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BPOV

I smelt flowers.

The first conscious thought I had was that I smelt flowers. And they smelled pretty good. And I knew it was ridiculous that I was focusing on something so silly but damn, did it feel good to be alive.

And with that in my mind, I opened my eyes, and saw Alice peering down on me with a smile, lightly hopping up and down.

"Guys! She's awake!"

"Hi to you too Alice," and my voice sounded kinda raspy which was probably from the lack of any liquid since I had blacked out.

Then I noticed someone squeezing my hand and I looked to see Edward's breath-taking face looking at me with a smile fleeting his lips yet still managing to hold some concern.

And I just gave him a big smile, squeezed his hand back and said,

"Thank you for staying, the stories were amazing."

And Edward just gaped at me, in utter disbelief.

"You could, hear me?" and I saw him gulp, like he was worried about something he had said.

"I heard every word," I assured him. Like that little, four-letter one that stars with an l…. love…. I had so much I wanted to tell him, like reply or feedback to that comment, but I knew it would just have to wait till we were alone.

Because I was reminded of the crowd when I heard Rosalie slap the back of Emmett's head.

"Ow, what was that for?"

"Don't think I can't see you trying to steal Bella's chocolate!"

"Rosalie, it's okay. I don't mind. There's plenty enough for everyone. Emmett, go ahead and take however many you want."

"Jeez, thanks Bella, glad to know someone around here is nice."

I chuckled, it was just chocolate. And Alice all of a sudden butt in and said,

"Rosalie, Emmett, I'm kinda hungry and I'm sure Emmett is too. Let's go check out the café, kay?"

Rosalie replied unsurely,

"Okaaaaay, would that be alright Bella?"

"Yeah, perfectly fine."

And I threw Alice a grateful look because she must have known Edward and I wanted some alone time. I could tell, Alice and were going to be very good friends.

And after they left I said:

"So where's Charlie?" Didn't he want to see his daughter alive?

"I think he's talking to Renee. She's been really worried…."

"Oh Edward, I'm so sorry. I just, didn't know it was too much. Honest mistake, you know?"

"Bella, it wasn't just Tylenol P.M., it was Vicadin. What were you doing taking that? If your wrist was starting to bother you again, why didn't you tell me?"

"It wasn't my wrist. I just, needed something to help me relax and sleep."

"Bella, be serious. There's more to it than that and we both know it!" And Edward's tone had started to become more aggravated by the moment. Was he angry at me? I just came out of a coma and he was angry at me?

"Edward, if you're angry, just spit it out."

"Bella, yes, I'm angry. I'm angry that you would do something like that, especially for some silly reason that you're not telling me. But most of all, I'm angry at myself for letting this happen. I should have been with you all day and I'm sorry I didn't show after school, I just got, side-tracked."

"No need to lie, I know you smoked Edward."

"How would you know?"

"I came to the spot, I saw you, with Emmett, Jasper, Rosalie, and Alice. I saw you all taking hits."

"Yes, Bella, I was there. But when they started taking hits I left. I didn't do anything."

And all the effort he poured into that last word told me he was telling the truth.

"I'm sorry. I guess, I just believed what I saw. I'm sorry I didn't have more faith in you."

And I couldn't look Edward in the eye when I said this because it was embarrassing that I didn't believe him.

But Edward wasn't allowing that, so he took my chin in his hand and brought my face up to his. He gazed into my eyes and said with a pained voice:

"Is that why you did it? Did you take the pills because of me?"

And I was a horrendous liar so there was no way I was going to slip by Edward's bullshit detector and I didn't know what to do. I didn't want to tell him the truth because I knew it would hurt him but I didn't really have any other options….

"I don't know. I just, needed some rest and my mind was pretty full with what I thought happened…" I was trying my best to evade the complete truth.

"Yes or no Bella?" he asked in a stern voice.

"Yes?" I whispered back.

EPOV

I fucking knew it. I had almost killed Bella. I didn't know a shit ton about love but I knew enough to safely say you weren't supposed to kill the one you loved. That was not supposed to be one of the effects.

And I was so disgusted with myself I pushed my chair back roughly, let go of Bella's hand, and got up. I started pacing across the small room, thinking. This meant only one thing, I had to leave.

"Edward?" Bella asked quietly, "W-what are you doing?"

"Bella, I, I have to go."

"Why?" And her voice sounded so hurt and small I couldn't look her in the face because I knew that would make me completely unravel.

"I… have a lot to do."

BPOV

Please. A lot to do? Edward didn't do anything. Well, yes, he had started doing his homework lately but he wasn't that busy. He was never too busy for me.

"Edward, look at me." And I wasn't giving him any of my small, unsure voice anymore. I was downright assertive.

EPOV

Fuck. She wanted me to look at her? I wasn't going to make it if I did that. But I couldn't refuse Bella either…

So I looked. And she was gazing intensely at me. And I couldn't break it. I couldn't look away.

"Come here."

Shit. She was going to touch me too? I was fucked. And I obeyed.

Once I was close enough, she took my hand and squeezed gently. I just shivered because she sent an intense shock through my system.

"Lay next to me?" And she was back to the soft voice, pleading.

As much as I was disgusted with myself, Bella was still perfect, cherubic Bella, so I couldn't help but lie down.

The bed was small, but we managed to fit. And she just snuggled close to me, lying her head on my chest and her arm across my stomach.

"Much better. Now never leave."

And although she said those words with eyes closed, and a smile on her lips, I knew she was being completely serious.

And it fucking killed me to the core. This was my fault. And as if she knew what I was thinking, she said:

"Edward, don't for one second think this is your fault. It was a stupid mistake. Do you hear me?"

And I couldn't respond to that. I couldn't agree with what Bella had just said.

So she opened her eyes, the smile fading from her lips, and she looked up at me staring down on her.

"I can't do that Bella."

"You don't have a choice."

Fuck love. It never gave you choices. It led you wherever it wanted you to go and you were helpless to follow.

But I wouldn't give up just yet. I would persist.

"I'm not giving up just yet."

"Well, neither am I!" Bella shot back.

And I just gave a helpless chuckle. She was so stubborn sometimes.

BPOV

I was so tired and I felt completely safe in his arms so that's about when I drifted off into sleep. Not the forced, drug-induced sleep, but the kind that just took you over when you were completely at ease. Blissful sleep.

And I was woken up by the nurse clearing her throat. I opened my eyes, pretty peeved, and notice Esme at my bed side looking down on Edward, who was still asleep next to me, with love, joy, and pride? So I guess she had no problems with us. And I smiled at the thought until I remembered Charlie.

Shit. He definitely would not be happy. And I looked around the room, but the coast was clear. Safe for now I thought.

"Sorry to wake you Bella, but you must be starving and Edward told me how much you like ice cream so I brought you some warm food and a hoodsie cup."

So Edward had been talking about me? That just made me smile all wide and goofy. Well, that and the fact that Esme brought me a hoodsie cup. I couldn't really hide my excitement.

"Thanks, you really didn't need to."

"Don't be silly, it's my job. Now, do you want to eat it in bed or would you like to sit on a chair? They told me you should stay in bed but what they don't know can't hurt them, right?"

And Esme winked. I was really starting to like Edward's mom.

"Yeah, a chair would be great. Too long lying down, you know?"

Esme just nodded her head and set the tray of food on the table next to the chair while I gently pulled the bed covers off me so as not to wake Edward, and tried to swing my legs off the bed.

And I just figured I was so tired that it would take more effort to get up that I tried again, but still unsuccessful. Weird, my legs weren't responding…

"Esme, is it weird for my body to be really tired right now?"

"No, that's completely normal. Why?"

"I can't move my legs."

And Esme rushed over and said:

"What do you mean Bella?"

"I can't move them."

Esme's face started to become alarmed and she said:

"Try wiggling your toes, Bella."

I tried, but still couldn't.

"I can't…."

And the fear started creeping into my voice.

"Bella, I'm going to swing your legs over the bed for you and test your knee reflexes, okay?"

"Okay…."

And when she used the knee-jerking thing to whack my knee, my knee didn't do it's normal jerk reaction, I didn't even feel it.

"Bella, I…"

"Yeah?"

And as much as I wanted to know what she was going to say, I was scared; afraid to hear what part of me already knew.

"Let me get the doctor. Just, stay put."

Yeah, well, don't really have a choice do I? And my frustrating with the situation was causing me to get angry. Esme just rushed out of the room, down the hall, and out of sight.

That's when I remembered Edward by my side, because he mumbled something and adjusted his position and reached his arm over and only found my pillow. He then proceeded to open his eyes and as much as I wanted to smile for Edward, the best I was able to do was hide the worry from my face.

Once again, the title of the chapter is not mine, belongs to Say Anything. But it fit so I used it.... :) Reviews are awesome and... I can't wait to write more!!!!