Meh. My stupid brother is playing is playing guitar hero in the conservatory really loudly, and it's making my head hurt.

Date: 6th February

Character: Edward

Stimulus: Meaning

He can't help but think that everything was so much easier before Bella.

Sadder, perhaps. There was less meaning to his life. It hurt him, every time he saw his brothers and sisters and parents. Every time another girl asked him out, he could never help but remember what he was. It would not be safe. And so he turned them down. All of them. Every single time.

And then, Bella. All sense, all logic had flown out of the window. He'd forgotten himself, in the new rush of emotions that he'd never experienced. Not first-hand.

Before Bella, he had had no meaning. When he found her, he found meaning. When he walked away from her, that night in the woods?

He'd destroyed that meaning.