I didn't know what I wanted to do. I wasn't ready to settle down and have a family. I loved Edward but could I give up on collage and stay home to take care of his child? It made me somewhat sad that I didn't know. When he dropped me off I went straight in and locked my window. After I shut the curtains I sat on my bed and let out some tears. I told Charlie I was sick so he just ordered pizza. I didn't want to see him. Not right now.

The next day I got dressed and headed out to my truck. I was actually surprised that the Volvo wasn't waiting for me. I didn't feel like being around Edward at the moment. I would have no choice soon. He would be waiting in the seat next to mine at school. With a deep breath I pulled into the lot. The Volvo was parked a few spaces over. I got out and went to class. Edward was sitting in his usual seat. He watched me make my way through the room and sit down. He leaned forward and started writing something down. Then he passed it to me.

Bella, please talk to me. Its killing me not knowing what is wrong. I'm just as much involved in this as you are.

I sighed and started writing on the paper.

I'm just having trouble getting through all this. I don't know that I'm ready to just give up my life. I still want to go to collage and stuff.

He read it quickly and wrote back

Having a child doesn't mean you have to give up going to collage or anything else. We have a family ready to take care of the baby while we cant. Esme would be perfectly happy to do it. In fact I think she would steal the baby away if she could. If you don't want to have the baby Bella I will understand. I just want you to really think about this.

I knew that Esme would love to keep the baby. That part made me feel a little bad. Here I was, pregnant and not sure if I wanted the baby and Edwards entire family wanted children but could never have them. It didn't change how I felt though. This would end a big part of my life. I had already raised my mother.

Look, I know that your family would happily keep the baby. I just don't know if I'm ready to be a mom. I feel terrible for even having these thoughts. Just leave me alone okay. Let me deal with this.

I cant just leave you alone. I love you and I'm going to be there no matter what you decide. You are my life Bella, and so is that baby. I don't want you to abort it. If you don't want the baby then I'll take it.

I stared at the paper. He would honestly take the baby even if I didn't want it? How could he care so much when all he knew about the baby was that it had a heartbeat? Wow. I was an awful person. I didn't bother to answer him this time. I just folded up the paper and shoved it in my bag. Edward sighed and kept to himself the rest of class. When the bell rang he stood and waited for me. I tried to act like I didn't know he was there but it was impossible. He walked very close to me. He wasn't kidding when he said he wouldn't leave me alone.

"Bella I was thinking…"

"Edward I don't care. I just want to get through the rest of the day as if everything were normal."

"Love your dating a vampire."

"Says who."

He stopped dead. I took a few more steps before turning around. He was standing there looking hurt and shocked.

"Does that mean we are no longer a couple?""Look Edward I don't know okay. I don't know what I want to happen from this point on."

People around us were now stopping to watch.

"Bella please don't do this. Cant we just talk? We can leave right now and…"

"What do you want from me Edward? Do you want me to smile and act like everything is fine? Oh I know, you want us to run off and be a big happy family! I love you Edward! Okay I do. I just cant stand you on my back all the time. Just give me time to think okay!"

Edward stared at me. His eyes were wide. People around us were whispering.

"I'm going home. I don't know if I can stand seeing you like that and then Alice."

I turned and headed for the parking lot. Edward didn't follow. Just before I turned into the lot I looked back and he was still standing in the same place.

My drive home was long. I started crying just after I got out of the lot and I had to drive really slow. I finally parked on the side of the road and let it all out. This was such a stupid situation. Things like this weren't supposed to happen. Girls only got pregnant in daytime TV shows. None of them ever got pregnant by a vampire though. That happened in cheesy horror movies. I was like the bride of Dracula or something. I was so upset that I almost missed my passenger door opening. I looked over and froze. Rosalie was getting in. She shut the door behind her and looked at me.

"Sorry to interrupt."

"Its fine…""I just wanted to talk to you about your situation."

"How did you know?"

"I figured it out. Its hard to keep secrets in a family like ours."

"Yeah I suppose it is."

"I know that you are thinking about not keeping your baby. I wanted to ask you to give it to me."

What?

"You mean…like adoption?""Yes. I have always wanted a baby Bella, for as long as I can remember. I know how you feel. You are very young. It would be hard for you. I just wanted to give you that option. I don't believe in abortion."

I understood how she felt but I wasn't sure giving the baby to her was the best idea. It would be hard on Edward. He wouldn't want it to be like that.

"Rosalie I would happily give you the baby but I cant."

She looked down.

"Its not because of you. Edward wants the baby. I don't know if I could go through with an abortion. He told me he wants the baby even if I don't."

She nodded.

"I understand. Of course he would want his child."

"Rosalie have you ever thought of just adopting a child?"

"I have but its complicated. I'm afraid of having a human child. With Jasper around and because I know that they would someday wonder why we never aged. Then they would die."

I understood. It would be hard to explain that to a child.

"I don't think it would be so bad if they grew up around you being yourself. Then one day they could make the decision to stay human or have you change them."

She stared at me.

"I'm sorry I haven't been very kind to you. I should have taken the time to get to know you."

"Its fine. I never tried to get to know you either."

"Can I tell you something, even thought you don't want to hear it."I nodded.

"You mean everything to Edward. When I told him I knew what was going on he confessed a lot of things to me. We don't get along Bella, we never have. But last night be told me everything. There is nothing he wants more than to have you forever and for you to have this baby. He wants you to want this as much as he does. I'm not trying to change your mind, I just want you to know that this entire family will be there for you."

She smiled and opened the door.

"Rosalie?"

"Yes."

"Thanks."

I watched as she shut the door and disappeared.

My mind was so full of all the things I had to do that I let a week pass without realizing it. Edward was there next to me every day but I barely noticed. I knew what I wanted to do. I was going do this right. Unfortunately I should have been paying more attention. None of the Cullens said a word to me. At lunch I went out to my truck and ate. I wasn't sure why I was avoiding them. I just didn't want to deal with everything. Alice walked by me once and smiled. She would know what I was doing. I knew she hadn't told Edward though. He was a zombie. I didn't even know why he kept coming to school. It made me feel terrible. I had been waiting for the call from Carlisle. It came when I got home from school about a week and half after the first visit.

"Hello?""Bella?"

"Oh Carlisle. Hi.""How are you?"

"I'm fine. I was waiting for you to call."

"Yes well I gave Edward an appointment card to give to you but he said you told him to leave you alone."

"Yeah I did…I'm just freaked out. He's making me a little crazy I guess."

"I understand. Can you come in Wednesday at 4?"

"Yeah that's great."

"Bella I'm not going to try and counsel you but I think you should sew things up with Edward. I assume that you are going to at least have the baby since you're coming in."

"I'm working on some things right now. Tell Edward I am going to have the baby. I'll talk to him later about what I want to do."

"Alright. I'll see you later Bella.""Okay, bye."

I hung up and felt the silence creep up on me. I had to tell Charlie. He would find out after Wednesday anyway. Nothing was a secret in this town. I took a deep breath and tried to think of an easy way to tell him. There wasn't one. He was going to blow on me. I was actually concerned that he might have a heart attack or a stroke. I would just have to tell him and see what happened. There was no other way. I would do it after dinner.

I made a big nice dinner. Charlie got home right on time and seemed happy enough. We ate mostly in silence. He asked me about my day. I asked him about his. Dinner ended much too quickly. Charlie made his way to the living room while I rinsed the dishes. My hands were shaking. How was I going to do this? When I finally got all the dishes dried I put them away and stood alone in the kitchen. This was going to be awful. I didn't hear Charlie enter the kitchen.

"Hey Bells, something on your mind?"

I was barely breathing.

"Uh yeah there is. I wanted to talk to you about something…"

The doorbell rang.

"Hold on kid."

Charlie went to get the door and I followed him. I felt my jaw drop when he opened the door. There stood Carlisle and Edward. Edward was staring at the ground and Carlisle looked grave. Oh god. They were coming to tell Charlie with me. Oh god. Oh god. Oh god.

"Good evening Charlie. I hope we aren't interrupting anything."

"No please come in."

I lead them into the living room and sat down. Edward sat next to me but Carlisle continued to stand.

"So what can I do for you folks tonight?""Well actually we aren't here to bring you the best news but its news none the less."

Charlie looked at me.

"Does this have anything to do with what you wanted to talk to me about?"

"Yeah dad."He turned back to Carlisle.

"Alright lets get it out. What's going on."

Edward held his hand out and I took it.

"Edward came to me last night for help. He and Bella have gotten themselves into some trouble."

Charlie's face was starting to turn dark red. He looked at us. I saw him look at our clasped hands.

"Bella?"

"Yeah?""What trouble did you get yourself into?"

I tried to speak but my voice vanished. I opened my mouth stupidly then closed it. Tears started welling up in my eyes. Edward kissed my hand.

"I'll tell him if you want."

Right then Charlie grabbed his head and sat in his chair.

"Oh I know where this is going!"

I stood up. I wasn't sure what I should do. I didn't want to just sit there.

"Dad it really isn't as bad as you think…""Don't try to sugar coat it Bella. I knew I shouldn't have let that boy stay here alone with you. I knew it!"

"Dad we never did anything while he stayed here, I swear! It didn't happen then…it was before that."

He shook his head.

"When then? On that camping trip? The one where you were supposed to be supervised?"He glared at Carlisle.

"No dad…it was kinda between those times. Don't blame this on Carlisle and Esme."

Edward stood up.

"Charlie I take full responsibility for this. I'll take care of Bella and…"

"Yeah I see how well you're taking care of her already!"

Carlisle stepped in front of us.

"Charlie this situation is unfortunate but it doesn't have to be all bad. A child is a wonderful thing. Its not something we should be dreading. What happened, happened. There's no going back now."

Charlie sat with his head in his hands. I felt horrible. I sat back down and Edward put his arm around me. I couldn't believe how much I missed having him that close.

"Alright…I uh, I appreciate you coming over. I think Bella and I need to talk about this alone now. We can all discuss this after I've talked to her."

"Thank you, I'd just like to tell you that my wife and I here for anything that is decided. You aren't in this alone Charlie."

Charlie stood up and shook Carlisle's hand.

"I really appreciate it. Maybe I'll pay you a visit at the hospital tomorrow."

"That would be great. Edward."Edward kissed my forehead and put his lips close to my ear.

"Charlie took this well. Don't be nervous, he's not mad, just upset."

Then he stood up to join his father.

"Goodnight Bella."

"Bye Carlisle, Edward."