Recap:

"Jude? Honey are you okay?" She looks at Tommy and Then me and lunges at Tommy. I'm in a shocked state. I don't know what to do but all of a sudden I hear my voice again,

"Stoppppppppppppp…Please" I whisper out in two breaths after each word.

My mother stops and pushes Tommy away towards the door.

"Get out of here our of her life" She huffs out

"No" He says and my eyes go wide.

"No…Yes you stay away from her. Who are you to tell the doctors she's your fiancé and get her this big room and put it on your tab" she walked over to me and yanked a ring of my finger that I didn't even know was there,

"I'm not leaving her side" Tommy yelled

"Ms. Harrison I hate to be the bearer of big news but-"

I cut him off, "Am I pregnant or something?"

Every one looked at me weird but Tommy looked at me with a shocked look and then looked at my mother who seen his look and fumed.

"No, that's not it" The doctor said and Tommy slowly looked at my mother again and quickly at the floor without saying any thing but I felt him relax a bit, probably because I wasn't pregnant.

I looked at the doctor and started to panic…if I'm not pregnant then what's wrong with me? Did a have a panic or anxiety attack?

"What's wrong with me then?"

"I'm sorry but you have, well, well had a…a-"

Jude was getting nervous. She needed to know what happened and now.

"Please can you just say it…please" she whispered as she closed her eyes and grasped Tommy's hand tighter. She knew what was coming and Tommy felt.

Some how he just knew she knew and felt he wasn't going to like it. He knew why she closed her eyes, so she wouldn't have to look in his eyes. He knew why she held his hand tight, so he would leave her alone. She wanted him to stay be her side. He knew all of this and didn't know what to expect. He had a feeling that he wouldn't be able to take all of these accidents. Life came to easy for him all the time and he just acted like a kid but ever since Jude came into his life he had reason to live, he had importance. He was needed more than ever and he loved that feeling.

Tommy looked at the doctor pain filling his eyes to see Jude like this. To see her suffer through so much and not even be legal yet. She basically had to grow up no matter how she fought it.

"Please we need to know" Tommy said with out any emotion not knowing what to expect.

The doctor looked at him questioningly knowing you lil Tommy q was and how old he was and the news he was about to deliver. He strugged it off and hoped it wasn't what he thought it was, hoping he wasn't the father of Jude's child.

The Doctor and nodded, "Miss. Harrison this is very unfortunate but not surprising due to your past."

"Can you just tell us now" Victoria demanded a little shook.

"I'm sorry Jude, you had another miscarriage." He said softly looking down at the ground ready for a burst of frustration and anger.

"What?" Tommy whispered as his grip loosened in Jude's.

"This happens a lot to woman when they already had one in the first place and it could have been all that coffee you drink, you know" The doctor said apologetic while he watched the family before him.

Tommy found it hard to keep Jude's hand in his. He wanted to punch something and yell and scream. His child, his child was dead. He couldn't even talk to it in Jude belly because it was gone and he never even knew it was there.

Tommy used his free hand to run it through his thick black hair and started to pull. He didn't know what to do he never felt his heart hurt so much. Not just because of loosing his child but all the pain his girl was probably going through. He didn't know what he could do to help her or help him self with that matter.

Jude opened her eyes slowly and looked up into Tommy's eyes that were starring back at her. She seen the confused and scarred look in his eyes and sighed,

"Tommy I-" She stopped. She didn't want to make him feel like he had to stay with her now and pick up the pieces of heart she no longer needed. She did the best thing for him she could do. One thing that made her happy was to see him happy and if that was letting him live his on the edge life then she would have to except that. No man in the world would want to stick around her when she live this way and that is the whole reason why she had distanced her self away from guys in the first place. She didn't want to get hurt and didn't want to hold them back for bigger and better thing in life, especially woman that are willing.

Jude let go of Tommy's hand. She thought he didn't want to be with her after hearing that. Who would want some one you had a miscarriage of your baby but also had before with some one else's. Again she felt like god just hated her and her life. Every time some thing was good it became ten times worse a moment later.

She sat there with no emotion on her face. She just laid down and turned her body towards the window. She heard the door open and close, she knew who it was and she shut her eyes tightly wishing she was back in Tommy's room wrapped up in his sheets making love.

She knew he would leave, would want nothing to do with her the moment she fainted and Georgia called her name, not him. She then wondered again why he even came up to the room and did all of those things for her. Why he cared, why she cared for that matter. She shouldn't have such strong feeling for some one like this. He's a player, a celebrity caught in headlights. He was nothing for her and she was nothing to him.

Jude looked up at her mother, she looked ashamed of her but who didn't know a days. Jude was never one of good news. She always had bad karma coming in at all angles and right now she knew she was being gratefully punished for no reason at all.

She knew standing up for Tommy was dangerous but now it was worst than before. Now her mother knew that never existent child was and did exists, who it belonged to, and she wasn't happy it was one of her teachers. The ring and then the fact that she was indeed pregnant took her mother over the edge.

Not knowing how Jude grew up but getting pictures every year wasn't enough to know how she was as a person but being around her for almost a year was enough for her. She couldn't believe her own blood would do something so stupid being so smart. Then to hear it wasn't her first miscarriage just blew her head away. She couldn't take it any more she needed answers and now.

"Why would you do some thing so stupid?" she yelled

"Miss. Harrison I'll be right back" The doctor said as he quickly retreated out of the room remembering how the last time she came and lost a baby. How her foster mother cried and Jude went a little crazy upset, How she tore the room a part, and mostly how good her left hook was. His shuttered at the thought and went down the hall.

"I said why would you do some thing so stupid?" she repeated again

Jude stayed silent; she couldn't find her voice no matter how badly she wanted to yell at her mother. How badly she just wanted to yell and scream and kick every thing in sight hating every last bit of it. She wanted nothing to do with life any more, she wanted ever thing gone but she couldn't find strength. She was drained of all her energy. She felt like she was dead already.

Jude mother walked over to her, "He'll never think he's enough for you Jude, there's no one who would ever love you and there's no one to love" With that her mother walked out.

"Will that be all?" she screeched

"Yes" Tommy flashed his million dollar smile, paid for the huge teddy bear, and made his way back to Jude's room luckily missing Jude's mother.

Right before entering Tommy took out his phone and texted Kwest. He looked up at the door and saw Jude's weak body there and it brought tears to his eyes. The one girl he had known for a short time but been through so much with lost her child, their child. If she had that baby he wouldn't have been any more happier. This girl hurt his heart to much, even if he tried to get away fate would just bring him back.

He walked into the room again and Jude didn't move. She thought it was her mother coming back so if it was she didn't' want to have to look at her, the view from the window was enough happiness she could have spear right now.

Tommy placed the bear on her side table, took off his shoes, and by instinct climbed on the bed with her and grabbed her into his embrace like he was a pro at this. To her surprise he only grabbed onto her hand again, the hand she let go of before and started to silently cry. He took his free hand and whipped away the silent tears that streamed down her face.

"I thought you were going to leave me"

"No, I can't"

"She said you would leave me"

"Never"

"You'll stay?"

"Forever" he whispered even thought she didn't believe him she felt different.

She turned around and put her head on his chest and listened to his heart beat. He took her right hand and put it on his heart and took her left hand and put it on her own.

"They beat together you know" he said softly, each word drowning in emotion

"They not the same" she said as she turned her head away and whispered, "One is full of love, opportunity, and a future and one is broken, stalled, and empty"

She pulled her hands back and turned over again to the windows with her back facing him and sighed. She continued to cry silently waiting for him to get up and leave her alone. This is why she needed to break up with him in the first place.

She knew she would be a disappointment to him. She wasn't rich and famous. She didn't dress like all the hormonal teenage girls did these days and she was so young compared to him. What was she going to give hi, what did she had to offer him except problems. Sure he didn't see that at first but that's because she slept with him thinking they could fall in love like a fairy tale but that's when it dawned her that she could not have a fairy tale. Not today, not tomorrow, not ever in her life time.

He looked at her shocked. He couldn't believe what she was saying. He couldn't believe she felt so unsafe and shattered. How much did she have to go through before this, who knew? He needed her to know that he cared for her and would never let go no matter what.

He didn't want to loose what he had with her. Yes losing a baby together was bad but they could grow from that, become stronger. Hell they could have another one. They it hit him, they could have another one.

They could be together forever. They could really be engaged and have a little family. He knew why he cared for her. He knew why he wanted to feel important and have some thing and one to live for. He didn't want to go out and party and get drunk like he used to and wake up to strangers in his bed but how does he?

Tommy's pov

Would she even go for it, I mean she wouldn't take me back after all those flowers I sent her and attempts to get in touch with her. Matter of fact when she came into the studio today I fucked a girl and called out her name, I mean I never in my life did that because there was no one special. Wait never in my life have a called a name any ways. Why is she so different and has such a big hold on me, I don't think I can take it any more.

Tommy again grabbed her into an embrace, this surprised her he didn't leave yet and got he wouldn't. This brought a smile to her face knowing he was going to stay with her and would take it back, wouldn't blame her for their baby's death.

He turned her whole body around and starred into her beautiful blue eyes with all the lost he could muster and she smile more than she could of ever thought. He seen the love in her eyes and smiled then smirked as a thought processed through his mind

He bent down near her face and kissed her forehead, kissed her ear and whispered, "We can always make more but the first one will not be forgotten"

Jude heart leaped back in place like it never died and she hugged him as tight as her strength would let her.

The doctor smiled seeing that but he did have to talk to Jude, just not right then. Losing one child was a lot but losing two and the other one you really wanted was too much.

That's when Jude mother renter, "I think not"

Tommy turned around with anger in his eyes. He knew she had to be the one to tell Jude he would be there for her.

"Yeah well….