To say I was nervous was an understatement. Having Bella with us was something I wasn't okay with. I wanted to spend all my time with her but this was taking it a little far. The camping trip we always went on usually involved a lot of hunting and I couldn't imagine her being any where near me. It was still hard for me to be around her. Carlisle thought this was a good idea. They all trusted me. That didn't matter much. I didn't know if I could trust myself. What if I caught her scent while I was hunting? Would they be able to stop me?

I was sitting on the front porch when I heard the roar of Bella's truck coming from the road. Again I shuttered. Alice had assured me several times already that nothing would happen. She had said the very same thing the day I lured Bella into those woods. Just as her truck parked in front of me I took a deep breath. Her scent would be there any moment. She stepped out and smiled at me. My fears were not gone but they were momentarily forgotten. I stood and hugged her.

"So, when do we leave?"

I sighed.

"Emmett and Jasper are loading up the jeep right now."

"Are we going to ride with them?"

"As much as Emmett would like that, I think we should take the Volvo. He drives like a maniac.""Oh, okay then. Is there anything I can do?"

"Not at the moment. Did you pack everything you need?"

"Yeah, I'm a little curious about something though."

"And that is?""I know you guys don't use the bathroom but I do so…"

"Unfortunately you're going to have to go in the bushes."

"That's what I thought."

"I'm sorry Bella. We don't have to worry about that sort of thing."

"I know, I was just hoping we would be at a camp ground.""Its better for Jasper if we aren't near people on these trips.""I think I'm a people."

"It will be fine. Nothing can happen to you with us all here…or well with them all here."

"Please don't think like that."

I sighed again.

"Lets take your things to my car."

We had everything loaded up and ready to go within an hour. Bella was already in the car. I was just finishing up with Carlisle. We were hoping to be there before morning. I checked the strap on the hood then got in the car. Emmett was ahead of us.

'Ready to go.'

I nodded and he started the jeep. We didn't need our lights to see so we went into the dark. Bella sighed. I tried to read her mind again but there was nothing.

"Something wrong?"

"No."

I hated that so much. Her body language told me I was right. She sifted and leaned her head against the window.

"Bella.""I just have a stomach ache."

"Are you sure you want to go?"

"Did you guys pack any food for me?"

"Of course. Is that really what's wrong."

"I said I had a stomach ache, that's all."

I didn't feel like pushing it any further. If she didn't want to talk I guess I would just deal with it.

"Shouldn't you turn your lights on?"

"We don't need them.""But other drivers can't see you."

"Its fine."

"We could get into a wreck."

"Bella I wont get into a wreck."

"Oh okay so Emmett will and then he will crash into us."

"What is the matter with you? No one is going to crash."

"How would you know?""Would you like me to call and ask Alice?"

"She cant know that it will happen yet. No one is making any decisions."

Why was she being so frustrating?

"Are you sure you just have a stomach ache?"

"What is that supposed to mean?""I don't know. You just seem to want to fight with me.""Well I'm sorry!"

She turned away from me and stared out the window. I was so confused.

So I just drove.

Eventually she was watching the road like I was.

Emmett and I had the tents set up in a matter of minutes. Alice and Bella were sitting not far from us watching. Bella and I had barely talked on the drive. It wasn't from lack of trying though. No matter what I said, she just got mad at me. Eventually I just stopped. I figured she had a good reason for being how she was. Alice laughed. I looked over at her.

'You are so clueless.'

I shook my head at her.

'Charlie made Bella start birth control when he found out you guys were dating. All the hormone changes are making her a little cranky.'

Birth control?

'Don't ask her about it, she's not happy. She thinks he doesn't trust her.'

I went over and sat next to Bella. She smiled at me.

"So what are the activities?"

"I was thinking we could hike or something if you like. it's the first time we've had a human around so it's a little different."

"I guess that wouldn't be so bad."

I took her hand and we walked towards the woods.

"Edward I'm sorry about the way I acted."

"Its fine. I probably had it coming.""No you didn't, I'm just mad at Charlie. He thinks I'm going to do something stupid out here."

"Something stupid like…have sex with me?""Yes. He gave me this whole big talk about being responsible and that I need to know that you're the right one and blah blah blah."

I laughed.

"He's just being a good dad. He doesn't want you to get hurt."

She didn't know how serious I really was.

"I know. I just wish he would listen to me. I told him that it wasn't like that."

"Do you wish it was?"

She stopped and looked at me.

"Do you?"

I thought about it.

Of course I wanted her but it was more. I wished that I was able to be like that with her without possibly killing her.

"I asked first."

She blushed.

"Well I've never done that with anyone so I don't know what it would be like. Sometimes I wish we could but once I calm down, it doesn't seem like such a big deal…"

"Its supposed to be something special."

"I've never had anything special…until now."

It almost sounded like an invitation.

"Me either…until now."She smiled.

"Where are we hiking to?""There's a water fall and small pond up ahead, it's a good ways away. Would you like me to just carry you up there so we can enjoy it today?"

"Are you saying I'm slow?"

"Very."

She stopped and held her arms out. I picked up and ran. She hid her face in my chest.

It only took minutes to get to the waterfall. I set her down when we were just out of sight of it.

"I can hear it."

She took the lead and I followed. She ducked under some plants and gasped. It was beautiful.

"Edward this is amazing."

"I thought you would like it."She stepped closer to the water. It was perfectly clear like glass. The sun was shinning and you could see everything on the bottom. There were no fish. Just rocks and sand.

"Wow, this water is so clean. Wish I would have brought my swimsuit."

That gave me an idea. I quickly stripped my clothes off down to my boxers and jumped in. I new she must have got hit with some of the slash. When I came up she was staring at me.

"What are you doing?"

"I'm swimming. Join me."

"I have nothing to wear."

"Are your underwear white?"

"Excuse me?"

"Just answer me."

"No, why?"

"Just take your clothes off and come in. As long as your underwear aren't white, I wont see anything."

She looked around.

"Bella its just us."

I swam under while she took her clothes off. I thought it would be easier for her if I wasn't watching. Not that I didn't want to. After a few minutes I heard her enter the water. I came up. She was in about waist deep. Her skin was so perfect. Her bra was blue. It made her skin seem so much paler. She cleared her throat and I looked up.

"Having fun?""You have no idea."

I pulled her into the deeper water with me. I wrapped my arm around her waist. Her skin was so soft. I ran my fingers along her spine.

"Bella you are amazing."

She blushed.

"I feel stupid. What am I going to wear back to camp?"

"Just take them off before you put your clothes back on. I wont look."She ran a single finger down my chest and I had to stop the shiver that it brought on.

"Your body is so perfect. I'm jealous."

"I don't know why. I have never seen someone so beautiful. You don't know what you're doing to me.

It was true. I would be shocked if she couldn't feel my obvious arousal.

"I think I might have an idea."

Her face was bright pink.

I kissed her lightly. Her heart sped up like it always did. Her hands wrapped around my neck. I pulled her closer and deepened the kiss. Her body fit perfectly against mine. The second her body pressed against mine I felt different. She was all I wanted. She pulled at my hair. I walked back until we were against the rock wall. She took a deep breath then came at me again. She opened her mouth and I happily took advantage. I grabbed the strap of her panties and she moaned. That's when I let go of her mouth and rested my head on her shoulder. This was going too far. She sighed. I knew she was frustrated with me. I was frustrated with myself.

A slight crack from a nearby tree told me Alice had come to check up. I didn't blame her but I was still annoyed. After we took a few minutes to breath I heard her leap away. Bella slipped away from me and headed for the bank. I knew she was unhappy. I hated that I was reason for it. I turned to follow her. The way her hair fell against her back sent that same feeling through me. I hadn't thought that she could get any more beautiful. That was before I saw her standing on the bank. The sun was shinning down on her wet skin. The blue silk against her nearly translucent skin was overwhelming. She folded her arms across her chest and looked at me.

"We don't have towels or anything to dry off with."

"Just lay on the sand and let the sun dry you, that's I'm going to do."

I really just wanted to prolong the moment.

"I guess so."She sat down and stared at the sky. I finally walk up to sit with her. I could just run myself dry but I wanted to stay with her. She was still mad.

"I'm sorry Bella."

"For what?""For stopping. I know you don't want to and I don't either but we have to.""I know Edward, its fine."She was the worst liar. I could easily tell it bothered her. I fell back against the ground. I didn't feel like talking any more. I would probably just make things worse.

After about 20 minutes I felt Bella stand. I opened my eyes.

"I think I'm going to put my clothes on now."

"Will you be removing those?"

"I think so, they are still pretty wet."

"Then I guess I'll lay here a little while longer.""Keep your eyes closed."

"I wouldn't look at you unless you wanted me to.""Sure, that's what they all say.""Who is they?"

"I don't know."

I laughed.

"You know I wont look.""I know."She almost sounded disappointed.

I closed my eyes while she changed. "All done, your turn."She shut her eyes.

I was changed before she could take another breath.

"All done."

"Wow."Again I laughed.