel and sadistic to a beautiful creature like you."
Kagami looked away. "But…but Tsukasa always was…"
"What? There for you? Or were you there for her and nothing more? She doesn't love you, she just wanted you around to do everything for her. I bet she was the kind of girl who 'forgot' things when you were in school like notes or textbooks and you had to be there to bail her out." Miyakawa continued meticulously. "Oh my dear Kagami, she just saw you as a tool to get her through life. I bet she's already forgotten all about you and has moved on to leech off another innocent girl. Your family…they're no good. But don't worry, Kagami, we are…and we'll always be here for you. Always."
Kagami continued to glance around. "After all I've done for them? After all the love I showed them…and for them to treat me like that? You're right, Yuka, they're the worst. I never want to go back there."
Miyakawa formed her infamous teeth-bearing grin. "Of course. Please stay with me, Kagami…forever."
Kagami looked back at Miyakawa. "Yuka…I…I…I love you."
"I love you too. Come here." Miyakawa said and lowered herself to Kagami and kissed her gently. When they pulled out of the kiss, Miyakawa added, "Look, there are a few other things we need to talk about. I was talking to Ryuji a few hours ago and he's been telling me a few unsettling things about our drug business. We may need to make a few changes and we'll need your help of course."
Kagami tilted her head with intrigue. "What do I have to do?"
"Well we're going to have to start knocking over pharmacies now because they sell normal medicine that can be used to make cheap meth. The gang we used to do business with is starting to cut us off with that drug and a few others." Miyakawa informed with bitterness when speaking of their soon-to-be former business associates.
"Why are they cutting us off?" Kagami asked.
"The official reason is supply and demand. Prices are going up and they want us to pay more for less. But I think there's more to it than just that. I think they just want us out and move on to clients that'll bow to their every whim." Miyakawa replied. "We're not afraid of them and there were a few instances when push came to shove and we think that a conflict may be on the horizon with these fuckers."
Kagami barely understood the dialogue regarding the schematics of the looming drug conflict. All she heard was that her addictions were at risk again and she wasn't going to let more withdrawal set in. Miyakawa was still talking but Kagami had gone over eight hours without her latest fix so her words were about as clear as nails in a blender. Kagami interrupted Miyakawa and asked where she kept the goods so she could stay focused on everything. Because Miyakawa was who she was, there was plenty of crack and some remaining crystal meth in her nightstand drawer, which Kagami wasted no time in smoking.
When Kagami got her fix back and she felt as close to normal as she could get again, Ryuji came by a little later to give a few updates. They were planning on shoplifting from local pharmacies around the area for specific drugs, mostly cough medicine and cosmetics that had specific chemical elements that once isolated from the drug, could be used to cook homemade meth. Though it wouldn't be the same quality product as they were used to, the average junkie on the street or first time users wouldn't notice the difference unlike experienced professionals like Ryuji Katsumoto and Yuka Miyakawa. Kagami of course was onboard, especially when she knew that her two friends would have her back.
Later that day, the three partners in crime arrived at their first pharmacy and began to put a coordinated plan into action. While they sat in their van and dressed in normal street clothes to attract less attention, Ryuji took out a normal cigarette while Miyakawa unscrewed a small tube of light yellow liquid. Ryuji dipped the tip of the cigarette into the yellow liquid and lit it up. The yellow liquid was PCP and as Ryuji continued to smoke the cigarette, his nerves began to numb and he was now immune to any pain. Someone could either break a glass bottle over his head or shank him and he wouldn't feel a thing. It was all a part of their plan.
Ryuji and his cousin walked into the pharmacy together holding hands to give off the impression that they were a dating couple. Miyakawa had to hold onto her cousin and make it look like a convincing act because one of the side effects of PCP was losing one's balance so she was propping her cousin up. Before they entered, they instructed Kagami to wait for two minutes and then enter the pharmacy and immediately head for the cold and flu section. When the twin-tailed girl did just that, she simply waited for the signal to grab as much Sudafed and other drugs containing Pseudoephedrine salts as possible and stash them in her purse. Kagami didn't have to wait long.
A sudden crash echoed in the pharmacy, followed up by the sound of glass shattering and Miyakawa instantly screamed her lungs out. It grabbed the entire attention of the crowd in the pharmacy and everyone, including all the store workers, rushed over towards the back to see what had happened. Ryuji got on his knees and when no one was looking, he drove his head through the glass door of a soft drink refrigerator, shattering the glass and cutting his head open, though he didn't feel a thing.
The large puddles of blood on the floor and all over the shattered glass was enough to send the pharmacy into a panic as Miyakawa's screaming acting voice aided in this. "Oh god, my boyfriend! My boyfriend! He isn't feeling well and that's why we're here! Someone please help him! Help him!"
Concerned onlookers instantly got on their cell phones to call for an ambulance while Kagami made her move. When all the attention was on them, she began piling box after box of the drugs into her purse as she breathed deeply and trembled with pulsing adrenaline. It only took a matter of seconds until she cleaned off the entire shelf and her purse was filled to the top with the stolen drugs and she began to make her exit. Kagami was able to escape the pharmacy and Miyakawa watched her leave without incident, prompting her to keep her act going.
"Come on baby, we need to get you home and stop this bleeding!" Miyakawa said and was even able to release a few tears as she pulled her cousin up and began leading him to the front door.
The customers in the pharmacy and some of the workers tried to intervene and keep the faux couple there until the ambulance could arrive but Miyakawa remained persistent. She practically had to get physical with some of the onlookers as they tried to keep them nearby until professional help arrived but it was no use. Miyakawa carried Ryuji's arm over her shoulder out of the pharmacy and they got into their van. The onlookers watched in shock and confusion at what just happened and the strange couple began driving down the street until they rounded a corner, where they saw Kagami running with all her might until she turned her head and saw the van.
The vehicle slowed down and the sliding door opened with Miyakawa holding her arms out and Kagami threw her the purse. When it was secured in the van, Miyakawa pulled Kagami in and the team continued their getaway. It would be the first of many successful robberies that day in pursuit of their filthy career choice that also furthered Kagami's downward spiral. She had no idea that simple shoplifting would eventually lead her down the road of gruesome bloodshed and murder.
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A large white door opened at a luxurious home across town and Miyuki Takara stood in the foyer of her home as she answered it upon hearing the doorbell ring. She had to look down slightly and saw her blue-haired friend in Konata standing on her front step with an anxious look on her face.
"Konata-san, what a pleasant surprise. What brings you all the way out here?" Miyuki asked with curiosity.
Konata took a deep breath and sighed. "I was hoping we could talk…about the Hiiragi elephant in the room."
Hearing the euphemism prompted Miyuki to mimic Konata's sigh and she invited her friend into her large home. Because it was such a nice day out, the two sat outside in the backyard garden under the large umbrella standing above a circular table with two chairs on each side of the table. Miyuki invited Konata to sit down while she brought two glasses of iced tea out for them.
"I'm glad you came to visit me, Konata-san, but I'm afraid I do not know if there is much I can do." Miyuki said as she sat down with Konata after serving the drinks.
Konata took a sip of the cold drink on the warm day and turned to Miyuki. "How much do you know of what's happening to them?"
Miyuki placed her hand under her chin to think. "Let me see…I do know that one of their daughters died tragically in a car accident and one of Kagami-san's friends was also murdered in a strange occurrence, and that Kagami-san has been experimenting with drugs but that's about it."
Konata sighed. "I'm afraid it's a whole lot worse than that. Tsukasa has been texting and calling me nonstop ever since this all began and it turns out that Kagami has been stealing from her family to get drug money. Worst part of all is that Tsukasa walked in on Kagami prostituting herself the other day."
Miyuki quickly gasped in fright and horror while covering her mouth with both hands. She slowly shook her head as her eyes flooded with broken emotions. "No, no…no that cannot be true, Konata-san. Kagami-san would never…"
"She has. She ran out of valuables in her own home to sell so there was only one other thing to sell; herself." Konata said while trying to keep the lump in her throat hidden. "I also heard that a lot of robberies have been happening in your neighborhood recently."
Miyuki nodded. "Come to think of it there has been. I remember seeing something so horrible on the news a few days ago. A man was bludgeoned to death by a robber while his wife stood and watched in terror from the front door."
"I see…" Konata replied with remorse.
Miyuki was able to connect the dots that Konata as hinting at. "Wait…you don't think that…Kagami-san…"
"I don't want to…but I have a sinking feeling that I have to, Miyuki-san."
A long awkward pause was initiated between the two of them. At least they had the singing melodies of birds chirping in the trees nearby to keep it from becoming completely quiet. The two friends didn't have to say it but they were taking a break from the morbid topics to enjoy the beautiful spring day in Miyuki's backyard. Konata envied a backyard as picturesque as Miyuki's. The abundant green lawn, the rows and rows of colorful flowers with butterflies fluttering around them, and the trickling sound of a water fountain nearby all made for one beautiful collective natural ensemble.
Miyuki knew that they still had issues to discuss so she nervously cleared her throat and replied, "Um…Konata-san, I do truly sympathize with what the Hiiragi family is going through, but what exactly did you have in mind for coming over here today?"
Konata nodded and turned back to Miyuki. "Tsukasa and her family have been going to a therapist who believes that she may be able to issue some kind of warrant to detain Kagami for psychological reasons, but I dunno about it. I think this is going to need more of a hands-on approach and we're going to need to reach Kagami directly. I don't think throwing Kagami into some bureaucratic system is going to do anyone any good, especially her. Whatever she's into, she thinks that those drugs are her best friends now and if something is going to be done, we need to make sure Kagami knows that she's still our friend and that we love her. If we try to just simply pluck her off the streets and take her freedoms away, it'll only further isolate her from us and her family. If we allow the police to simply take her away then she'll resent us forever and we'll never get her back."
Miyuki couldn't help but see Konata's point. "I understand where you're coming from Konata-san, but I'm afraid my question still stands. What is it that you have in mind for coming over here today?"
Konata scratched her chin. "I have a plan. It's a long shot…but I still think it's better than Kagami finding out the hard way that her family put out a psychological warrant on her behind her back. My plan is to stage an intervention. It'll be a joint effort on everyone's part with friends and family. I'm planning on personally visiting all our friends and her friends and bringing them up to speed on what's been going on. Everyone will write their own speeches to Kagami to try and break through this wall that the drugs have built around her mind. Yuki-chan, I came here to ask you if you'll take part in Kagami's intervention to try and save her."
Miyuki began nodding before Konata could even finish her request. The moisture in her eyes began to thicken when she replied. "Of course, Konata-san. I'll do anything. We need to save our friend."
Konata nodded back.
"But I do have one concern though."
Konata tilted her head as a symbolic invite for Miyuki to divulge more to her.
"What are the chances of this ending in success?"
When Miyuki watched her blue-haired friend close her eyes and look away with a sigh, she was given her answer even before Konata vocalized it. "Not good. But we still have to try. Miyuki…if you heard how Tsukasa sounded over the phone every time she would call me about what was happening. It would break your heart. All I hear is her crying and though she never asked for it, the tone of her broken voice is always begging for help. To think…this girl could desire or wish for anything in this world but she only wants one thing. She just wants her sister home despite everything that Kagami has done to her and her family."
Miyuki looked away. "Tsukasa-san…she's so pure and loving. I don't even think it's possible for her to feel anything other than love. So…what's your plan for this intervention?"
"It's going to take some time to get ready. I still need to visit everyone that'll matter in some way, shape, or form to Kagami, everyone needs to write their speeches, and we still need to tackle the biggest obstacle of all. We need to find Kagami and figure out a way to get her to attend the intervention." Konata added while continuing to think. "Unfortunately I don't think that she'll go to her own intervention peacefully or willingly, so I'm afraid that we're going to have to lie to her. First I'll need to gain her trust but that issue itself will prove to be difficult because I'm sure that she sees the drugs as her best friend. From there, we'll all have to play our part in bringing her back."
The pink-haired girl gulped and knew this was going to be a painful experience that she was immune to up until now. She had a sinking feeling that she was about to be sucked into this cataclysm that had found the Hiiragi family but knew that it was a necessary chain of futuristic events for her. Kagami was one of her friends and Miyuki couldn't sit idly by on the sidelines with a clean conscience if she knew there was something she could do. Never in Miyuki's worst nightmare would she imagine that despite her love and desire to help Kagami, she too was slowly venturing down a path of endless darkness and pain that would ultimately threaten her life.
"If I may ask, who else have you spoken to so far regarding this intervention, Konata-san?" Miyuki asked politely.
"My cousin Yu-chan is already onboard and is writing her speech as we speak and as far as I know she has been talking to Minami-chan about it too." Konata replied. "I still need to talk to Minegishi-san, Hiyorin, and Patty-chan. It shouldn't be too much of a chore enlisting Minegishi considered how close she and Misakichi were."
Miyuki nodded. "I must say Konata-san that I am very impressed. It seems that you are going to great lengths to try and help Kagami-san. Now I cannot help but feel languid in my own pursuits in helping her."
Konata shook her head. "Don't talk like that, Miyuki-san. Just by being there so that Kagami can see another familiar and supporting face is already more than enough."
The pink-haired girl sighed and looked up at the white streaks of clouds gently drifting across the blue spring sky. She couldn't help but envy their carelessness and detachment to any earthly obligations and drama. Miyuki took a breath and replied, "I still must hope for the best, even if it is a little bit quixotic."
"Like I said, I can't stand listening to Tsukasa cry for help anymore. This intervention does already have a high chance of failing…but as of now it's the only shot we have as far as I can see." Konata finished and joined her friend in looking up at the thin strips of white.
Konata Izumi and Miyuki Takara may have been at opposite ends of intellect and upbringing, but at the same time they were both realists and saw things from a logical point of view. As much as it pained them to even think about, there was a greater chance that this intervention in the making would push Kagami further away from them before it would help her. The kind of mess Kagami was in was on a level where no one would see the error of her ways for her. It would have to be a quest she would have to take for herself and make mistake after mistake until she would one day wake up and realize the true depth of her problems. Unfortunately if Kagami didn't realize any of this soon, it would be too late for her to have any shot at redemption, if she would even make it that far. It was still common sense that the life of a drug addicted prostitute on the streets was unnecessarily short.
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As yet another sun began to set in just another day in the dysfunctional life of Kagami Hiiragi, she was in the midst of learning a new street skill. Homemade meth. The pharmaceuticals and even cosmetics she and her friends stole that contained the chemical elements needed to make the improvised drug were being cooked in a makeshift chemistry set in Miyakawa's apartment kitchen. As the product neared completion, Kagami continued to watch and learn until Miyakawa reached under her sink and grabbed a bottle of ammonia.
"Okay sweet face, come here." Miyakawa instructed as a burning cigarette sat in her mouth and the twin-tailed girl followed the order. "Take this jug and slowly pour it into the pot."
Kagami took the plastic jug and gently tilted it upward and allowed the potently aromatic liquid into a large pot of boiling water where countless particles of solid mass were beginning to take shape. The liquid addition made puffs of steam lift upward out of the pot and Miyakawa already had her kitchen window wide open so the powerful fumes could escape her home. Kagami nearly gagged several times as she emptied the bottle into the pot and backed away.
Miyakawa turned the stovetop down a few notches and also took a step back while taking another drag on her cigarette. "Okay that should do it. We're going to have to let it simmer for half an hour to let the ammonia soak into the meth and then we can turn the stove off. From there we'll drain the liquid and presto! Instant meth."
Kagami giggled lightly. "You're so smart, Yuka."
Miyakawa extinguished her cigarette in an ashtray on her kitchen table and sat down next to Ryuji, who was going over the potential numbers with a calculator and a pen and pad of paper. The top of his head was wrapped in bandages from his extreme dedication to a life of putrid substances. "Of course, my dear. I've been doing this since I was a teenager."
Kagami sat down across from her and was still perked by curiosity. "So Ryuji, how much will all of this make us?"
Ryuji scribbled different numbers on the paper and sighed. "Unfortunately not enough. Those gangbangers across town knew the demand for this shit would go up and that's why they decided to cut us out of the supply. Every junkie and bum in the streets knows that they're the ones to go to for the quality products since we're just the pushers of them so all we're selling is a knockoff product. If we're able to sell all that stuff before it goes bad then we'll make some profit but still borderline break even. The biggest problem is that they know we're not afraid of them and they won't back down because they want to be the kingpins."
"Fuck…" Miyakawa groaned and looked at Kagami. "Looks like you and I are going to have to work extra hard so you better get out there on the blocks tonight and earn your cut."
Kagami looked away. She was willing to once again sell her body to the lowest forms of life on the planet but Miyakawa could still see remnants of the old Kagami screaming no every step of the way. "Okay, Yuka, I'll do it…as long as you're on the street with me…"
Miyakawa was tiring of Kagami's reluctance to fly solo on her prostitution runs. The only time Kagami did it alone so far was her first time and the times she was in the comfort of her own home. Kagami was still scared of the whole concept that was prostitution and only felt comfortable doing it with Miyakawa nearby. Miyakawa knew that Kagami would never be able to "live to her fullest potential" if she was always holding her hand. The psychotic young woman saw Kagami as an animal that needed to be trained to be on its own, almost like a parent teaching its child to grow up and how to survive in the real world. Of course, Miyakawa was the furthest thing from a loving parent.
"Oh sweetheart I don't think I'm up for it tonight. I want you to work the block alone tonight. Don't worry about a thing; just stay calm and be yourself and the rest will be cake." Miyakawa gripped her head and pretended to have a headache. "Remember, the customer is always right, no matter what they want."
Kagami looked around nervously. "But…but what if someone tries to…hurt me?"
Miyakawa stood and cupped Kagami's cheeks in her hands. "Remember this morning when you said that you loved me and that we're the only family you need now?"
Hypnotized by Miyakawa's eyes, intimate touch, and soothing voice, Kagami slowly nodded as she blushed.
"Well this is what we do as a family. We help each other out and lift each other up when one of us is feeling down." Miyakawa whispered lovingly and resembled a comforting voice like Miki Hiiragi. "Now if you really love me, you'll get out there and earn our money for us. Remember if anything happens to you to come to us. We'll always look after you, Kagami. Now get out there and don't be afraid to show off every inch of this sexy little body of yours. You know how beautiful and perfect you are to me, right?"
Kagami felt a weak smile tug at the corners of her mouth. The only response she could muster was a slight nod and she returned to Miyakawa's room to change her wardrobe. Kagami returned a few minutes later and was once again wearing a revealing ensemble with a mini skirt and a small tight top that showed off her chest and most of her stomach. Miyakawa paid Kagami another compliment on how beautiful she looked to finally get her out the door and the twin-tailed girl thought she was doing her friends a favor by selling herself for them. She had no idea she was coming to a point in her career where every time she would allow some deranged pervert to defile her, Miyakawa and her cousin were planning on keeping all her money with no cut. They would throw her some drugs every now and then to keep her addicted and to keep her body for sale but other than that, Kagami would get nothing for everything that was good about herself that she was sacrificing. According to Ryuji and his cousin, times were getting tougher for them financially so someone had to take a pay cut and their minds they were too important and valuable to lose any income, leaving only Kagami.
It didn't take long until Kagami got her first customer of the night. A two-door car pulled alongside Kagami and the driver rolled down his window. Kagami's memory of her last hallucination began to replay itself when she saw the man in the car was severely overweight with a goatee, bald head, and was wearing glasses. His hair was black and covered in dandruff and the inside of the car smelled like the inside of a sweaty gym bag. He was also wearing an otaku t-shirt, an exact copy of one that Konata used to wear.
Wait…what did my hallucination of Kusakabe say again? Don't get in the car with fat guys…or something?
"Hey sexy lady, are you offering tonight?" He asked.
Kagami shook her head to get the first thought out of her head and continued to fake interest in her next customer. "Why yes I am, handsome. You looking for a little company tonight?"
"Absolutely, as long as it's with you." He replied happily. "How much and what do I get?"
"It's twenty five thousand yen for a full hour and straight sex." Kagami replied and played with the hem of her skirt as a temptation. "Of course a few other acts will cost you extra."
"Sounds good. Hop in." He invited and Kagami stomped out her cigarette and got in the car with him.
Though Kagami was still learning and becoming more street wise, she still wasn't wise enough to realize what her latest customer was doing. Usually her customers would prefer to be in a dark, secluded alley where no bystanders would come across them, or where any cops would find them. Instead, this customer chose an alley next to a nightclub and the noisy music and pulsing bass covered all the other noises within the entire block. This spot was chosen so no one would be able to hear Kagami's screams for help and of searing pain.
When the car was tucked in the solitude of the shadows, what started out as a routine transaction suddenly went bad for Kagami. As the customer wanted, no one could hear her cry no and scream for help. The exciting atmosphere of the club and people flocking past the car also hindered them from seeing Kagami trying to crawl through the windshield as she cried until she once again screamed in intrusive and tearing pain.