Alice had scolded Bella when we got back. She was mad that Bella had gotten her new silks wet. I laughed at that. She was worried about the clothes. I should have known that. Bella no longer seemed to be in a bad mood. She sat next to me and joked with Emmett while Esme made her dinner. Every one seemed in high spirits. I was right when I said Bella made us all happier. She was so different, even to us. I loved it. Emmett elbowed me.

'Man how was the swim?'

He raised his eyebrows. I just shook my head.

'Nothing huh? I'm not surprised.'

I growled under my breath. Emmett really did like Bella but he thought we should have had sex by now. It was a great source of entertainment for him that I had never lost my virginity. He was very proud of his sex life. He boasted about it all the time. Rosalie was just as happy about it. She thought that she was the best thing to walk the earth. She still thinks that I want her. I had never wanted her. I knew what I wanted now.

"Edward?"

I looked down. Bella was sitting next to me.

"Are you okay?"

"Yeah, why?""You just looked sad or something.""No I'm fine."

I wrapped my arm around her.

Carlisle stood up.

"Alright, I think Esme and I are going to hunt, will any one be joining us?"

Emmett stood up.

"I think Rose and I are up for that."

I had no intention of leaving. I had hunted the night before we left. After they left Jasper and Alice ran into the woods for some "alone time". That left Bella and I.

"So are we sharing a tent?"

"If you don't mind."

"Of course I don't mind."

I touched her face.

"I love you Bella."

She stared at me. It was the first time I had actually said it to her face. At first I thought she was upset.

"Really?"

That was not what I had been expecting.

"Yes I do."

Then she started to cry. Why was she crying? Had I upset her? I shouldn't have said anything. I knew I shouldn't have said anything. I must have ruined everything.

"Bella I'm sorry, I didn't…I don't…I mean…""No Edward, please don't, you didn't do anything. I just cant believe it."

What?

"That I love you?""Yeah…because I love you too…it scared me to love you cause I didn't know if you loved me back."

My mind held onto that sentence. She loved me too?

I didn't give her a chance to keep stammering. I pulled her to me. Again I was reminded of the day I pinned her down in my car and fed on her. Now I was hugging her to me. She loved me.

"Bella you have no idea how happy I am."

"I think I can imagine."

She brought her mouth up to mine.

"Edward we are so twisted."

"I know love, I know."

This kiss felt different. There was something more to it. It seemed that announcing our love had mad interaction mean more. Her body felt different against mine. The way she looked at me made more sense. She grabbed my collar and held me to her. I could already tell what she wanted. My body completely agreed with her. She climbed onto my lap and her warmth was almost too much. She grinded against my lap. This was new. Bella was forward. I had learned that. I was not expecting her to jump on me like this. Maybe I had let things go a little too far earlier. While I was thinking about all this I continued to kiss her. My mind was getting foggier. When the scent of her desire hit me I all but lost control. I pushed her off of my lap and onto the ground. I placed myself between her spread legs.

"Deja'vu?"

I looked down at her. It hit me. This was how we had first kissed. Well it was the result of our first kiss.

"I like it."

"I love it."

I silenced her. Her hips moved up to meet mine. As I moaned I felt her fingers working to undo my shirt. Before my boundaries could fall completely I grabbed her hand.

"Bella…"She turned her head.

"Don't…please don't stop.""I have to. I don't want to hurt you. If this goes too far I'm afraid that I might."

"I don't think you will. And how will you know if we don't try?"Was she insane?

"Is having sex really worth risking your life? You cant want it that bad."

Then she looked at me. I really wish she hadn't.

"Oh. So you want me to feel bad because I want to do something that is perfectly natural! You think that I'm risking my life? Edward I am not risking my life. You will not hurt me. Even if you did I know that you wouldn't kill me. You love me and I love you."

Her face was livid.

"That isn't always enough Bella. I do love you but I am a vampire. Sometimes I cant make myself stop. If I hurt you, I don't know that I could live with it."Then she turned on her stomach and crawled out from under me.

"I am going to sleep. I don't care if you lay with me but let me fall asleep first."

I watched the zipper go down and her face disappear.

I felt sick.

I didn't go into the tent. I was still sitting on the ground in front of the fire when my family returned. Alice of course knew what happened and had informed the rest of the family. They didn't bother me. They just went to their tents. We didn't sleep but we could relax. It was something that we often did. It was nice to just lay in silence for hours. My family was very good at shutting their minds down during these times. They did it to relax and to help me relax. I was glad they did it now. I didn't want to hear their thoughts. Alice was still active and I couldn't remover her from my mind. But she didn't want me to.

'Edward. I have seen so many things today. You are changing. Something about Bella is making you different. When you were at the waterfall I saw what you were going to do with her. Not that I wanted to. I saw you start then you wanted her blood. I came to make sure you didn't end up hurting her but I didn't really have to. In the vision you came so close but you stopped yourself. You resisted. That isn't what ended up happening but I couldn't believe it. Even tonight I saw you resist. I would bet that if you wanted to be intimate with her you could.'

I thought over what she had said. She saw me resist. That was saying something considering the emotion and power of the situation.

'I know you think that Bella only wants sex right now. Don't think that's true. She is a normal 17 year old teenager even if she doesn't always seem like it. Her hormones are through the roof. She's giving Jasper a headache.'

I laughed silently at that. Of course he would feel her desire.

'She does love you, Jasper could tell you that without a second thought. You do need to let her get a way just a little. Its not fair.'

Not fair? I wasn't getting anything more out of this than she was. I was just as sexually frustrated.

'Think about that. Good night Edward.'

"Good night Alice."

The next morning I cooked breakfast for Bella. She crawled out of the tent just as I finished. I knew she was still angry. Her face was an obvious statement to that. I handed her the plate without a word and she took it. I watched her while she ate. Her mouth was gorgeous. The way it moved just astounded me. Well astounded wasn't the exact word but it was more appropriate. Her lips were so full and supple. I almost didn't notice when Emmett sat down next to me.

"Edward you are being rude. Bella doesn't want you staring at her while she eats."

Bella glared at me then turned.

Emmett laughed and punched my shoulder.

"You are so obnoxious."

"That's what makes me great."

"Normally I would agree but when it involves myself or Bella, its annoying."

"I apologize oh high and mighty virgin vampire. I should have realized you were fantasizing about her mouth."

Bella turned to look at us. Her face was in pure shock.

"Like you don't know he does it. He is a guy."

"Well yeah but…my mouth?"

Emmett smirked.

"A mouth aint just for chewin."

I could not believe him. He was referring to things like that to Bella? While she ate?"

She swallowed her bite then put the dish down.

"Thanks for that."

He smiled.

"You're a big girl."

"I'm going to go wash up at that pond."

She looked at me.

"Will you please go with me? I don't feel like getting eaten by a bear."

My feelings were hurt but I nodded anyway.

Bella wore the same undergarments as before. She decided that these ones would be for any more water activities so she brought extras to wear back. I sat on the bank trying not to stare at her. It was so hard. Her body was calling out to me. She kept stealing glances at me. I wondered if she minded that I kept looking at her. I couldn't get over the soft curves and perfect skin. I groaned when she went under the surface. I could still make out her shape but it was pointless. I couldn't take it when she came back up. It was a scene straight out of a movie. She came up and threw her hair back behind her. I threw myself back. I couldn't look at her anymore. Apparently she thought there was something wrong. Before I could get back up she was above me. She had her arms on either side of my chest. I couldn't resist. I pulled her body on top of mine. She gasped.

"Edward…"

"Bella I'm sorry that I keep turning you down. I want you so much, you cant understand the torment that I'm going through. Your body…wet like this is something I hadn't prepared myself for when we came here. You are a goddess."

She blushed.

"I…don't know what to say.""Don't say anything."

Then I rolled her over and she unbuttoned my pants.