Charlie left and there was no incident. Bella had not said a word, she told him that she was attacked by some large dog. I still couldn't figure out why anyone would lie after being attacked. Not that anyone would believe her if she said Edward had bitten her. People would think she was crazy. We would know the truth though. Edward certainly knew what he had done. He spent all his time sitting on the stairs outside of Bella's room. He had no desire to go in but he wouldn't leave. I was curious as to what was going through his mind. Not everyone could read minds.

"Son, you cant just keep hating yourself for this."

"I could have killed her Carlisle, she was innocent and I could have killed her."

"Edward, Emmett explained to me what you are going through, he couldn't believe that you lasted days let alone months."

"I don't care how long it took. It never should have happened."

I nodded. Edward hated to hurt anyone but to hurt someone he considered innocent was incredibly hard for him.

"Are you sure she is going to be fine?"

"Of course. The wound itself is small, you didn't bite too deep. She has already recovered from the blood loss. She wants to talk to you. This is all very strange for her."

"She wants to talk to me! After what I did to her! Does she have a death wish?"

I had thought the same thing.

"She is incredibly accepting. At first she thought I was crazy but I showed her a few things that made her change her mind."

I thought of the time I was alone with her. I remembered jumping up to touch the ceiling and running around the room faster than she could see. I knew Edward would be watching my mind.

"She didn't panic when she saw that?"

I shook my head.

"She almost seemed thrilled."

Edward shook his head this time.

"I had to attack the crazy one."

He smiled. It was the first one I had seen since the attack.

I stood up and started up the stairs.

"She's awake."

I watched Carlisle walk up the stairs. His wisdom was something that had always helped me. It amazed me that I could nearly kill an innocent girl and he would still think so highly of me. More than anything, I couldn't understand it. He was so against the destruction of human life. Not just human life. All life. That small girl in the other room was my victim. I hated myself. I usually did but this time it was worse. I had sat next to her everyday and even though it was hard, I had never hurt her. What had changed that day? Why did I lure her away? It must have been when she ran into me. The first time it happened I though I would drain her right there. The second time was bad. I managed to not scream at her this time but something happened to me. Her scent hit me full in the face. It must have been too much.

I paced outside her door. Carlisle had said that she wanted to see me. Was I strong enough for that? Could I stand to be alone with her? I didn't know. It was a huge risk on her part. I stopped when I heard Alice approaching. She paused in front of me and smiled wide.

'Worried?'

I nodded.

'You wont hurt her. If you want to talk to her, just go in.'

I watched Alice recall a previous vision. It was of Bella sitting alone in the room behind us and then I walked in and sat across the room from her. I wouldn't hurt her.

'You already decided you wont hurt her Edward. Just go.'

"You would like that."

'I would. I knew she was coming a long time ago, you just refused to believe it.'

"Did you see me attack her?"

Her smiled faltered. Then she spoke aloud.

"Edward I have seen so many things coming out of your future and hers. She wanted to be with you then she didn't, then she did, then she didn't. You wanted to kill her, then you wanted to be friends with her, then you wanted to kill her again. I cant keep track of everything! Yes I saw it, I called Carlisle and told him where you were going."

"She wanted to be with me?"

She rolled her eyes.

"I knew you would pick up on that one. Yes Edward she wanted to be with you."

Wow. I really had never gotten that vibe from her. She always seemed to hate me so much. It made me feel…odd.

"You thought she was cute."

"What are you talking about?"

"Edward I can see your future remember. For a short time you were thinking about what it would be like to have someone. Well not someone, her actually."

Why was she telling me all this now? Before she could say anything else I opened the door and entered Bella's room. I shut the door in Alice's smiling face. An intake of breath made me turn around. Bella was sitting in the bed staring at me. Her eyes were wide. Again I tried to read her silent mind. I wanted so much to know if she was afraid, if she wanted me to leave. Her lips curved up slightly into a small smile. I couldn't move. I was almost terrified of what I might do if I got any closer. She no long had IV tubes hooked into her and her neck was wrapped up tight in bandages. I took a small breath. Her scent burnt my throat but it wasn't as bad as I had thought. I took a step forward then decided against it and head for the chair at the end of the room. I could feel her eyes on me as I sat down.

"So…how do I taste?"

I nearly feel out of my seat.

"Are you kidding me?"

"What? I was just wondering."

"Aren't you scared? I could have killed you."She flinched but other wise seemed to not care.

"I lived. I just wanted to know if it was worth it. For you I mean."

"You want to know…no it was not worth. Not even blood as sweet as yours is worth ever hurting an innocent."

"So my blood is sweet?"Was this girl insane?

"Yes it is. It was the most amazing thing I have ever experienced."

There was a long silence. What I would give to be able to hear her thoughts. She was staring out at the forest behind the house.

"Well what happens now? Do I just go home and pretend I wasn't attacked by my vampire lab partner?"

"I guess that was the plan."

"Are still going to hate me?"

"Hate you? I never hated you."

"Then why were you so mean to me all the time? You never talked to me and you yelled at me all the time."

What the?

"Bella I lured you away from school, took you into the woods, and attempted to kill you! All that happens and you want to if I hate you?"

She nodded.

"I never hated you, I hated that I wasn't strong enough to not want you so badly. Everyday was hell for me because you smelled so good. Your blood was always calling to me. I was afraid that if I tried to talk to you or be friends that I would end up doing what I did!"

I calmed my breathing and waited for a reaction. Her eyes only widened. The rest of her body remained calm. Well not all of it. I could hear her heart going incredibly fast. I tried to ignore it. I was not going to hurt her again.

"Oh."

I actually laughed at that answer.

"That's all you have to say?"

"I guess so."

Amazing.

"I need some air." She flung her legs down from the bed and jumped off. Before her feet hit the ground I had time to see the morphine needle on the stand beside her. There was no way her legs were going to hold her up right now. I launched forward and caught her before she could hit the ground. Her legs had collapsed. The second I caught her, I regretted it. Her scent was like a slap to the face. I tried to turn away but it was all around me. Her small hands here clinging to my shoulders. She was breathing too hard. I stood up with her in my arms.

"Bella please don't breath so hard."

"Sorry."

I placed her gently back on the bed.

"My legs felt fine.""Carlisle likes pain meds."

"Guess I'm not getting that air."

"I could ask Alice to come up and take you outside."

"No. I don't want to bother anyone. Its okay."I stepped back away from her. It didn't make much of a difference now. Her scent was stuck on my clothes.

"Thanks for catching me by the way."

"Its no problem. Just don't fall again.""I cant promise that. I know you have seen me in class."

"True. No one trips as much as you do."

She smiled and I couldn't help but smile as well. The burning in my throat didn't go away though. No smile could do that.

"I'm sorry Edward, I mean cause its hard for you."

"You didn't know you were going to fall."

"I'm still sorry."

"Well don't be."

"Don't tell me not to be sorry cause I'm going to be."

"Honestly, how can you be sorry if you didn't know you were going to do something that would bother me?"

"I just can."

Was she always this frustrating. I thought back to our many arguments in biology. Yes she could be.

"Well even though I don't think you have any reason to be sorry, I forgive you."

"Thank you."

We stared at each other. I had no idea what to say. She took a deep breath and looked around. It was then that I acted with out thought. I picked her up and opened the window. I jumped down and ran to the river. The fresh air made it easy to hold on to her. When we go to the river bank I stopped and sat her down on a bolder. She looked shocked but other wise fine. I stepped back from her and smiled.

"You said you wanted air so I thought I would give you some."

"Thanks. Its really pretty out here."

"That's why the back of the house is all windows."

She wrapped her arms around her self. The air was a little chilly. I should have thought about that. I stepped closer to her and paused. She looked up at me.

"Are you cold?""I'm fine. Just glad to be out of the house. I was getting sick of it.""I can completely understand. I hate not being able to come out when its sunny. I wish I could."

"I never even thought about that. I love the sun. Every time it comes out I have to go out and enjoy it."

I stared at her. Her hair was blowing around her pale face. Back by the house I heard a door open and shut. Carlisle was walking towards us. He was smiling.

"Bella you look well. How does your neck feel?""Its fine. My legs don't work but my neck is fine."

"Well that should go away soon. Edward. How do you feel?"

I eyed him.

"I'm fine right now."

"Would you like me to take Bella back into the house?"

I looked at Bella. She was looking back and forth between us. Then she stopped on me.

"I can get her."

Carlisle nodded and turned back towards the house. Bella scooted to the edge of the boulder and waited. I gently picked her up. This time I held her close to my body and jumped up into her window. She wrapped her arms around my neck and buried her face in my chest. I didn't think it would scare her. Apparently I was wrong. I wasn't used to being wrong.

"I'm sorry, I should have told you I was going to do that."

"No its okay, I'm still getting used to the idea that you guys can even do things like that."

I set her back on the bed and she let go of me. I glanced at the bandaged on her neck. There was no sign on blood. It must be healing well.

"Carlisle thinks you should go home soon."

"Yeah I do miss my own bed."

"Your father is on his way now to see you. If you want I can get Alice and she will help you get dressed."

She blushed. I couldn't stop myself from looking down at her exposed legs. The hospital gown Carlisle had put her in was short.

"Uh yeah, I wouldn't mind having some jeans."

I had been caught staring.

"I ah…sorry. I mean…Sorry for everything."

She laughed.

"Don't worry about it, I was bound to be attacked by something at some point. I have that kind of luck."

How could she think like that? Her mind must be so interesting.

"Okay, ill get Alice."

I made my way to the door.

"Edward, I don't blame you, Carlisle explained it to me a little."

I didn't turn."I guess ill see you at school."

"Yeah, Carlisle will probably want me to make sure you are okay."

"Oh, okay."

Then I left.