Date: 27th February

Character: Alice

Stimulus: Pressure

Pressure. I must keep watching all the time. I must be vigilant, for Esme's sake. Every time I see a vision of him committing suicide, it hurts me as much as the real thing would. It's impossible to live with.

These visions are always followed by remorse, on his behalf. He doesn't want to die, not really. Because although he has lost the will to live, he must continue to. I realise now that if she dies, he will, too. There's nothing I can do to change his mind, either, and I think that that it what hurts. But I don't know how much longer I can keep this up.

We're coming to a turning point. I don't know what, exactly, because the future is shrouded in darkness—invisible, even to me. We're coming to a crossroads. We're balanced on a knife edge; any minute, the balance could tip, and we could all be sent sprawling.

For once, I'm going to have to wait this one out.