A quote. I can't remember where it came from. Oh well. I HAVE CAUGHT UP! Like, YAY!

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Date: 9th January

Character: Carlisle

Stimulus: You, whom I could not save. Listen to me." ~Czeslaw Milosz, "Dedication"

The family think that I have been avoiding them recently because of Bella. Though this is somewhat true, it is not, in fact, the entire reason.

The loss of Bella hits me hard, because I knew someone like her once… one whom I could not save. There was someone before Edward, you see. Before Esme and Rosalie and Emmett and Alice and Jasper. Someone before Bella… but who might have been Bella's twin.

They were so similar. And she was like a daughter to me—I loved her dearly. She was the first that I tried to change, because I was selfish. Because I was lonely, and because I happened upon her one day.

So I bit her. It seemed simple enough. After all—I could remember clearly the vampire who had bitten me. He had merely bitten my neck, and then been chased away. So I bit her.

I am utterly ashamed and mortified of that. I killed her. I took a human life. She, who deserved to live… she did not even get a part in this parody of a half-life.

I buried her on the 9th January, 1647.