I think the reason that I do not write Renee so well is that I never really liked her character much. Hmm. Oh well.

OMG! Remember the audition? Well I got the part I wanted xD. This means that I will be performing in the Royal Lyceum Theatre in Edinburgh and then, if we get through, at the National Theatre in London!! So...yeah. It's really exciting. =D

Date: 10th December

Character: Renee

Stimulus Word: Advent x

I love Christmas. The bright colours, the laughter, the warmth. It's my favourite time of year. I have many fond memories of Bella's childhood, the two of us putting up the tree together in Phoenix. I wanted her back for Christmas this year, so when Charlie phoned, asking me to come get her I was ecstatic. Maybe I'd have my Bella back.

But when I got there, she was so different… the word they used was catatonic. And then, when we woke her, she woke up screaming, kicking the place down. I remember a few tantrums from early years, but nothing like this. It hurt me to see my Bella like that.

I left. I couldn't stand it, I couldn't be around her. I'm such a bad parent…